W/D's keep getting worse!

[sadmarebearseyes]

I don't get it. Most people start to get better after a week or so' but not me. After detoxing off methadone I was so ill and dehydrated 2 weeks later that i ended up in the hospital and put back on methadone. When that ran out i was back on heroin. I tried to detox from that again and it was the same thing. No matter what meds they gave me to help it did not! I laid there and felt like dying. After 14 days i was still throwing up could'nt hold anything down and was dangerously dehydrated. My body was in so much pain i could not even get up to go to the bathroom. My husband called 911 and i was admitted with broken ribs from getting sick and was told that in three days i could have been dead. I was givin 41 bags of IV fluids in the weeek i was in there and once again after tring every type of medication on earth, put back on methadone to stop the withdraws because the team of doctors were concerned for my well being. What in the world is going on with me?????? Has anyone gone thru this? What did you do? Does anyone have any advise for me please? So worried i will be on something for the rest of my life. I just want to be clean and happy again. I am so scared and spend most of my time crying. Worried that i am screwed for life.

[MontanaGurl]

wow is right, that is really not encouraging at all especially when it comes from a doctor.  well, i have not had any experience with methadone but, i am assuming that when you detoxed that you did a taper?  maybe with your medical history and your personnal body, everyone is unique and what works for one may not work for another.  maybe you will need to taper over a long period of time - like a year.  I know that sounds like a long time but, if you look at it as a year out of the rest of your life it doesn't sound bad.  maybe talk to your doctor about it.  but, taper slow over a long period and make it permenant instead of trying to taper over a matter of weeks.  that obviously is to fast for you.  and from what i have heard, alot of people say that methadone was a witch to come off of.  and of course their are other's that say it wasn't a big deal and they have come off of worse stuff.  but, bottom line is, we are all unique and we need to do what is good for us and you may just have to take a longer time to taper
KUDOS to you for wanting to get off of the meds.  I will have to be on some sort of pain management for the rest of my life due to my situation and I have ran out of my meds a couple of times this past year and it wasn't fun at all.  I wish that I could just taper and be done with this poisen but, i think if i had to deal with the pain, it would either give me a heart attack, send me to the nut house or i would wind up doing myself in.  it is like a double edged sword - darned if i do and darned if i don't.

anywho - you are in my thoughts and prayers this evening, i hope you can find a way to beat this bear down, keep strong and try to stay positive - have a good evening.

montanagurl

[boogieman]

hi. you may need to slowly taper off of methadone under medical supervision. if done slowly enough, the process can be much less disturbing. are you using aa or na? they address the emotional and spiritual side of chemical dependency in a way that rarely fails if adhered to, and it's free. lots of people continue to pour money and time into hospitals, shrinks, and 'miracle cures' primarily because they are conditioned to do so, and have the false belief that they must spend these resources to attain a sure-fire, 100% successful, instantly gratifying cure. stopping the use is easy. staying stopped takes effort----at first a lot of it. if someone had a guaranteed solution, trust me, the pharmaceutical companies would be all over it. there are usually other conditions present such as depressive or anxiety based disorders, even physical problems such as liver damage and malnutrition, and they should be treated respectively with medications and other therapy. but the fact remains, those who give themselves completely to programs like aa and stick with it have the greatest progress and quality of life. a lot of people haven't had enough pain or swallowed their pride in order to succeed in applying the principles behind the 12 steps to their lives. and yes, those individuals will fail over and over. i am a miracle not of modern medicine, but of the power that is found at the point of desperate surrender. if you have not tried it, you ought to give yourself a break and give it a shot. everything is relative to acceptance and perception, and when these are workable, people are able to live a life they never dreamed of. i was pronounced hopeless by all sorts of medical professionals----they could do nothing else for me. i was almost dead. aa gave me my life back. take care,            gm

[sadmarebearseyes]

I have ovar. cancer and i am bi-polar but, other than that no other problems. And the doctors told me that there is a small percent of people that physically and medically can't manage to go thru the withdraws and will continue on something for the rest of their lives. Real encourgement huh? The time i was in the hospital i was treated as a detox case. They put me back on methadone. Great cure huh? So tired of this never ending junk. Really wanna give up sometimes. My kids keep me trying. Last time i started having sezuries(not sure i spelled that right,sorry)!! Never had those in my life. It's like every day gets worse and thats the truth. -Mary B.

[boogieman]

hi. is an inpatient detox facility an option? methadone is one of the worst drugs when it comes to withdrawal. i came off of it, alcohol and benzos at the same time and yes, a month into it i still felt like hades. do you have any additional underlying medical conditions? what did the doctors at the hospital suggest? please advise----gm