Hi,
I tried it last night and I did get some sleep, of course I am holding now at 6mg it has been a few weeks now at 6mg. I think I am starting to get used to that dose because I don't feel too bad today. I think I will give it another week or two then go down to 5mg. Wish me luck...
Sharon
You are a doll to remember....I told Pat I was going to celebrate by getting hammered, and he laughed and laughed.....(Maybe laughed a little TOO HARD, if you know what I mean? Perhaps I made him nervous.) Anyway, I DO feel really good about everything.
So now it has been 14 hours (but who's counting?) since I had a cigarette...The cravings are pretty bad--even worse than w/ vikes. But maybe the magnitude of narc withdrawl has faded w/ time, I don't know. I'm psyched--I WILL DO THIS!!
I've gotten several emails congratulating me. You guys are great! To anyone who is just now detoxing, or has a few days, weeks, or even months under your belt: LIVING A DRUG-FREE LIFE IS WORTH THE PAIN YOU ARE GOING THROUGH NOW. Never forget that. It DOES get better, the sleeping, depression, finances, friends, jobs,--ALL of it will work out eventually. I'm not saying my life is without problems now, or that I am never down or upset. But dealing w/ those things sober and not in a fog is a helluva lot easier!!
I could not have made it w/out the continued support of Pix, Bill, Pam,MrM, Chezz, Thomas,Methmike(I'm sure there are others) and last but not least, my good friend Percs who has stood by me from day 1 at this forum. I love all of you! Peace---Peazy
THANKYOU! - what a terrific & inspiring post! :-)
WELLDONE to you!.
(hang in there with the ciggies - I gave up 3 years back....IT IS *GREAT* to be free of nicotine addiction)
WOOOOHHOOOOOO for Peazy!
Warmth, Liquid.
I have never posted here until today. Many of you know me through email. I just wanted to say that I am so proud of you Peazy. Your post about life is better without opiates has inspired me. You should hold your head up proudly knowing that you have overcome this beast. Good luck with the smokes! Pamela
WOW THAT IS FANTASTIC--I REALLY-REALLY NEEDED TO READ YOUR POST! I AM 22 DAYS INTO RECOVERY AND FOR SOME REASON THE CRAVINGS AND MIND GAMES WERE UNBELIEVABLY STRONG TODAY--AND WITH IT CAME THE OLD FAMILIAR HIGH ANXIETY--SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE THERE IS A BATTLE FOR MY SOUL GOING ON-AFTER READING YOUR POST ABOUT LIFE GETTING BETTER A SENSE OF CALM CAME OVER ME--CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN--I PRAY THAT I CAN CELEBRATE A YEAR OUT OF HYDRO-HELL--LOVE
PEACE, AND PRAYERS!--THANKS AGAIN FOR JUST BEING HERE!
I got home from work and found this wonderful thread of congratulations and it almost brought tears to my eyes....I don't talk about my addiction or subsequent recovery very much--only to my group therapy people, my AA home group, and you guys here online. I suppose the shame factor is still alive and well, plus I find most non-addicts just don't understand addiction. (and they're scared to find out!) Plus, I seem to have lost all of my previous "friends".......Okay, Peaz--GET TO THE POINT!!! What I'm tryiny to say is, that after a year of sometimes hiding and sometimes doing acrobatics to "appear" normal, I can't tell you what it means to read these posts of ACCEPTANCE , PRAISE, AND ACKNOWLEGEMENT OF A JOB WELL DONE!! Well, I realize the struggle isn't over, and the so-called "job" isn't really done, but you know what I mean...And if I have inadvertently helped one or two of you (New Orleans Lady and Liquidgal) then I am SO grinning from ear to ear to think that I gave you the hope that someone had undoubtedly given me when I was in your shoes not all that long ago. You've heard it before, but what goes around DOES come around!!
I wish you all the best and KEEP POSTING. If one doesn't know the answer to a question, someone else will, or we will pool resources and FIND OUT. No question is too stupid or silly (Just like math class--but they were not prepared for some of mine...:-) However, Percs just makes things up as he goes along, so WATCH HIM.....(JK--he's the BEST!)
My love and support goes out to each and every one of you tonite. THANKS!!!! Peazy