Aa
I hate withdrawal
Getting the runs, don't feel motivated, don't want to eat but feel hungry, got a creepy feeling in my skin especially legs, feel period pain type feeling, yawn, sneezing n suicidal thoughts. Oh n tossed n turned most of the night feeling as restless as anything.
And this is sticking to the 15 x 4 taper. God know what this would be like with Zno Codeine.
On the up side i phoned the prescribed medications support service n they said they wont take my child they just want to help me, that i need to be open n honest n they'll ask the lady whos seeing me to call me this morning sometime.
Evey x
And this is sticking to the 15 x 4 taper. God know what this would be like with Zno Codeine.
On the up side i phoned the prescribed medications support service n they said they wont take my child they just want to help me, that i need to be open n honest n they'll ask the lady whos seeing me to call me this morning sometime.
Evey x
been there b4.. im there now.. but I tappered so i had 24 hour withdrawl, only thing now is I cant sleep... Im glad you have a chance to change and keep your kidd..
that is good, evey... try some immodium for the runs, take a hot bath and your muscles will thank you... eat lots of bananas, they are rich on potassium and it helps, and maybe a mineral supplement magnesium+calcium.... if weather is good, go for a walk with your daughter when you feel suicidal, keep busy, don't let your mind plays games on you... you will pull through all this !!
Good job there Sweetie, cut off all substances including alcohol and give yourself a real shot at sobriety. You CAN do this! Prayers going your way. (. :
Im still doing the 15 mg x 4 taper n phoned the place thats going to help me n they said theyll cut it down gradually so i feel relieved now x
Great job on the call.See how you start to take action when you stop getting high? That's all you can do when you stop getting high is try to improve your life situation.It usually does wonders for you and always improves things.
Oh god i really want to go to the pharmacy right now. Help!!!
I keep thinking i could sneak there n no one will know its now 1:30 n it opens at 2
I keep thinking i could sneak there n no one will know its now 1:30 n it opens at 2
Don't do it. You have obviously got alot of people who are trying to help here.
Think about this....... You probably have more comments on one of your posts than I or many others have ever gotten in all of our posts combined.There must be some reason for this and I think it may be that You are special and have a purpose that does not involve being a codeine addict.
I can already see your thinking changes when you are not high.Alot of people say you have to want to get clean and then you do it but for me and most humans it is quite the opposite as motivation generally follows some type of action and not the other way around. Have you ever put off cleaning or some other project and then when you finally started doing it you could not stop until you were finished cleaning everything. That may be how this works for you.Get clean first then you can analyze and reassess everything with a clear mind. Don't go to the pharmacy!
Think about this....... You probably have more comments on one of your posts than I or many others have ever gotten in all of our posts combined.There must be some reason for this and I think it may be that You are special and have a purpose that does not involve being a codeine addict.
I can already see your thinking changes when you are not high.Alot of people say you have to want to get clean and then you do it but for me and most humans it is quite the opposite as motivation generally follows some type of action and not the other way around. Have you ever put off cleaning or some other project and then when you finally started doing it you could not stop until you were finished cleaning everything. That may be how this works for you.Get clean first then you can analyze and reassess everything with a clear mind. Don't go to the pharmacy!
I can already see your thinking changes when you are not high
I agree VERY much with ricart's comment above. LOOK at the progress you've made in just a day! You've admitted you have a problem and need help, you're sticking to the taper, and you took it upon yourself to call the people who are going to help you!!!! WAY TO GO!!!!! That's great! That's HUGE progress hon!
Using more codeine is NOT the answer, as much as you may want to. That's the addiction talking to you. Especially when you feel lousy with the w/ds, you will be vulnerable. Honestly, in a few days, the physical symptoms will start to ease up. After a week, you'll feel much better, not perfect, but better...so just stick to the taper. And because you didn't quit cold turkey, you probably will be feeling better even faster than most. Your body just needs a couple days to adjust to the massive drop in dose. That's a shock to the system.
Look up the Thomas recipe here and have someone get you the things you need...Immodium, gatorade, motrin for any aches and pains. Take lots of hot baths, and although you may not feel like it, go for a walk, it will make you feel better. Keep yourself hydrated, and try to eat small light meals. You will probably struggle with your sleep a bit too. I would recommend spacing out your 4 dosesd throughout the day versus taking it all at once (if you haven't already). If you take one in the am, one at lunch, one at dinner, and one at bedtime, it may make you feel better.
USING IS NOT AN OPTION! Say it aloud, write it on your mirror, whatever you have to do. You will feel SO prooud of yourself when you hit the 24 hr mark of adhering to the taper. You CAN do this. Just keep talking to us. You have ONE reason to use...which is caving to your sneaky addiction...and a million reasons NOT to use.
You've got a HUGE number of people here cheering you on. I too don't ever recall seeing one person get so many replies. You're a tough cookie Evey, but everyone here wants to see you succeed in the worst way!!!
