REGRET, FEAR, AND DREAD ROB US OF JOY. REGRET PUTS US IN THE PAST, FEAR AND DREAD PUT US IN THE FUTURE. IF WE ARE CAUGHT UP IN EITHER, THEN WE ARE NOT LIVING IN THE PRESENT JOY OF OUR LIVES. YESTERDAY IS ASHES, AND TOMORROW IS WOOD TODAY IS THE ONLY DAY THAT BURNS BRIGHTLY.
I can fix things on paper, but I have a problem putting the ideas into practice. I usually live in the past or the present and let fear, regret and dread rob me of my current joy. I need to practice mindful feeling. I need to realize that I can choose to let God govern my life and my attitude, and that I don't have to feel unhappy, or apprehensive about my day to day life. I can choose to enjoy my days, or just to simply live in them, and complete my tasks with a lack of enthusiasm. I can choose to work hard, learn and grow. I can control my actions toward my children. I want to believe so much, but I have a the disease of doubt that lingers in my heart disguised as common sense. Can I choose to have blind faith? There is a voice inside my head that says no, that I'll only be fooling myself (Fake it till you make it!) I need to acccept progress not perfection, and I need to take steps forward every single day, and not do things that I feel guilty for such as yelling and screaming at my kids. I want to let God have my will and my life. Please help me Jesus to accept the things that I don't understand without question. Give me the strength to silence the voice of doubt and reasoning, that I have come to believe is my spiritual enemy. Help me to retain the precious knowledge that you ahve put in my path. Help me to be a better mother, and to nurture my childrens sense of well-being. Help me to be responsible in my finances. Help me to be a fearless, and honest in the steps that I take. Guide me to make the right decisions, and give me the faith to stand by them. Help to recognize the voice of the enemy and to banish it.