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Is intense fear a symptom of withdrawal?
I know it may sound silly, but I am in so much fear right now. I'm so afraid of running out of my pills. It hurts so bad to withdraw, and I just don't feel like I can function without them anymore. Has anybody else ever had the intense fear and anxiety that I am having? I'm so afraid of running out. When I am without, my willpower is nothing. I'm scared of it all....scared of this addiction, scared of running out, scared to leave my house each morning without any pills....anybody been there? If so, what did you do? I'm still hoping the psychiatrist will help...most of you know the stuff that's been going on for me lately. I've never felt this bad before. Maybe I should just go to a doc and "fess up." Maybe then they can help me taper or something. UGH!
Hi Southernbelle & everyone. I woke up at 6:30 this a.m. with the most intense fear and anxiety, my whole body was shaking. I am still taking narco, 10 mg., about 4-5 a day. But I was up to 12-15 just 3 days ago, and now I have to taper off to 2 a day, because I'm running out. I am facing a whole lot of real heavy problems right now, and can't imagine how to get through them without my pills. Plus I really have pain that regular analgesics won't touch. I am scared all the time. I hate this. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. My husband is having surgery next week, and I feel like a complete disappointment to him, I'm usually so together. There's no one I can talk to about all this. We're kind of new where we live, all my friends are far away and have problems of their own. I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel like every nerve is frayed. HELP!! I am taking the recipe, have been since October, even though I started taking the pills again, I figured it was a good idea to take all the supplements. But I need some people to talk with me. Thank you.
stay posted here...we'll be there for each other. sounds like we are both in the same place. whoever you are, i love you. i know there's a better day coming around. we can get through this. we'll get through this together. easy does it, nothing done in a hurry. i'll post herre on this board with each decision i make. again, i love you. you are NOT alone. just keep checking in here for now......LOVE TO EVERYBODY.
the fear and anxiety have been experienced by most of us I think...both of running out and of what happens when you try to quit. I am a beliver in talking to the Dr...but I happen to have a very good primary care Doc I've been going to for 10 years who is both very compassionate and pragmatic. Unfortunately not all of them are...you have to decide if you feel your Dr will help you. An honest confession and a frank ask for help usually will stimulate almost any Dr to help a patient who wants to help themselves.
If yopu can go to inpatient detox, if your life situation will allow...do it. Then you are sure to have the right people you need to help...
I will tell you this...I WAS very scared like you are, but what I was most scared of (in hindsight) was that I would not be able to quit...after I made it through the first 4 days of w/d the fear and anxiety level droped a lot and slowly drifted away...for me by about day 17 completeley. Your Dr can give you med to help with the anxiety...I didn't use any, so I may have had it worse than I needed to.
prayers,
pon
If yopu can go to inpatient detox, if your life situation will allow...do it. Then you are sure to have the right people you need to help...
I will tell you this...I WAS very scared like you are, but what I was most scared of (in hindsight) was that I would not be able to quit...after I made it through the first 4 days of w/d the fear and anxiety level droped a lot and slowly drifted away...for me by about day 17 completeley. Your Dr can give you med to help with the anxiety...I didn't use any, so I may have had it worse than I needed to.
prayers,
pon
I know what you are feeling and it is terrible. It is scarey and the anxiety level can be crushing at times or sometimes all the time...add to it whatever else you have in your life and it is incredible...BUT, it can be done. Lots of us have gone through it, made it, and are free again...you can be too...and you are worth it.
The folks on the board here can probably help you more if you tell us more...why are you stopping the meds when you have chronic severe pain? how much are you taking? how long?
Is going to your Dr for help an option? Wd is tough, but it can be made easier with help from your Dr, the right meds, and most of all by posting here. By talking here you can know you aren't alone...lots of us have been where you are, lots of folks understand and will help.
prayers,
pon
The folks on the board here can probably help you more if you tell us more...why are you stopping the meds when you have chronic severe pain? how much are you taking? how long?
Is going to your Dr for help an option? Wd is tough, but it can be made easier with help from your Dr, the right meds, and most of all by posting here. By talking here you can know you aren't alone...lots of us have been where you are, lots of folks understand and will help.
prayers,
pon
I think the most important thing to keep in mind is that you must be working with a specialist. If you try to deal with this using a general practitioner the odds are much higher that you will get burned. My experience between my general Dr. and my pain management specialist could not be more night and day.
For one, general practitioners must be seeing like 60 patients and day -- my pain management specialist probably sees 10 if I were to guess.
Secondly, a pain management specialist is just that -- a specialist and by default knows a lot about pain, and in my case the things that surround pain, which were addiction and detox!
Finally, in my humble opinion, I think specialists have a narrower but much more intensive skill set focused around pain, and at least in my experience were just flat out better doctors. They listened a lot more, they are more sympathetic, it was just like they understood and I have been to three of them over the last three years. Each and every one of them blew my regular doctor out of water! I swear I could hear angels singing when I got an appointment with my latest pain management Dr. He partnered with me if you know what I mean.
(WARNING: the BIG DISADVANTAGE is that they dispense medication much more liberally -- you ask for it - you get it. Don't let that burn you, but also do not let it dissuade you.)
If I were standing in your shoes right now, what I might try doing is the following. Find out who in your medical group in is either an addictiononlogist or a pain management specialist, and demand that your general Dr. refer you to them. Because you do not want to wait the month it will take for the referral, then call this Dr. and pay for one appointment out-of-pocket- get in to see them - tell them it's an emergency and that the referral paperwork is soon to be completed ("should be any day now"). When you get into see this specialist, lay every single detail out on the table -- everything!
Once into see this specialist, ask him about the buprenex that body mechanic has been talking to us about. But let this specialist help you decide which detox program is best. Whatever you decide, we will be here.
Rex
For one, general practitioners must be seeing like 60 patients and day -- my pain management specialist probably sees 10 if I were to guess.
Secondly, a pain management specialist is just that -- a specialist and by default knows a lot about pain, and in my case the things that surround pain, which were addiction and detox!
Finally, in my humble opinion, I think specialists have a narrower but much more intensive skill set focused around pain, and at least in my experience were just flat out better doctors. They listened a lot more, they are more sympathetic, it was just like they understood and I have been to three of them over the last three years. Each and every one of them blew my regular doctor out of water! I swear I could hear angels singing when I got an appointment with my latest pain management Dr. He partnered with me if you know what I mean.
(WARNING: the BIG DISADVANTAGE is that they dispense medication much more liberally -- you ask for it - you get it. Don't let that burn you, but also do not let it dissuade you.)
If I were standing in your shoes right now, what I might try doing is the following. Find out who in your medical group in is either an addictiononlogist or a pain management specialist, and demand that your general Dr. refer you to them. Because you do not want to wait the month it will take for the referral, then call this Dr. and pay for one appointment out-of-pocket- get in to see them - tell them it's an emergency and that the referral paperwork is soon to be completed ("should be any day now"). When you get into see this specialist, lay every single detail out on the table -- everything!
Once into see this specialist, ask him about the buprenex that body mechanic has been talking to us about. But let this specialist help you decide which detox program is best. Whatever you decide, we will be here.
Rex
One other idea - have you thought about devoting 5-8 days of time to just you if possible, and just quitting - biting the bullet.
I know the pain you have been in the last month. Would cold turkey be much worse? I mean, on a pain threshold chart scale of 1 to 100, is there really a big difference between 87 and 91 ?
God's Grace to you...
Rex
I know the pain you have been in the last month. Would cold turkey be much worse? I mean, on a pain threshold chart scale of 1 to 100, is there really a big difference between 87 and 91 ?
God's Grace to you...
Rex
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