GOTTA STAY ON TASK - TAPERING

[mshell62]

I already took my "last half" of a Hydro already tonight...- it hasnt done anything... I am tapering and took a half this morning.  I feel like I gotta run a marathon.  The heaviness in my chest.  Horrible.  

I know I should have done CT but I cannot right now.  I dont have the luxury to take a week off work.  

I took vitamins today, and am doing everything I can to just stay away from my bottle and grab another half of a pill.

Yesterday, I had two "halves" and my second "half" made me a little nauseous.  I wasnt anxious at all.  I felt like it was "enough".  But I took my first dose early this morning, so alot of time has gone by since last "half".

I have not been taking more than I should... i havent gone into my bottle and grabbed a little more since I started this taper.  In fact, my husband had dental work and he took TWO of my pills the other day.  I parted with them with little fight...(well, i actually handed them to him... but i didnt like it ONE BIT!).

OK - Wish me luck for the rest of the night!

Mshell

[1234betterlife]

honey go easy on yourself. this is very very hard to do. i could never taper. that bottle would have been so gone. very proud of you. just keep posting so the anxiety won't get you. the mental battle is 90%. you are such a nice addict. i would have chewed someones hand off if they wanted 2 of my vics..lol

[oxyaddict420]

YOU ARE DOING GREAT KEEP IT UP!!!!

[mshell62]

ok - I didnt get into my bottle of vicodin - BOY did I want to!!!!!!!!!!!!

I did take a valium - not till 11:45 at night - (good procrastination) and this really helped take the edge off the anxiety.

Ok, one more day closer to being free of this poison.

Thanks all

[Clamity2]

Yes you are going to make it. I have a good feeling about your attitude!!  

[mshell62]

thank goodness I work from home, but still, I need to function and have 100% accuracy.  I dont have any more paid time off to use, either, due to other issues.  

I will do this.  I feel very good about it.  I was getting overly anxious earlier, but you guys have helped immensely.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Hang in there. If it gets too rough to work....it is the flu season.:-)

[mshell62]

Well finally my procrastination comes in handy!  

Yes, I am just sitting here, my legs shaking rediculously.  I got down and did a few pushups, put a load of clothes to wash, whatever it takes.  

Thanks for the support!

[Clamity2]

You can do it!!  One of us will usually be around if you need assurance. It sure helped me. Good Luck , hang in there. Procrastination is a good method for not using. When you get a few days under you then you will feel alittle better each day.