Im BACk!!! OXYCONTIN!! HELP!!

[kit10]

Ok Ive been here before. Tried to straighten myself up. Didnt quite work when my hubbie came into a huge sum of money. Right now Im trying to get myself back on track. I had been doing anywhere from 1 to 2 oc 80's a day. Now I am cutting myself off of the money and trying to taper down with hydro and valium. The only thing is that its not cutting it! I start chillin' and sweating and all of the other good stuff that goes along w sobering up in about 4 hrs w the hydro. With the oxy it was about 8 hrs. I have been doing this for a long while and I am tierd of this lifestyle and hiding my face, . . . the guilt. Another thing I wanted to mention is that when Im coming down with no hydro xanax or valium I am like a freaking lunatic, crying, punching walls, screaming, and then apologizing. Whats up with that I was even suicidal last night. That has never happend before.

[mshell62]

thanks, there.

Typing instead of talking face to face can sure be dangerous sometimes!

[marcatj]

sweety, that is so, so great....

(and sorry - the turbo thing wasn't for you... must have posted simultaneously as you were posting.)

and a cat "woman." :-)  and my cat is absolutely certifiably insane!!!  he thinks he's a dog.. it's the best. he's just completely out of his gourd...

anyhoo, again sweety - i hope you feel so proud of yourself!!  this is great progress and you should feel like a million bucks... truly.

nite nite hun..
:)
mj

[mshell62]

HA - hey now... Give a girl a break...  This is all new for me...

...turbo...phsh..... I like my new nickname..

Thanks, marc....

So, you are a "cat man"?  I love em!  I have one sitting on my lap as I type.  I'm trying not to move too much so he won't jump down.  

He can finally sit on my lap again, since I am not shaking like a leaf tonight.  A huge step for me.

[marcatj]

that's great new, girl... way to go.  you are past the hump and ON YOUR WAY!  

good job...

[marcatj]

easy turbo...

[mshell62]

When I was originally asking how to taper, I am positive someone told me to start with a new bottle?  I have heard that from several people...

Some told me to flush it and some told me to "get more" to do it right (taper).

Others helped me by taking the amount I had left and dividing it.  

I have heard all kinds of advice.  

I was really glad to hear all the different choices I had!  Wow, I can go get a new bottle of Vico... or flush what I have.. (uh.. heck no) ...OR. divide what I got.

I divided what I had, and am starting day 6 OF BEING CLEAN!!!!!! YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It nice to be able to TAPER with whatever we have left.  It worked for me!  

Gosh, did I mention I feel great today?  Have I told ya'll I love ya'll today yet???

(I swear the only thing I have taken today is Maalox!!!!!!)...

Michele's high on Maalox... Hey, before, I would have taken a Vicodin or three for my ailing stomach!

Life is good.