Vics taken my life

[Pensfan87]

Hi there, my first post, but have been reading for last day or so. Just don't know if i should try c/t or head to d/t clinic. On my 2nd day w/o, and feeling like ****, diarrhea, sweats, chills etc.. Been here before, but this time i need to quit for good. Have been taking pills for 4yrs or so, but really bad in last 3. Average bout 12 a day, give or take. These things are ruining my life. Fiance's leaving, won't be able to afford my house, worlds just falling apart. I have finally told her the truth bout my addiction, although she had her suspicions. Also fessed up to some family members, who new i was on em, but not how bad. I feel disgrased, embarrassed, distraught...... NEED HELP!!!!

[traveladdict]

Great job an day two.. You may not want here this but day 3 is the worst. Get over it don't make the call. SUCK IT UP ONE MORE DAY! Stay on line posting. Take hot baths and just soak. Drink fluids. Put on some music.  But whatever you do, DO NOT MAKE THAT CALL! If you don't feel much better tomorrow I will give you your money back for the advice.

[oxyaddict420]

Dont feel ashamed, or embarrassed..  
Welcome to the forum, it is late so you might not get ALOT of replies tonight, but trust me you will get help here!

Vicodin has claimed alot of people here and it is a hard narcotic to stop taking*especially cold turkey!  The main thing is that you are doing it and say this is it right?

You are the only one that knows whether or not you really need to be in a detox clinic.. My opnion is that if you have tried before and failed then maybe it is time to try a new way of quitting. Plus a clinic, or rehab should also do other things as well to help you try and reclaim your life..

I AM HERE TO HELP YOU

YOU CAN BEAT THIS ADDICTION

IT IS TIME TO STEP UP AND RECLAIM YOUR LIFE!!!

GREAT LUCK AND GOD BLESS!!

[toxictome]

Welcome to the forum. This is an old thread. You may not get many responses here. You should repost as a new question(go to top , hit post a question button and then copy your post.) I hate to see you get overlooked!!!

[whattodo233]

There is someone who I am very close to...who has recently been given Laracet 2 times now by a co-worker. I know that my friend's back was hurting from helping me move, however, I am very angry about this for many reasons. First, he becomes a bit "flirty" and overly friendly when he is under the influence ( so far Ive only seen it when drinking)...but I dont like the fact that he is getting such a strong drug from a female co worker. I find it very hard to kick him to the curb ..because I do care. A part of me would like to approach her when I pick him up from work and slap her around. Who the hell does she think she is giving him anything but a damn tylenol? I hate his judgement and Im really angry with her. What so I do? Do I get rid of him? Im hurting..alot... because he is the type to say, "ohh I didn't do that" (yet I just saw him with my own two eyes), and to me that is the same thing as saying, "your feelings mean nothing to me...and Im going to continue doing what I want to do."
I need to figure out how to be strong

[hopsing94]

Hey man just hang in there. My wife left me also,she is coming back once i'm clean. That  would be this weekend. I'm on about day 5 should be day 7 but had a little bump new years eve. Got in a fight with my 20 yr old daughter who i found out was taking the same pills. I took to 10mg hydros. Hydros are my doc. Alot like vics so i can relate. Like i said day 5 now and other than the cloudy head (like sinus pressure) i'm doing pretty good. Had a pretty good habit for about 5 years straight. Look you have to get through this bro, she will come back but you've got alot to prove to her right now. In the last week I bet i told my wife to f off about 15 times,not to her but in my mind. I would miss her one second then be like f her i dont need her i just need 1 little pill. Well i stuck in there and we saw each other for the first time since sunday before new years. She is still very hesitant and scared,she even opened her own bank account. I felt abandoned at my biggest time of need but she had to do it for me to see the light. You can do this,it's not easy but to get your life back it's a small price to pay. Be grateful for what you still have and you be even more grateful when she comes back and your feeling again. She will have much more love for you when you show her she is more important than those pills. Hang in there, day 3 is the worst and then things start getting better, the cravings are tough so when i want a pill i take vitamins and water. I can tell you it is so worth it,im starting to fee like my old self and people are noticing. You can do this man. John

[VicUser]

Today is day 35 of no vicodin after 7 years of use, the first 4 days were the worst and it has gotten better from there. Word of caution about wine, I found that a glass, or two, of wine help reduce the pain that I was taking vicodin for. I dawned on me though that I was trading one drug for another, so I stopped that 2 days ago. I have a full prescription bottle of vicodin in the medicine cabinet at home and carry a small bottle of them with me in my briefcase. It has been a struggle from time to time, when my leg pain really starts to get bad, not to take them, but so far I haven’t. It’s a battle of wills, and every day I know I have the choice and have to decide not to take them and each day it gets easier not to want them.

You can do it just keep up the fight.

[want2bmeagain]

welcome to the forum...remember there are so many people out there in your shoes...just keep hangin on...u can do it...im on almost day 5....i survived so far...just keep posting and remember we are all here for you and we understand

[checkmeout]

I'm with travel on that.  i'm on day 6 here and man o man... i sure would like to make that call myself.  i won't be doing it, though.  gotta make this for good.  it is nice to finally be able to have a solid ****.  LOL.  I'm really feeling much better.  Just woke up this morning and my mind was making these ridiculous excuses as to why i should just make the call and get 2... or no... maybe 4... just for the day...  how stupid, huh?  gotta preoccupy myself right away.   best of luck to you, pensfan.  However you go about it, just remember that you're saving your life.  It's the right thing to do.

