How to handle weight gain .....

[brownvelvet]

Okay maybe to some this is not a big deal but to me this is tough to handle....I was thin...too thin....when I finally went cold turkey.....then I had severe insomnia and carbohydrate cravings with withdrawal and I gained over 20 pounds.....and now I cant seem to lose weight....I know how to do it and I know how to eat healthy but I just cant get myself to do the right things.....and honestly I had this small part of me that says that if I just take tramadol I wont have an appetite and I will have energy to work out and I will be thin again.....okay so the main part of me knows this is crazy but being this heavy and having none of my clothes fit ...well it is very depressing....I think I have some degree of seasonal affective disorder and the less daylight is affecting me....I struggled to get out of bed for work today so getting up to work out seems beyond me....
so I know it isnt life threatening but Iwonder if anyone else struggles with weight gain after stopping drugs....

[meegWpaw]

wow i am sort of surprised too but i agree with everyone on this thread!!!  :)  i have the exact same problem.  and i work out!!!!  but since i've been clean i have gained at least 20 pounds, maybe a little more not sure.  it happened and was harder the longer i stayed clean.  it really depresses me too.  but my sponsor says to try not to worry about my weight right now.  and to focus on the issues that made me use / make me use food to self-soothe, etc.  good luck and lmk if you find a solution!!!  :))

[brownvelvet]

I know that this weight is nothing compared to using drugs....I know I wont take tramadol just to be thin...but yes that voice in my head likes to throw those thoughts in there from time to time....i mostly tell that voice to take a hike....i am just frustrated with myself that I know what I need to do and I dont do it...instead I think of the easy way which is to take drugs....typical addict mentality....live for the moment and ignore the long term consequences...
But darn it...why does everything have to be so hard???
whine whine whine
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[jifmoc]

Brown- never ceases to amaze me that eventually, someone else will have the same issue as me, even if it seems small. Yes, I have the identical problem as you: always very thin (lots say too thin) and w/o opiates, it's so much harder than I remember.

Firstly, I don't know if you have an eating disorder or a messed up perception of weight (I do.) If so, please get help with that. You are going to meetings, right? Share it. Talk about it w/ people. One thing I learned is staying in my head obsessing about it will only lead me to bad thinking. Which you are doing w/ the tram. Lots of peeps on here say that thinking like you are is an just giving yourself an excuse to use. I agree. See you can convince yourself?

Get your mind away from the topic. Yes, it sux. But, when you are ready, you'll do what you need to do to get the weight off. That's what happened w/ me and I'm doing it now. I can easily let my clothes not fitting ruin my day every day. But, as an addict, I can't afford that thinking. That's being stuck in total self-centeredness and you need to find your way out of that. You don't want to have a bigger problem than your clothes being too tight.