I am a Registered Nurse and also an addict. My Drug of Choice is Hydrocodone (Lortab, Norco). I began taking Lortab about 3 years ago for back pain, related to ruptured discs and bilateral knee osteoarthritis. Less than 6 months into use for pain, I realized this provided me with the energy I needed just to make it through my day. I am a single mother of 2 young children and worked in a highly stressful trauma setting about 60 hours each week. It wasn't long after that I began needing a "few" pills just to wake up and get going!!! In the end, I was taking 8 Lortab 10mg at one time!!! Sometimes in the morning and evening totalling 16 pills daily!!!! These "BLUE DEVILS" as I like to refer to them took CONTROL of my life!!!!! Many, many times, I had attempted to stop but with no success. I found myself taking to the streets to obtain more pills and soon began to feel the shame and guilt of using/abusing money that could have went to my children!!! This, apparently, still wasn't as powerful as these "BLUE DEVILS"!!!! Well, because of the amounts I was taking, I tested positive @ work for Hydromorphone (Dilaudid)!! In desperation and hope, I willingly admitted to the Board of Nursing that I had a problem and needed help. This was one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life. I was so ashamed! I was supposed to be this "professional" and here, I had let my guards down and was like many of my own patients that I had been treating in my E.R.!!!! Ugh...well little did I know what a blessing all of this turned out to be!!!! I AM 19 DAYS CLEAN AND FEELING GREAT!!!!! I was ordered to an Intensive Outpatient Treatment Program by the Board of Nursing in order to keep my nursing license. Before going, I bought a few Methadone off the street and took for 5 days straight. This eliminated MOST withdrawal symptoms that I had. Now insomnia still existed and about 10 days after the Methadone wore off, I experienced minimal diarrhea. OK so. today is my 19th day. The only symptom I have now is nighttime leg aches/cramps. I have found Clondine (BP Med) to help with this. Also, I plan to ask my "doctor friend" to prescribe for me Neurontin, which is used to treat RLS (Restless Leg Syndrome). Listen folks, the point of my post here tonight is to tell you that you can beat this!!! I am living proof!!! This coming from someone who had completely given up all hope!!! Don't take it 1 day @ a time! Take it 5 minutes @ the time if u need 2! I won't take a pill! I won't take a pill! PRAY!!!! When cravings come, and they do get better with time, I PROMISE.... say in the name of JESUS, LEAVE MY MIND!!!!! Over and over, keep repeating this until they pass. Try and exercise again. Just get out and enjoy the sun if you're not 1 for exercising. Take slow walks. Ride a bike. I live in Alabama. I go jump on my 4 wheeler and just ride down to the creek and feel the sunshine on my face. MAN DO I FEEL GREAT!!!! I feel so clean again. Its just hard to explain but I do hope u all get to experience this and GET UR LIVES BACK!!!! U know, LIFE had thrown us a curve ball here, but its up 2 us what we decide 2 do about it. HANG IN THERE AND KEEP THE HOPE!!!! IF I CAN DO IT, ANY1 CAN!!!! I'm getting stronger everyday. Lack of energy seems to be the culprit here, but it DOES get better every day. I'm learning to LIVE again. I'm having to find out new things 2 do for fun but I am laughing again. REALLY laughing. GOOD LUCK 2 U ALL AND I WISH U THE BEST!!!
This will be about the tenth time I have quit codones today. My job is changing to another company and I don't want to tell them about the perscriptions. They can't fire you but they can sure not hire you. I've been taking pills for about 10 years now. I need to stop before I mess up my liver anyways. I quit one time for about 3 years. about a year ago I had surgery and B A N G. All over that mean *** horse again. It's not easy guys but y'all can do it. Your fellow junkie....
I am a Mom that wants to help her son realize he has an pain killer addiction..and help him get off of this roller coaster..not really sure what to do or how to help. I am interested in your recipe. How do you (or can you) convince someone they have a problem? Do you stay in denial till you become tired of the life? It is so sad bc there are so many ppl out there on this stuff, I hurt for them. Would like to hear any advice that would help me to help him...thank you very much.
i just want to know when im going to feel better some told me three days an im out th woods is that tru because if it is i only have one more day but its going to be much longer than i need to pop
was wondeing if anyone could give me advice....i want to quit my hydrococone 10 mg and with that i have been drinking lots of vocka and cranberrie so scard what my body will go through i hav a14 year old and in a realationship that i dont want my boyfriend know
I have been on Vicodin now for about 5 yrs I hav gone to a methadone clinic but all they are are legal drug dealers that want ur money, I am down to needing only either 10mg of methadone or 4 Vicodin to make it through my day opposed to 20 or so I have been without pills now for 2 days & am very familiar with the withdraw symptoms, too familiar lol I'm sitting on the la z boy right now the only thing stopping me from going out and scoring is the thought of not having to live my life around the drugs, that and I'm flat broke lol. I just Googled vicodin detox on my phone thought id say hey & I hope I make it through this time. If ne1 can offer any advice my email is ***@****