Day 14 & some jabber : )

[Zillialee]

Hi and thanks again to everyone on here that helped me get through quitting to this point.  I have still been trying not to read too much on here, just the positive things, things people like about being sober, not how awful it is.  I  (and I'm sure this is true for others) don't like to read about the cravings and how hard it is and blah, blah, because I will get that **** stuck in my head and instead of living my life and enjoying being off those damn pills, my focus can easily shift to the negative.  I really had no problem withdrawing.  It had to be the combo of the taper, the clonidine, the vitamins (I had to quit the Aminos after a few days, they were making me too bloated) and that fact that I was ready, I was done. Those are my words of advice if they help anyone new on here. I do get a craving (every other day or so) here and there but it only lasts about a min. and then it's gone, and I only get those urges when I’m sitting on my a$$ for too long doing nothing. There is so much more positive than negative now and keeping busy is HUGE still.  I used the pills so I could chill and sit on my *** when I wanted too, this is the biggest void I have had to fill.  I just keep myself busy and I'm good. I never was unable to sleep, even through the worst of the withdrawals, I feel really lucky but I also feel that when you are ready, you are ready and that some people want to quit but are not quite there yet.  I don’t know, does that make sense?  Anyways, I do get on here and read about how good things are going for people and I'm happy for all of you who have found success with quitting and I wish all the luck to those of you planning to quit.  Have a great day everyone : )

[itsaloveHATEthing]

Congrats on your day 14, I have been struggling w/ my cravings after initial physical detox, and reading about boredom and how much staying busy helps you really turned on a light bulb in my head...thanks for the positivity!

[marcatj]

Baby - I get it 110% and if you don't put you and your sobriety first - whatever it takes - it'll all mean bupkis!

So you just keep doing your thing, sweetheart...

:-)
mj

[Zillialee]

Thanks you guys : )  Congrats to you too!  I will get to a point where I can read more and I plan to help others get started in their recovery too, it's just too hard right now, I need to get some more time in before I feel I can do that as much as I want and am planning on doing it.  I feel that staying here and reading about people at the beginning of the struggle will help me stay grounded and appreciate what I am overcoming, but I need to do what I have to for myself until I feel more stable with my addictive mind (it's a sneaky little devil, hahaa)  Enjoy your day, both of you, and thanks for the comments and support : )

[VOsRose]

It's true...our minds play a huge role in our recovery.  I understand about not wanting to read people's "negative" remarks about their struggles with cravings and bad feelings.  However, those posts are important so that we can help them through those struggles.  Whatever works best for you is great!  I, and probably everyone here, understands your position on that!

Congratulations on day 14!  That's huge!  Way to go!

Rosie

[marcatj]

you make perfect sense.  and congrats on Day 14!  (we're on the same day, btw.)

and I'm glad you mentioned that about the amino's - I have had a GUT lately and didn't know why!!!  LOL.

again - congrats to you on your success sister... it's wonderful.

:)
mj