Glad to hear you ladies enjoyed and got something from it. I wrote it during a very hard period of withdrawals. It just came out. I don't edit or change anything when I am in that "mode". I can't turn it on, or turn it off when I am in that "zone".
It is really weird how withdrawals can affect you. For me, writing is my outlet during that time.
I felt it was somethihgn that some of the new people that are going throuogh these times now might get something from it. That is why I reposted it.
Glad you did...
Chezz
Thanks for saring that!It hits home!Dito to what lisabet said! g.g.
God - what a wonderful post. I've printed it out with the intention of reading it every morning to start my day. Thanks so much for sharing. Love, Lisabet
This is something I wrote a few months back while in the throws of withdrawal. I thought I would share this with all of you once again, especially OBob since you have just ogne through where we have all been, or will eventually be... CHEZZZZZZ
I am scared. I am lonely. I am an addict.
For as long as I can remember I have been hiding behind some sort of
chezz,
wonderful! really made my day thank you.
jenn
i haven't posted in a bout a month but wanted to tellyou my story.
i was seeing a pain spec.for degenerative disc disease. was on oc's and vics. came up with the idea of making my own prescriptions. for months and months i filled schedule 2 narcs with no problems/ one day a pharmacist looked at my script funny, so i left and said i'd be back to pick it up. i never picked it up because i knew better. two days later i got a call from a detective. told me i had to come in to see him. They had done a pharmacy search for the last year and found out about all the scripts i had wrote. you are lucky to get a misdemenor. i had 15 felony counts which where dropped to 1 felony conunt. i am on a two year deffered sentence. i have to have a probation officer, take random test pay over $2500 in fines do 60 hours community service. all for a high. it's NOT worth it. i have not done it since and wont. it's not even a thought . i know the rush you experience getting away with it. there are other ways to get rushes. be careful. my thoughts are with you.
be safe
linda
Your prose was poetry in the purest form - written during true "angst", and yet the glimmer of hope comes through. What I like to think we all are about. "Thru the darkest clouds, the sun shines through..." I loved it, Lisabet