By the way this post is from 2-19 not 2-20 did I respond to the right one? Is this the post your talking about?
Pac, I just re-read this entire post.
I would like to explain my posts.
You mention using two doctors.
You mention a friend who has a great narcotics supply.
You mention taking 30 tabs of pills a day.
You also mention that you didn't go and get more pills
from your friend and that is great.
Pac, I was there I lived it. I was trying to get your attention I even apoligized in my post for coming on so strong.
I am a sponser, and have been sober for 474 days. I want you to be pain free, drug free but as I said it is your life.
Fact, most addicts don't change until something bad happens hense the words "crash and burn"!
I am sorry if my words offended you that wasnt my intention. I am trying to fine tune from abrasive to semi abrasive.
Today is the 25th I get up and I have to search back because you leave me a post about the 20th. I went back and found this. I hope that you won't blame me for quitting this post. That is distorted thinking and blaming someone else for your problem of addiction.
I wish we could sit and have a cup of coffee and talk one day I think I am a good person but one thing is for sure I tell the truth and I am very strong about recovery................
Sorry, but your not ready to stop yet.
The bad thing is something really bad will probably have to happen in your life first and that sucks.
Sorry if I came on to strong, its your life.......
if your taking 30 tens a day why aren't you going over and picking up from your friend?