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We have all done shameful, unexplained things. To ourselves and to our loved ones. I'm also very confused. I'm on 80 mg methadone a day. I was wondering about detox but still haven't found an answer. I do believe that by staying on the methadone and not choosing to go through withdraw, that my baby will be better off. I'm very ashamed of this but I feel stuck! And very very confused...
I am a 42year old mother who has a healthy and drug free daughter married with a beautiful 11 month old daughter. I havent been able to get pregnant all these years when i tried so hard and recently i went thru a hard relationship of 4 years and in the last year i was very depressed and started hanging out with an old friend that is highly addicted to EVERYTHING!!!!! I started to take Roxicodone occasionally but then it turned into an addiction and im not going to say i was naieve and didnt know what the consequences were but now out of some crazy miracle i am 2 to 7 weeks pregnant with my ex's baby whom i stll love dearly, but my shame has kept me from telling the ugly truth about my addiction to anyone!!! I am so alone with this guilt that ive recently switched to methadone. I just found out 5 days ago and i do not see a doctor for the meds and get it through a friend and im afraid for the baby and for me!!!! I've read all your comments that now i am afraid to stop all together. I was not a weak person but this has left me addicted and hopeless and i cant turn to anyone cause of my family values and my upbringing will bring shame to my family and everyone who knows me. Ive always believed in self healing til my break depression. He wants to have the baby but i dont think i can and what do i do to not harm my miracle baby if im addicted? I've made a decision to terminate so that i dont take the risk of hurting someone that i've longed for, but I am so desperate for a sign before my Wednesday termination, that i am ready to speak to someone but i dont know where and who to talk to because i dont have a pain management doctor!!! Please my heart has never ached soooo much and the shame is overwhelming, can anyone point me in the right direction on who i can see that will give me confidentiality and help me to sstop without hurting the baby and all those around me???!!!!!
Anyone still here? I'm 16 weeks pregnant at I take 16 mgs, down from 35. My docs are okay with this, but I still have fears and it seems all people who are on methadone are saying i'm stupid for wanting to get off while pregnant. I just want my baby to be born without narcotics, and so far everything is fine... Is there a chance, since my dose is so low, that my baby will not be addicted? I feel so guilty i almost wish i had aborted. i would hate my mother if I had been born on methadone. a bad doctor gave it to me for back pain-he was put out of business later on, getting on this drug was the biggest mistake of my life. Is there any chance my baby won't have to suffer for my weakness?
DO not go through withdrawl... the withdrawl causes strain on your blood pressure that can be very dangerous to your baby..
I would do what you have to do til your OB comes back and you can get this worked out.. but do not go cold turkey off of your methodone. I have no idea if there is any legalality about what the doc did.