Fighting over Vicodin

[oxyaddict420]

These Pills are horrible in sooo many ways yet the cravings are insane.  I had given the pills to my fiancee to help me control how many i take.  Well It was supposed to be like 2 7.5 vicodinES maybe 3 times  a day.  Well this morning first dose I told her please give me 3 and then the rest will be only 2 i PROMISE!  Well doese 2 comes up and i ask for 3 again. She says no hundred times and I just dont take no for an answer. She got so frustrated that she threw the bottle at me and left the house saying do whatever the f@@k you want.  So what do I do?: I pop 4 of them. How pathetic...  I dont expect kind words, or nice responses because so many are actually trying to quit.  I on the other hand am just bailing out.  Whoever reads this that is actually withdrawling right now, use this as a reason to stay clean and keep working it.  See how bad of decisions we can make because of these damn pills?!!!!!! GGOD LUCK TO EVERYONE THAT IS DOING IT! GOD BLESS

[justflippindoit]

Hey you should be able to handle it. Remember. the discomfort is inside of you, no else can see it, so be yourself and push through it. engage engage engage, you'll be at your best when you force yourself to interact with others even though everything insde you is saying "go hide" but day 4 should be a turnng point for you, take a nice hot shower or bath before people strt getting there, and while in the shower, before your get out , turn the water on ice cold for just about 3 seconds :-) this will kick your natural endorphines into gear. During the day and night tomorrow splash some cold water on your face. Day 4 is the way back to you so make it through and day 5 is much easier, you'll be going back and forth till about day 6 and 7 and then your brain will finally come to the conclusion its not getting any more. IT ALL IN OUR HEADS. Have a Good day tomorrow. We have to decide to be well. Our brains are marvelous creations. We are in control.

[lostsoul2]

I am on day 3 off of norcos and feeling pretty lousy today, and we have about 25 people coming over!!  You are not alone.  I looked in the mirror this morning and said to myself that  I look lke hell.  I do.  Just know you are not alone my friend.

[oxyaddict420]

You are right about the ovedose thing.  I havent had any symtoms, but it is just a matter of time if I keep that sh!t up.  The only reason i even take so much of that extreme tylenol is because that is the only vicodin that i could get and each one has 750mg of it in there. I prefer to have just the narcotic.  I am so used to extreme amounts of oxycontin that when I got these it was like chewing mints.  They really didnt even get me high as I took more and more to try.  

Right now I have 8 7.5 750 vicodin left and I woke up this morning wanting to pop 4 or 5 at one time REALLY BAD! but thought "what about x=mas" I really need to at least take control even if it is for these 8 pills to last.  Yes I am trying to make them last to get to the 28th when my best hook-up gets his meds re-filled which is 15mg oxycodone immediete rlease pills. I get 90-100 of them off him for $2.00 per pill  Which for around here is a good deal(especially since it is my drug of choice)  My plan is to just make those 90 last all month so that there is no w/d.  That would be taking just 3 of them a day(which i have never done yet)  I usually take 18-22 of them per day because they really get me high and make me feel great. at least what I think feeling great is as being a f%#@! up addict!  Thanks for talking to me about this.  I really want to be better, or at least control this, but I a such an addictive personality it IS SO FRIGGIN HARD!

[justflippindoit]

Like I said it take some mental preperation. I suggest you do it over a vacation from work or during some downtime. My final time, I started on a Thursday , during the work week. I am on stage everyday at work, people come in and out of my office like a Mall. I was so scared!!! I did not know how to act or what to say, my insides were screaming out!!!!!!!! pure toture man. By the following Thursday I was the spokesperson for recovery. I typically hate people like that, But wow what a ride. ITS A QUICK turnaround. 7 DAYS I was restored back to who I was. You were right to say that maybe you do not want to, I found if it was available there was no way I was going to quit. I had to run out, and then the last Time I ran out 10 days before my script was to be filled. I was in big trouble. What do I do? Shocking the thoughts that ran through my head so I could get more. Do i hurt myself so I can go to the ER and get pain meds??? And worse thoughts than that, that if I would have acted on them would have ruined my life and lives of my wife and son. Its a bizarre experience. You are educating yourself about the addiction. HBO has a really good series on addiction and it shows how your brain actually changes, the good news is that it changes back once you get the **** out of your system. Takes a little while though. Opaiates are the same thing Herion is made out of so do the math about what your up against. Herion addcts and pain pll abusers are the same breed my friend. Ask yourself, What are you willing to lose to continue on this path. Taking 25 7.5 a day is at a overdose level. Your heart could stop at that level and your respiration cease while sleeping. Do your eyes flutter in your head---sign of overdose.

If you are taking 25 and can not see yourself  going cold turkey then cut down to by halves each day. 25 to 13 , then 13 to 6 then 6 to 3 and then 3 to 1 and stay on 1 or 2 for about a week. then go to .5 for a week  and then .25 for a week.  you will be amazed how .25 mg actually helps.

There is no way you need 25 7.5 . I thnk the most anyone would need even for chronic pain would be about 80 mg a day, that would be 8 Norco (10mg each) a day and probably could get away with 6 if there is a night time muscle relaxant such as soma.

I've been a chronic pain sufferer for years so I know the ropes pretty well. I believe in the medications ability to truly help people, but we as individuals have to decide if it is worth the cost which could be and most definitly will be addiction and even possibly death if we abuse. We all respond diffrently to medications , nothing worked for me except Vicodin , which is Norco. but finally decided it wasn't worth the dependance. You will love the freedom that is waiting for you once you decide to step away , look up . When you discover that all ths time you have been crawling when in actuality

you could fly.

[RebelsHubby]

My bad, it was hard to tell from the small pic.  A Pontiac Custom is a bit of a rare bird, pardon the pun.  I have owned a '69 Camaro for 28 of the last 30 years, it's my favorite if you couldn't tell.

[oxyaddict420]

That is a pontiac custom, but close guess.  I had a 1968 Rally Sport Camero 2 door hard top.  I will post it to my name when I can. I agree Camero's RULE!  Thanks for the kind words.