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How come day 5 is still so bad?
I'm in the middle of day 5, and I really feel terrible today. Restless leg syndrome is back, and feel cold, shaky, depressed, anxious. And really alone. Any suggestions. I'm on the recipe.
I would have posted quicker, but I'm PACKING! Geez... the girls... I mean San Diego does sound good. I thought Santa Barbara was for the rich and famous. Is that right? Or do they allow "our types" in there.
By trade, I've been in software development for over 20 years. If I could make a living in Northern California with the Redwoods... man, that would be stylin'. I've lived in Texas all my life and I am ready for a change.
Let me ask you... Here in Texas, we perceive California as a lot more layed back. Is that right? Or is this perception as accurate as all our wagon trains lined up at the feed lot here in Texas. California is hot in High Tech, so it is one of two choices for me. I was figuring on either California or the Denver area. But then, I've never seen snow more than a 1/4 inch deep in my life.
Hey bmac... Look man! I'm making (a few) coherent sentences now!
Day 12 Partner. I"m RIDING THE MONKEY!
Later buds..
Mike
By trade, I've been in software development for over 20 years. If I could make a living in Northern California with the Redwoods... man, that would be stylin'. I've lived in Texas all my life and I am ready for a change.
Let me ask you... Here in Texas, we perceive California as a lot more layed back. Is that right? Or is this perception as accurate as all our wagon trains lined up at the feed lot here in Texas. California is hot in High Tech, so it is one of two choices for me. I was figuring on either California or the Denver area. But then, I've never seen snow more than a 1/4 inch deep in my life.
Hey bmac... Look man! I'm making (a few) coherent sentences now!
Day 12 Partner. I"m RIDING THE MONKEY!
Later buds..
Mike
San Diego is nice. There is a great bay there, some nice beaches, great looking girls. Mexico is a few miles away. Close to LA. Doesn't have alot of character, but it's a good place. Have you considered Santa Barbara? If you are looking for temperate climate, you can't do much better.
Thank you Mariposa for your kind words. Sometimes I need to step away from the constant drudgery of this WD thing and spew idiotic diatribe. I'm grateful no one's cursed me yet, but I guess I'm due.
Hellbent, I was thinking of San Diego. The climate (if you go by weatherunderground.com) seems to be moderate unlike the 500 degree days in the summer here and when it does lightly dust the roads with ice pellets, it's like going to Bash-o-rama's destruction derby around here. NO ONE knows how to drive on ice here including me. How's San Diego?
Let me tell you about the Wrangler thing. Here in Texas, if your waste is a 36, then you buy a 30 and CRAM into em. Problem is, when you're on Methadone, you forget you're walking around all day racking yourself. When you get home and figure it out, well... it's just too damn late. I'm done wearing $hit that gives me wedgies. If I weren't afraid of getting my a$$ kicked every 5 minutes, I'd walk around in a moo-moo or a dashiki all the time.
Later folks.
Mike
Hellbent, I was thinking of San Diego. The climate (if you go by weatherunderground.com) seems to be moderate unlike the 500 degree days in the summer here and when it does lightly dust the roads with ice pellets, it's like going to Bash-o-rama's destruction derby around here. NO ONE knows how to drive on ice here including me. How's San Diego?
Let me tell you about the Wrangler thing. Here in Texas, if your waste is a 36, then you buy a 30 and CRAM into em. Problem is, when you're on Methadone, you forget you're walking around all day racking yourself. When you get home and figure it out, well... it's just too damn late. I'm done wearing $hit that gives me wedgies. If I weren't afraid of getting my a$$ kicked every 5 minutes, I'd walk around in a moo-moo or a dashiki all the time.
Later folks.
Mike
"When on Methadone, I tried to wear the wranglers"
Hee Haw, that's some funny ****. First time I've really laughed in a few days.
Maybe god wants you to bring the message of love and tolerance to Bandera. And then again, maybe he wants you the **** out of there as soon as you get well enough to make an informed decision about what's next.
Always room for a texas hippy cowboy addict here in San Fran.
Hee Haw, that's some funny ****. First time I've really laughed in a few days.
Maybe god wants you to bring the message of love and tolerance to Bandera. And then again, maybe he wants you the **** out of there as soon as you get well enough to make an informed decision about what's next.
Always room for a texas hippy cowboy addict here in San Fran.
I loved your description of the town in which you live. Your posts in general are so honest and funny. You are right that you cannot move away from your problems, but you can move to a more diverse place with more options. Good luck to you...
Maybe where I am is relavent. I live in what is considered (NO BS) the "Cowboy Capital of the World", which is Bandera, Texas. Home to a total population of around 5-600 and 13 frickin' bars. Bar fights EVERY night, horses on mainstreet, et. al. When on Methadone, I tried to wear the wranglers (Those may be the cause of all my problems :) ) wear my hair cut and fit in. But now that I am off methadone (Day 12), I am no longer wearing the wranglers, letting my beard and hair grow back out and back to the loose fit 501's. Yeah Baby! Check the hippy out Cowboy! This load of blather could have been cut back to one sentence, but it felt good writing it. Now, I don't care WHAT these people think about me and I am not willing to try and fit in with anyone. For the first time in 20 years, I am going back to who I am. And if they don't like it, then just like you, I will be enthusiastic on my response if provoked.
Personally, I embrace diversity. Some (especially here in Bandera) don't. Since I have decided to take the step to become a recovering addict, I also plan to pick up, sell my ranch and move the hell outta here. Rather than dealing with a constant barage of "Yee Haws" while the Daniel bottles fly at midnight, I'll move to a larger city.
While it's true one can not move away from trouble, it is also equally true that to stay in a weird environment invites "enthusiastic debate". So what am I waiting for? Day 30. Then, I hope that my body and mind are clear enough to hear what God wants me to do. Till then, I'll let the monkey take his last few swings before I drop kick him for good.
All the best!
Mike
Personally, I embrace diversity. Some (especially here in Bandera) don't. Since I have decided to take the step to become a recovering addict, I also plan to pick up, sell my ranch and move the hell outta here. Rather than dealing with a constant barage of "Yee Haws" while the Daniel bottles fly at midnight, I'll move to a larger city.
While it's true one can not move away from trouble, it is also equally true that to stay in a weird environment invites "enthusiastic debate". So what am I waiting for? Day 30. Then, I hope that my body and mind are clear enough to hear what God wants me to do. Till then, I'll let the monkey take his last few swings before I drop kick him for good.
All the best!
Mike
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