Yes, I stopped the Bup 48 hours ago and actually I'm a bit surprised at how relatively minor the lethargy and depression is. Yesterday I got half a day's work in, today I'm taking it easy, lying around reading a book. I feel enormous guilt that my wife is taking on all the load of taking care of the baby, but she says if I need a little babying myself it's a small price to pay for having a happy healthy and energetic husband again.
It's still possible things will get worse tomorrow -- the dreaded 72 hour high-point on the bell curve of withdrawal symptoms -- but I think tapering from the Bup helped.
And I also think my new mental attitude is helping. I really don't care how bad the lethargy and depression gets this time -- I'm not going to use again! I don't know how to describe it. Maybe it's like when you're running up a steep hill, if you can see the top and know that there's an end to your pain in sight, it just doesn't hurt as much.
But man, if what I feel now -- a bit lethargic, slightly twitchy, not very motivated, but in no great pain or mental despair -- is as bad as it gets, then I'll feel mightily blessed and just assume that for some undeserved reason God has smiled on me.
I want everyone to know that the "panic of withdrawal" is what makes much of detox so difficult. Talk to adoctor, find afriend, open up to your spouse, but do something to let someone else in to steady you through this process. It's quite surprising how much withdrawal distorts our minds and our thinking.
We need help. Seek it out, please.
hi - this is pretty far down on the posts, so i hope you see it. please tell me where in the world did you ever find a doctor willing to prescribe you buprenex????? every dr. i've ever asked looked at me like i was a crazy person...which at this point i am. why is it that i can get any dr. to prescribe narcotics to me, and i can't get anyone to prescribe a much less addictive one so that i can detox?? any input on this would be so helpful to me. thanks much!
Thank you and everyone for the info on Bupernex /down from 5 to 4 amps,a little faster than my pain/rehab Dr. would like but he says if Ican handle it 45-60 days should be totaly clean. thats I scary and exciting idea all in one.
Schlub, I know you said Sunday was your last day of any Bup, so Plz let me know how it was, How you handled it. I know you were going to do itas fast as I planned 2-3 weeks,but the depression thing came back to mind, I was reminded by the posts and my Dr.and reading the posts, I decided to take it a little slower 6-8 wks, I 'll get down to 1/2 an amp and then just quit , rite?
Keep in touch all of you and God bless my thoughts are with you all everyday
there is no contraindication with valium and l tyrosine that I've heard of...and hopefully detoxing off 12mg of valium daily won't be that tough, though valium has a very long half life and might be dribbling into your system for the next year(gets deposited into your hair and your bones among other organs). l tyrosine is a precursor to mood elevaters naturally occuring in your brain( norepinephrine and dopamine) that are found at low levels when you are taking narcotics. So l tyrosine should help elevate your mood when detoxing, and may stave off deeper levels of depression. Good luck..........hjp
Thanks, DMR, but I'm not recovered yet.
This is hell week for me. But I'm going to get through it.
Schlub,
COngrats on your recovery. I am doing great although my pain still exists. But I don't think about those F---ing pills anymore.