I agree VERY much with ricart's comment above. LOOK at the progress you've made in just a day! You've admitted you have a problem and need help, you're sticking to the taper, and you took it upon yourself to call the people who are going to help you!!!! WAY TO GO!!!!! That's great! That's HUGE progress hon!
Using more codeine is NOT the answer, as much as you may want to. That's the addiction talking to you. Especially when you feel lousy with the w/ds, you will be vulnerable. Honestly, in a few days, the physical symptoms will start to ease up. After a week, you'll feel much better, not perfect, but better...so just stick to the taper. And because you didn't quit cold turkey, you probably will be feeling better even faster than most. Your body just needs a couple days to adjust to the massive drop in dose. That's a shock to the system.
Look up the Thomas recipe here and have someone get you the things you need...Immodium, gatorade, motrin for any aches and pains. Take lots of hot baths, and although you may not feel like it, go for a walk, it will make you feel better. Keep yourself hydrated, and try to eat small light meals. You will probably struggle with your sleep a bit too. I would recommend spacing out your 4 dosesd throughout the day versus taking it all at once (if you haven't already). If you take one in the am, one at lunch, one at dinner, and one at bedtime, it may make you feel better.
USING IS NOT AN OPTION! Say it aloud, write it on your mirror, whatever you have to do. You will feel SO prooud of yourself when you hit the 24 hr mark of adhering to the taper. You CAN do this. Just keep talking to us. You have ONE reason to use...which is caving to your sneaky addiction...and a million reasons NOT to use.
You've got a HUGE number of people here cheering you on. I too don't ever recall seeing one person get so many replies. You're a tough cookie Evey, but everyone here wants to see you succeed in the worst way!!!
Thanks - i love this forum. Everyone is so lovely.
The first forum i went on was very triggering. They would go into detail on what they were using, how they obtained it etc. i ended up getting most of my ideas from there.
This site is very supportive. Thank you.
The first forum i went on was very triggering. They would go into detail on what they were using, how they obtained it etc. i ended up getting most of my ideas from there.
This site is very supportive. Thank you.
My first instincts were never to touch it you know. I was really careful at first trying not to use them then the doc gave me the 30s n i took two n tbh I think I was psychologically hooked from that moment. It reminded me of when i was giving birth n was given a drug called diamorphine.
Just looked round house for some even though I know I know there isn't any here apart from the daily amount my mam is giving me.
Just goes to show we have instincts for a reason - not to ignore them. I still love codeine but I'm trying x
Just looked round house for some even though I know I know there isn't any here apart from the daily amount my mam is giving me.
Just goes to show we have instincts for a reason - not to ignore them. I still love codeine but I'm trying x
HI Eve! I have been reading all of your posts for the past week and have not commented. I didn't feel like anything I could say would help you. I am so proud that you are seeking help and getting serious about this. None of us willingly got hooked on our doc. You are making such a huge step by admitting there is a problem. Just know that you are doing good and that you are not alone. We are here for you! Please stay strong girl!
I keep crying. When i puck my little girl upi kept thinking 'go to the pharmacy, go to the pharmancy' n i looked in my purse n i had £7 which is how much nurofen plus costs n i nearly went there but i didn't. And i cant stop crying. Some girl wanted to play with my little girl n i shouted at my child no :(
Am i ever going to be able to have codeine again because right now it seemed the end of the world n i must be such a horrible person crying when my daughters here :(
Am i ever going to be able to have codeine again because right now it seemed the end of the world n i must be such a horrible person crying when my daughters here :(
Come on GIRL....I am Cheering for you right along with the Whole World out Here..Just think of how proud you will be about Yourself..and your Daughter and Mom & Dad..You need to be # 1 Right Now..But we ALL will Light the Candle on that Cake when you get some clean time behind you..Come on you can do it..Stay Strong..Stronger then them cravings..Go! Go! Ya! Ya!
All that I can offer you is it does get easier. You will come to a point where you notice you don't crave it as much. It's very hard going thru withdrawls and knowing that a pill will help. Just fight it and stay away from the pharmacy! You are doing good Eve.
Thanks just want a hug :(
Is this how it feel for everyone? Like its the end of the world? Like you're grieving?
And have this resentment for others making me stop.
Is this how it feel for everyone? Like its the end of the world? Like you're grieving?
And have this resentment for others making me stop.
Your emotions are going to be all over the place for a while. We don't really and truly feel when we are medicating ourselves. Just be tough and fight thru it. It will get better after a while. Maybe see about getting into counseling so that you can talk about and explore some of these feelings?
One day at a time, eve, one moment at a time if you have to. You're going to feel emotions you've been numbing all this time. You need to try to distract yourself as much as you can, try to stop thinking about it, and overanalyzing everything. You need to get out of your head a little. That's been your biggest downfall.