[traveladdict]

Day 3 is tough if at all possible I would have the flu and in the best interest of your coworkers not go in today.  If you work nights tomorrow night you will feel much better. Also watch out for days 5-8 I had bad cravings (just when you start feeling better).  Stay strong we are all pulling for you. Just get though today and worry about tomorrow when you wake up. Hang tough.

[Pensfan87]

Yea, kind of figured that responce was comin. 1/2 my problem, most my coworkers either ask if i have a vic for sell, or if i want to buy oc, laracet, percs etc. Other thing i have failed to mention, i have had a recent shoulder oper in oct. Been being prescribed 120 7.50 vics a month for a knee surgery went wrong. So i kinda do feel i need the relief from time to time. But if i have em in my posession, i can't contain myself to just using when i need em! >.<

[flmagi]

Avoid at all costs coming in close contact with your DOC. Trust me, its not a good thing.  Good luck again.
Magi

[Pensfan87]

Your words are a great comfort. Just got done takin the garbage to the curb... @ 6:30am, oh well. I have to go to work @ 9PM tonite, so i'm gonna try and get some sleep. Been drinkin a bit, so should help me sleep a while. I know that's sad, just trading one addiction for another.... but thats me, obsessive/compulsive to the max!!! But never had a problem with anything like i do these damn pills!!! Only problem is, i know i can get an OC @ work... should i just call off?????

[flmagi]

Just wanted to add, from experience, drinking etc. will only lessen your resolve to get thru this detox. So be careful. Just hunker down and you'll get thru this. It's a b itch, I know. I feel for ya.
Magi

[flmagi]

I know how it is, when your trying to detox and your life is falling apart around you. Makes everything seem so much worse and knowing a couple of pills will just numb those awful feelings. But taking more pills will only put off the inevitable. Life can suck but we need to be able to deal with it, without the pills. They really don't help us, do they? They don't stop our love ones from leaving us, they certainly don't bring us money or jobs. They just make it so we don't care as much if everything is screwed up. Or have the pills screwed everything up? How can we tell unless we get off them?
Ok, I'm rambling now, lol.
Stay strong, Pen, at least your outlook on things will get better.
Magi

[ButchH8]

Your not a super heavy user. Why not get some Suboxon and avoid all the WD pain. You can be clean of everything in a week or two. I am off everything 21 days and feel fine. I used at the same level of vicoden as you did. Good luck.

[allaboutmary]

Day 2 no sence in turning back now. Keep going. One more bad day .  This will be so worth it.  Trust us.  Keep reading and posting. Stay strong. We wlll be here for ya.   Mary

[Pensfan87]

LMAO, thanks for the moral booster

[Pensfan87]

Thanks for the support magi. I'm tryin, but just so damn rough. My woman's leavin me, and i know i could get fixed up with a phone call.... Takin everything i have not to call....really thinkin i should just go into detox center....

[flmagi]

Way to go on day 2. I know the hell your going thru. Just afew more days and you'll be feeling better. You can do this. The lack of sleep is a b itch and can last a while, but it does get better. Hang in there and stay strong. Keep posting. We're here for you.
Magi

[Pensfan87]

well, never did get any sleep. Ended up drinking a bottle of wine instead to try and dampin these damn withdrawls, and maybe put me to sleep. I guess i know what i have to do... GOD this SUCKS!!!!

[oxyaddict420]

get as much sleep as you possibly can! if you can sleep through the whole thing that would be a wonderful thing right?>lol

I would also take a VERY HOT BATH WITH EPSOM SALT to helo the RLS( the leg tremors) plus the HOT BATH helps with relaxing and helping the physical part of withdrawl as well..  

YOU ARE GONNA MAKE IT!!!

[Pensfan87]

Thanks for the pointers bro, will do. Might actually be able to get a little shut eye here soon. Doubt it'll last more than an hr though, so take care, if i don't see u before u go!

[oxyaddict420]

I do not know about that question man sorry.. Although even if it did I think it would be a small price to pay to get your life back--DONT YOU?  You have to say how can I not do this?  

I have MAJOR DEEP DEPRESSION I have not worked out yet.. I feel it has alot to do with why I abuse the pills so heavily..  I think from the little you have told me that admitting yourself to a rehab is  A GREAT IDEA!  I know what you mean about not being able to see your life without pills..  I have alomst forgotten it as well... But for a quick reminder go look at my journal about my plan to do the suboxone treatment.. This might help you as well. Plus you will see what type of life I was living and where the people I was playing ball with are now in life.. that pciture of me is a special one man. It was when I was PURE-- UNTAINTED WITH PILLS-BULLSH1T!!!  I honestly think I could have been a proffesional baseball player.. 3 of my close friends that I was playing in all-star leagues with actually made it to the pros. One even went 1st round #1 OVERALL PICK!!

That has really messed with my head, and now with all these pills and ****! My life has spiraled down hill into a dark hole fo depression that I try and fill with pills!  Take the time to read my journal post and also read up on  SUBOXONE! Some swear by it and said it has saved their lives..

Also I have a post on here that is titled " MY SUBOXONE TREATMENT"  it has people that are actually on it and have came off it as well.. take the time to take care of your self man!

YOU DESERVE IT

[Pensfan87]

Thanks for the reply. Right now having mixed signals. Want to quit, know i should quit, but.... can't see my life w/o em.

My ex thinks detox would help deal w/my depression also.

Just that i've already lost a job that i had for 14yrs over these things, and don't want to loose current one. Now if i self admit, will there be some kind of record on my file? Don't know if anyone knows this or not....