OXY

[J7__NYC]

I'm sure I'm complaing to the wrong peoiple- for sure- but I just realized I'm hooked on oc's, no question about it.  Started out a couple years back with percs and vics, but always sporadically and never formed a habit.

A about 3 months ago I met a girl who starting selling me 80 mg oxy's- I had a ritual after work of doing about a quarter of the pill- sucked the coating it off, credit card out, crushed it up and dollar billed the ****** right up the nose- that burn promised the wonderful relaxation I so desperately needed after 13 hours of work or so.  Problem was, it wasnt a quarter pill any more, it was half, then all, then i couldn't make it thru the work day.  Started popping pills around 5pm, then 4, pretty soon right in the morning around 8.

Today I did not. I need to stop, and I'm out of $ and withdrawaling.  I know all the basc facts= i just need to know how intense this withdrawal will get, how long it will last.  Ihave about only about 100-120 mg habit a day- for only 3 months or so.

But i am scared and feeling really ****** right now.  Last dose was this time yesterday- 24 hours ago.  Just took 4 mg's of xanax and 3 glasses of red wine- feel slightly better but like absolutely dog ****. Mostly anxious and depressed, legs hurt,  stomach bothering me, i know exactly waht would fix me up but I want to stop- everything i hear and read just makes me feel like it will be even harder if I stop a  few months from now.

How long will this last?  Should i take small amounts of oxy to ease this pain?


ANy help at all i'd appreciate more than i can even describe. I'm alone in my apt now, crying. Isn't that weird, i'm ******* crying and scared like a girl.  I was too tired at work today to even function, all the cofee and adderall i was taking wasnt helping at all- i can't even think of anyone in the world to call except my ex-girl friend who's been thru enough of my ******** I couldn't even imgaine calling her now telling her what I've become.

Sorry- already said i wasn't going to ***** and complain here- you all are much tougher than me, i just am worried and scared and don't know what's happening to me.  Im a pretty tough kid- i'm sure most people tha know me would agree- but i am frightened in my room shivering- i look forwrad to any help u all have-

JC7

[worried878]

No...if you take some...u will start all over and I dont think 2 days for the weekend is gonna get u thru...you will be sick on monday and go thru this all over again...I say GO HOME!  Everyone has the right to be sick...go back on Monday,....tell them u will be back on Monday..give yourself the best possible chance for kicking this..GO HOME..this is important

[J7__NYC]

Guys thankyou for all the posts- I didn't have access to a computer after I posted last night bc my roomate returned and took his computer back- he noted I looked like hell so I told him to stay away as i thought i had the flu.

As expected- last night was a nightmare of an evening, although a nightmare I was awake the whole time for. Shivering/sweating, thinking about everything goign wrongin my life, everything I've ****** up or should have done better..thinking about times when i was younger, when i was happy.  I don't know if I spent more time in my bed or the bathroom but it was an ugly night.

I'm at work right now bc i have to be, sitting in my cube- i highly doubt i can make it much longer...i'm planning on saying i have the flu if anyone asks and hoping to get home soon. Feel sick as hell- and my eys are watering and nose running prety bad, is that norm? The only good thing is i'm left alone usually here and dont have to talk to anyone, but this might be a bad idea if anyone sees me i dont think it would take Eienstein to figure out im w/d.  Also got a few text messg's from my main friend who i do pills with saying he picked up at wants to hango ut..i haven't responded yes or no but it is the only thing on my mind righ tnow and i can't stp thinking about. Ive been thinkin of athousand reasons why i should not be w/d now, thinking i should just start this proces on fri and w/d thru the weekend....dammit this insane.

I will reach 48 hours tonight at 7 and will post then again - im suprised how much writing here helps and reading even more- guys thnx again for your advice and support. The only question i have is if this levels off around now or if it will get worse today & tomorrow.

