GOOBIE1234

[GOOBIE1234]

I need help trying to taper off methodone does anyone have any suggestions on how to this without going in the hospital I am a single mother and cant afford to go in rehab I am going to try to do this by myself. PLEASE HELP!!!!!

[serenitysaves]

I'm sorry if it seems I'm butting in but my experince on methadone has been completly different then how it's been with yours.  I was an "active addict"  on herion for just under four years.  and with this came bad choices, shame to myself and family, broken relationships, criminal history, and a new mental attitude that to survive ment I was in it only for myself.  of course they're is so much more but really what happened is I had to learn how to live on the streets. Durning this time I lost sight of the"real world" the "normal" I lived in a space that only had to do with a life style of getting drugs.  I tried a number of detox's, rehabs, and one half way house.  needless to say I continued with my own vices to use.  I came upon methadone as a legal way to use and get high.  Sone enough did I realize if taken as prescribed there would be no high.  The first year was a strugle, but sone I started to find myself again.  Today I live in a beutiful home that is not yet paid off but is mine, I have two wonderful childern that I pray never have to see me in "active addiction", my family and I are once again that a family, I'm in school working on a degree in social sciences.  Yes, I'm leaving out the pain and hard work it took to get to this point. and my point is that even on methadone I'm showing up for my life today!!!  Which is something I was incapable of doing before.  I work a program in N/A , yes even on methadone. Everyone in my area knows my situation.  They might not like the idea of methadone, but with me they've seen it work how it's supposed to. and they support me in my recovery.  We've all seen too many people DIE because they could'nt get or stay clean.  For me, I'm o.k with showing up for my life because I found methadone.

In saying this I understand it does alter my mind in some ways, but I'm not in so much of a fog that I can't love my family and be able to be loved.
I am scared to death to get off, because I'm scared of death and I know what as an active addict am capable of.
Today I'm at 49mill. I will continue to come down 2 mill a week.  I was at 95mill for most of the last five years and have not yet felt any w/d's.
anyway, I'm sorry for butting in, but for some people it works.
Like doctors and addicts alike they say this is a disease, and for me methadone has been a great medacation to help me learn how to live again.
Take Care, Robin

[orangefyre]

Ok I'm Back, You there GOOB?
Whats the GOOBIE for anyway? just curious.
:-P
Lisa

[orangefyre]

I gotta run in town real quick, I WILL be back, keep writing, whatever you want.
See ya n a few
:)
Lisa

[orangefyre]

There is still alot of mystery behind Methadone. Even if w/d does hit you hard, the sooner you start the quicker its over. Your girls will provide some much needed motivation, but you will have to do the rest. This is one of those things you really can think to death. If you think about it too long, you might talk yourself out of it. Trust me, your girls will thank you when its over. Mine did. She was the only one of my kids who knew, and of course my man. I know you are single, I was at one time, too. I started using Methadone for all the wrong reasons neither of which involved an actual presciption. I bought every single one of them.
This was, however, the first time I had withdrawan from anything. Oh I quit smoking for a couple years, but started again. I dont think of a cigarette addiction even in the same realm of addiction as Methadone. They longer you stay on it, the more it sucks the life out of you. If you have to fear something, fear that...use it to get off of it and get clean.

[GOOBIE1234]

I think I am afraid of this because I have been there once already and it was the worse thing I had ever been through. It was even worse then fighting the cancer. (If that is possiable) I am glad you are brutal I need to hear it from someone else who has been there. But the first time I went through it was norco methodone is alot stronger than that I guess that is why I am scared it was bad with norco I know it is gonna be worse with this.

[orangefyre]

Really if you look at it from a reversed aspect...
How long did it take you to become addicted and up to the dosage you are taking? If you allow your body the same amount of time to get clean as it took for you to find out you were addicted then it would take forever...ok almost. Your body is an amazing machine and does not require as much time to detox as it took for you to get hooked. You have to expect some discomfort while you detox, it part of the machine.
Withdrawals are also a personal experience, each persons withdrawal symptoms and time to withdrawal are different.
I just made my mind up to do it...and did it. Now it's over. For me, I can't believe how much time I wasted...well, being wasted. It clouds your mind. Its so gradual that you dont even notice it until its gone. I know it now, boy do I. Everything is so clear and crisp and clean now, its like being slowly reborn into a moment of clarity where you end up with a better understanding of YOURSELF.
That may be deep, sorry bout that.
Lisa