I cant do it on my own?

[Want2BDone]

I don't see the same people i did as when I first started posting at this site? I hope all of you are doing better than me. I tried to quit my pain pill addiction on my own, and it did not work. Im back to buying the same ****. I watch intervention on A&E and all I want to do is be clean for myself and my family. It used to be fun to take the pills, now i hate taking them, I just don't want to get sick. I tried to get off them by taking methadone, but I just started abusing them, and now the wd/s from them are bad. Worse than any other drug. My finance in the picture thinks i have successfully quit and is proud of me, she doesn't know the truth. The truth is I cant do it on my own, I need help. But thats ok... Im looking into detox and sobriety programs in FL and other places. I wanted to post to let people know whats going on. I don't like coming on here while im using because i feel bad. To all you who have quit, good for you, i admire everyone on here and wish the best for everyone.

[enemy48]

I didn't read if you've quit before, and for how long?  Yes, you get so sick that you're left w/no choice but to reuse.  Been there.

Have you tried the Thomas Recipe?  I finally got the ingredients & by day 1 felt better at least 80%.  That's a lot b/c w/d are horrible.  I'm only on day 8.  

Don't tell the girlfriend!!!!  Myself, boyfriend doesn't know and he won't.  I've lied too long.  I've read too many proud people confessing & loose their loved ones for the lie.  Good luck & write anytime.

[dove3053]

I wish you the best. There are many good rehab places in Fl.

Dove