NO, you'll never be able to be use codeine again. Once an addict always an addict. THAT'S not important though right now...just focus on getting through the next couple of days. Along with the physical w/ds there are emotional/mental ones as well. EVERYTHING you're feeling (including the sense of loss and grief) is TOTALY normal. When you want to cry, cry...cry all day long, it's okay! If you feel mad, scream into a pillow! Try not to take your anger out on your little girl. She's probably scared as it is, kids are very observant, I'm sure she's noticed that something has been going on. If you need to, take her to your parents. If your parents don't understand w/d, tell them to read about it, that you WILL be sick for a few days and will need some extra help. Just tell them you need their support, not their judgement. If they say the wrong things, go easy on them, they don't understand all of this and they're scared. You said you have a brother, can tou lean on him for support also? Any friends you could confide in to help you through this process? The more support you have, the better.
Try to convuince yourself that you're sick with the flu. If you were sick with the flu, you would be taking it easy, trying to feel better. That's all you need to do. Getting more codeine will ONLY prolong this, and put off the inevitible. You KNOW you can't keep using, so taking more is only putting off your progress. You've already got almost a day into your taper, you don't want to undo that.
Keep looking at your daughter...you're doing this for the BOTH of you, she deserves a Mom who is sober and the best she can be. You want that too. EVERYTHING you're feeling is only temporary. You WILL feel better, and when you do, you can start working through all of these feelings, and working to learn how to handle the cravings. They're so strong right now because of the w/ds and because of the emotional hold the codeine has on you. Every time you don't give into a craving, you're getting s little bit stronger, and sending a message to your brain that you DONT need it, because your mind is trying to trick you into thinking you DO!
Keep going eve..you can do this! I'm SOOO proud of you!!
NO, you'll never be able to be use codeine again. Once an addict always an addict. THAT'S not important though right now...just focus on getting through the next couple of days. Along with the physical w/ds there are emotional/mental ones as well. EVERYTHING you're feeling (including the sense of loss and grief) is TOTALY normal. When you want to cry, cry...cry all day long, it's okay! If you feel mad, scream into a pillow! Try not to take your anger out on your little girl. She's probably scared as it is, kids are very observant, I'm sure she's noticed that something has been going on. If you need to, take her to your parents. If your parents don't understand w/d, tell them to read about it, that you WILL be sick for a few days and will need some extra help. Just tell them you need their support, not their judgement. If they say the wrong things, go easy on them, they don't understand all of this and they're scared. You said you have a brother, can tou lean on him for support also? Any friends you could confide in to help you through this process? The more support you have, the better.
Try to convuince yourself that you're sick with the flu. If you were sick with the flu, you would be taking it easy, trying to feel better. That's all you need to do. Getting more codeine will ONLY prolong this, and put off the inevitible. You KNOW you can't keep using, so taking more is only putting off your progress. You've already got almost a day into your taper, you don't want to undo that.
Keep looking at your daughter...you're doing this for the BOTH of you, she deserves a Mom who is sober and the best she can be. You want that too. EVERYTHING you're feeling is only temporary. You WILL feel better, and when you do, you can start working through all of these feelings, and working to learn how to handle the cravings. They're so strong right now because of the w/ds and because of the emotional hold the codeine has on you. Every time you don't give into a craving, you're getting s little bit stronger, and sending a message to your brain that you DONT need it, because your mind is trying to trick you into thinking you DO!
Keep going eve..you can do this! I'm SOOO proud of you!!
Don't think about that now, eve. Think about TODAY, right now. You have the rest of your life to learn about this and understand WHY. You'll get there. Get yourself through the w/ds first, then you can start doing more and more.
Today is a good day to start reading all of the links we've given you, to learn more about addiction. Just read a little at a time. The things that really hit home and make an impact, print them out, and start yourself a little folder of papers you can refer to.
Get a notebook out and journal your thoughts, all of them, good and bad. If you do that every day, soon you'll be able to go back and read and see how far you've come. The thinking that goes along with addiction doesn't go away overnight. Just be patient with yourself.
Today is a good day to start reading all of the links we've given you, to learn more about addiction. Just read a little at a time. The things that really hit home and make an impact, print them out, and start yourself a little folder of papers you can refer to.
Get a notebook out and journal your thoughts, all of them, good and bad. If you do that every day, soon you'll be able to go back and read and see how far you've come. The thinking that goes along with addiction doesn't go away overnight. Just be patient with yourself.
Eve, how ya doing? You haven't posted in a while. Still hanging in there? No pharmacy trips?
Hi, so good to hear you are doing good. Moving ahead and trying to follow your program. So proud of you.
Judy
Judy
hi instead of dreading the withdrawal embrace it as the beggining to the end and the start to a new life drug free you can do this just give it time to run it course you will feel much better in a few days time to hit a N/A meeting you will be welcome with a hug keep pushing forward and know it is all for the good of your well beeing you got this
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