Help... I need to know why

[brandiroars386]

I need to know why I have been craving alcohol.  It is NOT my drug of choice.  It's like I can taste it, I am ashamed to admit that.  I have thought about it for the past couple of days, and it's not even noon and I am thinking about it now.  Why would that happen?  I did like to drink and I would drink when I chewed my pills, but I have never felt like I HAD to have it, ya know?  I have not had anything in my system for 136 days, not even alcohol.  This just seems so strange to me.  Any comments/advise would be greatly appreciated.

[jugglin]

I'm glad you posted this because I went through the same thing. I had always been a drinker to a point but when I quit narcotics I went bat$hit crazy wanting vodka.  I drank it and realized I wanted/craved more.  I recognized, for me, I was wanting ANYTHING to replace the numbing of the vicodin.  This lasted a few weeks and then I just kicked alcohol out of my house because I knew I was using it as a replacement.  I am not clean nearly as long as you are though.  IBK is absolutely right, talk about it in a meeting or with a sponsor.  Wishing you the best!

[ROSYouralright]

How about going to the mall and walking around?? Taking the kiddos to the zoo or a museum? Have a girl/spa day? Hit the gym? Just something to redirect your thoughts...

[brandiroars386]

My God, when is the ******** ever gonna stop?  I am trying to throw myself into things, and it works for a period of time, and then it just comes back.  I can see myself at the bar with a drink and that is scary.

[brandiroars386]

I am feeling a little defeated or something, like I am being dragged through the mud all over again.  Don't get me wrong I have days when I want my Oxy, but damn this is crazy

[vicki595]

UGH!  I feel badly for you...What's your day like today?  How can you switch focus?  I know ric jumps in to a cold shower when he feels this way...I used to drink a glass of icy water and then vacuum...sometimes just going outside changes focus...oh and brushing your teeth...

[jugglin]

I really do feel for you...I usually start watching the clock around 3pm wanting a drink. I guess a replacement for watching the clock to take a pill.  As time passes for me, the clock watching becomes less and less.  I was reading some great threads regarding PAW's and am guessing these feelings fall in there somewhere.  Keep fighting the urge.  Don't let the devil creep up on you and sneak thru a back door.  Use your tools you learned months back - music, exercise, dance around the house, go to a meeting. Sending prayers for strength your way!