Jc7

[opi]

if you can stick doin a very lil amount and tapper do it(in my opinion),,if you know deep down that you can't,,don't bother...get rid of em and stick to cold turkey,,,,i am on      hmmmmm week 2 anyway.....cold turk..it was rough but come day 5 6 7 8 it gets better...first 4 were bad,,,,ug,,,,i did nothing else but a gravol or 2 and some imodium.....i did take clonodine for 2 days think day 3-4.......but man you got the right attitude,,,the **** sucks...i was doin 5-10 80's a day so it was not a good time,,,,,,i've kept the attitude that you wana play you gota pay,,,,,,plus dealing with my world colapsing while sobering/////////////blah......feel decent now so it does get better....this is the place to be....feel like snivelin like a lil girl,,,make a post...ppl will respond,advise,make ya laugh and make you see that there  are worse off and we all have the same goal...not to be slaves to it...get life back...walk amongst the livin.....if your freakin out,jonzin.on a ledge....make a post and peeps will help.... i am opi and i am a freaker oxy head that has got,getting and keeping a grip of things and i'd like to thank everyone for their kind words and support today.....my cat can only give so much support......plus he has his own catnip problem he's workin out ...buy my cat drugs and i can't even get any for myself......sumtin wrong here

[1234betterlife]

you have made the first step. that is wonderful. i did want to comment on a few things in your message. i understand first hand how bad you feel. i think we can all relate to that. however, you are sabotaging yourself already. it is simply because you are trying to find some way to make yourself feel better. realizing the length of time you will go through this is helpful but it is different for everyone and symptoms will vary from person to person. just REALIZE that you are going to have discomfort, you made the huge step admitting you have a problem. you have to address the problem completely. stop and get rid of the xanax, the wine, the adderall. all of these things will only weaken your resolve and keep the active addiction active. there are suggestions on the forum to help alleviate the symptoms with supplements and pallative measures such as hot baths, heating pads and exercise  (when you are up to it). during this time of detox educate yourself on this disease and think about how you may benefit by addressing ALL aspects of addiction, pursuing some kind of treatment for yourself. this varies as well from person to person but it will be necessary for your complete and total recovery. i wish you well. stick around and talk this out. you can learn a lot on this forum.

[worried878]

I would ride it out...u r 24 hours in already...not a huge dose u r doing..can u call in with the flu for the rest of the week?  relax and ride it out...well I know u cant really relax but taking the work burden off your shoulders helps..u wuold be ok enough on monday to go back...i took 5 days and did it...was tired on day 6 at work but made it..It made it easier for me to not have to worry about work....keep posting

[lostsoul2]

I never took Oxy, just a ot of hydros.  But the crying is part of opiate w/d in general.  I know what you mean about feeling weak, like you're losing control.  I was a "tough guy," but w/d from the opiates made me cry like a baby at nothing.  Many here will tell you the same thing.  Your brain is expecting the drug to produce it's good mood, but without it the brain takes a little while to adjust to having to work on its own again.  It takes time, and I know that's the last thing you want to hear, but there is no quick fix.  It's an unfortunate fact.  But through it you will be stronger.  Right now you will need to give yourself some time to heal.  Check out the Thomas Recipe and Amino Acid Protocol.  They do help.  But when the worst is over, you are going to have lingering cravings for a long time.  That's when the battle gets tough.  Good luck.

[oxygirl487]

hi and welcome to the forum....u have made a huge first step in your recovery...i am 4months clean from an oxy habit ,3-6 sometimes more 80's a day..i was on them for over a year though ...my w/d symtoms lasted about 3 weeks dont let that discourage u..im just being honest....w/d from oxy's r alot different than w/d from hydro's..worse alot worse..almost like herione ...that said since u havent been on them as long as i was u shouldnthave as much trouble...the longer u take them the longer your w/d is......alot of people r different for instance my husband had the same habit same amount but for a shorter amount of time than i had.....his w/d was almost completely over within 8-9 days...so i think thats about what u can expect.....as for using small amounts to ease the pain.....do u think u could hold on to an oxy and just take some when needed? if so then i suggest u do a taper ..if no,and be honest with urself,then c/t it is my friend...i couldnt do a taper if i had oxy's i was gonna snort them till they were gone and suffer later...hope this helps....email me if u need to im here for a while tonite...and post post post..it helps tremendously....god bless u sweetie and hope u feel better soon

[GoingToMakeIt]

Unless you plan on tapering off of them, taking an oxy will prolong the withdrawals. They will last 4-5 more days. Get some Immodium, eat bananas hot baths with
Epsom salts and ride this out. Good luck.
Read the Health Pages here too.

[newmanagment]

None of us are braver than you, we have all been there. many on here share your DOC, i dont. but after reading your story, i just want to say, you arent complaining,  your asking for help! we will support  you and help you all we can, and if ya want to kick it,,your in the right place. i will let others that know more about oxy help ya with the legs, stomach, etc. but i wanted to say congrads on being strong enough to decide you want your life back. now man up, prepare for a fight, and keep ya chin up...