my update/dr visit/depressed

[troubleinohio]

Wow I cant believe all the responses to "my fall/relapse" posting. Thanks for all the input everybody. Both good and bad. I can see every ones point of view on this. I want to clarify a few things. You are correct that i did NOT tell the ER doc I am a newly recovering addict. Did not even mention past usage of pain pills. The doctor simply asked me if I can take Vicodin and I said yes. ANd that was it, the script was wrote.  So I suppose I did make a mistake there. BUt I was afraid if I had admitted my addiction, they wouldnt give me anything to take that would control the pain. As a chronic pain sufferer already, I know first hand what drugs do and dont work for me. I have a shelf full of bottles of pills here of failed medicine trials including tramadol, ultracet, mobic and tons of other NSAIDS and non narcotic pain relievers. They dont help my daily ordinary pains, much less severe pain.  And Ive already been using Motrin 800 daily forever now which i recently stepped up the amt i take a day due to that stupid TMJ flare a few days ago.  So anyways, I want to update you on things today. I went to the ortho yesterday. NOt much happened there, it was pretty much a waste of a day and headache getting to the city and back. Just poked and prodded, took a few more xrays and concluded the same- badly bruised and maybe a hairline fracture but nothing more. He said to continue on the meds as needed and come back in 4 weeks for follow up.
Im sore as hell today still and its so hard to do anything. The old adage is so true "you dont know how much you use ________ (body part)______ until you hurt it!"!!!!! I never realize how much you use your HIP for things, geez, lol.   Also, Im actually having difficulty tolerating the vicodin now. My asthma has been in a bad flare and i can hardly breathe. The Vic is actually afffecting my breathing much in the same way that horrid MS Contin did to me a while back. I can hardly even take the medicine because it makes me wheeze much worse and panic.  So I guess thats a good thing, my former DOC has turned on me too. But I also know that after even taking 1 of those pills, it set me back to Square One again, and I will have to relive the hell of WD all over again. I am very depressed about this and dreading it so much. I feel very depressed this morning knowing I have to go thru that again, and right at christmas time too.

Well, have to go, just wanted to update. Thanks everyone for your support, and even for some of your suspicious questions.

[cathy5841]

I had been clean for 14 days and wound up in the hospital with gall bladder surgery, they gave me the pains pills (I didn't mention my lil problem either) I came home with 30 and took them for 5 days, but I forced myself to take only when I had to, after day 5 I flused the rest and now I am on day 29 clean...because I didn't take that many there was no w/d or hell again!!!Come on you can do this I believe in you.  Just get off as quickly as possible, mostly take the pain as much as possible and only take a pill if you HAVE to.
Love and Prayers your way,
Cathy

[BlotOutTheSun]

dont know why people havent posted stuff, usually everyones very helpful and enlightening, but who cares i think you can do it and im sure everyone else does also

DONT GIVE IN
DONT GIVE UP

[BlotOutTheSun]

you dont have to relive the withdrawals, i think if you take them as prescribed or break them in half, which as a pill head i know that is difficult lol, but just dont take more than prescribed and as the pain goes away slowly taper you know this, i think youve told me sometime or another you can do it, i dont feel youll have trouble in ohio at all
GOOD LUCK
RISE ABOVE THIS!!!!!!!!!!