I need some advice on how to get off the Oxycontin without Methadone

[ocgirl]

I have been doing oc's on and off since 1999.  The first time I tried them I hated it because me and a friend did 120mg that night snorting and taking them by mouth we were so sick that I decided never to try them again.  My x-boyfriend starting getting hooked and we got back together for a short time but I did not realize I was hooked on them as well.  He is now on Methadone but I don't want to do that because I think I can beat this myself.  I have been doing at least 20-80mg at a time.  20's no longer work nor do the 40's so I know it is time to stop plus all my money goes to pills and I hate it.  This is my second day without an oxy and I am feelin pretty shitty as some may know.  I have been taking lorcet 10's to try to help with my withdrawals but I can't even feel those anymore.  I took 5 of them yesterday and still felt really awful. Today I have taken a half of one and did a little bit of an oxcodone IR 5mg.  I am trying but I don't  know if I can do this or not.  I am so sick, I can't sleep, I wake up in cold sweats if I do sleep, I have severe stomach cramps and nausea.  I don't really know what to do except go find another oc but I know that is not the answer.

[kell737]

You are so welcome!    Onestep is exactly right about ambien.... It really  screws with your mind.  There would be night I would take  1 pill and about 20 minutes later I was so disoriented!  The next next morning you dont remember anything.   It's actually a drug thats in a lot of controversoy (spelling) right now because of the memory thing.   I would wake up the next morning and  wonder where in the hell I was or  why I was sleeping,  and sometimes didn't remember sleeping at all.  Just be careful with it.    

~KEll

[kell737]

Thank you for responding.  I was wondering because I have a friend that takes it religiously  and I kind of figured  it was addicting.  Is it an optiate?  What makes it habit forming... I know its not a Narcotic...   It's actually not even controlled, so what makes it that way.  

~Kell

[pon]

Hey my friend...you are embarking on your journey tomorrow...I believe you are ready.  You are sounding stronger these last couple of days...I believe in your strength, you believe in it too..it is what you need to make it through.

You KNOW it will be hard, you have been there...and by having been there, you know what to expect...you have the strength to make it Chezz, you really do.

You can do it...I believe in you...do it for YOURSELF.  This can be the first step to a whole new life, one with endless possibilities, one with a new chance at repairing the other parts of your life that hurt you.

Remember, the first 4 days will be the hardest, you made it to 4 last time...this time break through and see the easing that can come after day 4.  You can do this...hang in there and be strong...be strong for you.

My prayers are with you now and will be all through this.  I will be checking the e-mail and post as frequently as I can...e-mail is easier for me to get at, so go there in times of most need.

WE WILL ALL BE HERE FOR YOU CHEZZ...YOU ARE ALWAYS HERE FOR US WE WILL BE HERE FOR YOU.

You can do it..you are my friend and you are STRONGER than you know.

Prayers...I will talk to you tomorrow.

Pon

[ocgirl]

I just got back from GNC and I bought l-tyrosine and b6 is that enough or should I get the multi vitamins to go with it?  I guess if I need the vitamins I will have to get them tomorrow.  I did go get some food it seems to make the pain worse and getting out of the house period seems to make me want to at least get a few 80's just to say I did a few 80's and then decided to kick my habit.  I know I am too far to go back since it has been a little over 72 hours but I want just a piece of one to make me feel better.   I drank a huge margarita tonight trying to make the pain go away but guess what?  It doesn't work at all.  I need some pot or something so I won't be up all night. Oh well if I can make if without my oxy surely I can do without pot unless it just pops up.  Right now it is looking like I will take a phenergan, levsin, and smoke a cig until I can sleep.  Until tomorrow goodnight all and happy detoxing as well.  This **** sucks!

[ultimate high]

how come nobody ever wrote me and said "Welcome to this Board?"  Just curious and I guess it's because I'm not an opiate junkie like I've stated before although I have posted many things on here to help you opiate junkies with withdrawal ideas etc but nobody even says thanx or hey i might try that or tell me more or nothing.  I've messaged Chezz like a hundred times and he never writes back to me.  I've written skipper and he never talks back to me.  What the ****.  Oh well it doesn't really matter.  I scammed a prescription today which is my first scamming adventure but I had never thought of it until reading this board.  I had a prescription refill at one pharmacy but couldn't get it filled till next monday so i called the same doctors office and had him call me in another prescription (because he doesn't keep track very well) which has another refill on it at another pharmacy.  So I picked that up tonight and can get my other refilled at the other pharmacy on Monday.  Oh and I did cut the pills in half to withdraw.  That's a start right?  Well NOT because now I just take both of the halves at once so what's the use.  Do any of you even know what it is that I take or would you have to go back and read some of my posts since nobody really seems to give a ****.  I'll come back here some other time when I move on to the oxycontin and morphine and hell some of the other stuff yall take is so strong.  what's it called formaldehyde or something like that?  Anyway I have alot of damn problems in life too and everybody is so caring with each other and it made me so good to find this place where everyone was so supportive but not a damn person has asked me how I'm doing or how was my tapering schedule or for me to hang in there and I've started fighting the battle just by admitting I had a problem but I dont' get that encouragement.  It would of just been nice to hear those words from somebody.  Especially you Chezz.  You tell every single problem you have even if it was that you found a hair out of place on your head that was giving you pain.  Don't get me wrong, I liked reading your posts and tried to communicate with you but obviously unless I'm taking 200 pills a day, or shooting 18 bags of heroin, or taking 800 mg. of oxycontin then nobody gives a flying ****.  So anyway I wish yall all the best and I'm so sorry that none of you could relate to me since I wasn't and opiate junkie.  And the past several days with people fighting on this board was enough to make anybody wanna take a damn pill or a whole bottle of pills.  My God people have home problems and work problems so why in the hell do they have to create problems on a damn message board.  From now on why don't yall just download AOL Instant Message and you don't need AOL for that either and it's free and create a screen name and exchange screen names so yall can ***** each other out in private instead of ******* up everybody elses day.  Also please don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself.  I'm not and I'm not that type of person. I was happy today and planted tons of flowers and made cupcakes for my step-sons birthday and got a lot of stuff done but I just feel that I was never welcomed by anyone especially the old timers and I feel that I never got any support.  Except for Golden Slipper.  She's the exception.  And thank you Golden Slipper and I will email you privately instead of coming to this soap opera of a message board.  NO DAMN WONDER THE DOCTORS LEFT, it was probably causing them to have to take prozac or valium.  Good luck to all of you but I'm gone from here and won't be back. Yall can say all the bad things about me that you want to or negative things or whatever but I won't be back to read them so don't waste your time.  Take care.
Denise

[kell737]

Just so you know,  Phenergan is a very helpful drug with the detox sickness!  Just be careful with it because it is addictive as well.  I wish you luck an happy detoxing to you as well.

~Kell (47 days clean from Percocet)