LIFE is so LONELY when you don't tell. Like being in a desert and thirsting so much for God, Peace, Serenity, but never reaching it. I am forced to rely on myself (my unstable self) for everything. Just think you are all on the right path when you OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SPEAK THE TRUTH.
Peace~
i'm sure i've told you thisd before, but let me tell you, coming clean w/ family was hard. coming clean w/ doctor my worst fear!!!! took me 5yrs to get the courage to do that.
but after i did, girl, i walked out of his office feeling like a million pounds had been lifted off of me.
i no longer feel weighed down, tied down to pills. i am still taking them on a taper schedule, but something about coming 100% clean has made my journey no longer feel like a burden (i dirty little secret)
you'll get there in your own time, hell took me 5yrs, LOL
and when it's time for you to tell, you'll know. you'll feel it in your heart.
dont rush yourself, or feel pressured because others are doing it. you can and will do it when YOUR READY...
keep remembering "BABY STEPS" and you'll get there ion your own timec
keep up your strength, your doing so good, i can see a huge difference in your posts, from only a few days ago.
be proud of yourself, as i am proud of you
Hey Sweetheart you're not alone.
I'm on you like a fly on... ah nevermind :-) LOL
Listen - don't give me any credit ok?
When your entire family, daughters, ex-wife, niece & best friend, all look out the window and see an ambulance carry you away - you pretty much don't have to tell them why especially with the family grapevine of gossip. I WISH I had told them at least then they'd know the truth - it wasn't suicide, at least not a conscious attempt.
Anyway, I did tell my g/f but honestly my family figured it out.
No kudos for me.
Instead, why not give yourself some credit for at least TRYING - for cryin out loud most humans couldn't bear this kinda pain! Most dont even try! You're here, you're fighting - and dammit - you are worth saving even if only for you!
/D
Loneliness is a trigger.
How can you live in a trigger and expect to succeed?
Addicts need help or most of the time they are stuck in Limbo.......forever.....
Baby Steps - indeed
Tink I luv ya (girl!) :-) LOL
First day here, actually searching from Google - and what do I find?
Tink's posts, lots of'em.
BABY STEPS
Let me tell you, Creek & Tink & whoever else - after 24hrs of c/t I was READY TO GIVE UP OR DIE. Thing is, I'm a moron - I would have taken a whole handful of pills instead of the 1/2 that I ended up taking 2 hours later.
Why? Because I see things black and white. I've been a software engineer for 23+ years, I see 0's and 1's that's all. For me it was c/t or nothing. If I couldn't have success immediately then what's the use.
Well I read Tink's posts and others - and realized I can take baby steps, and still get there.
As for telling - Tink is right on - when you're ready you will.
love you guys
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Creek, please try an N/A meeting, just try it.
People there won't judge you, they will listen.
It is nice to sit with people who are drug free and wont push tons of beliefs and advice down your throat.
Try it Creek,,,,,you need another outlet besides here...