Methadone Addiction!

[laemasters]

I am 27 yrs. old with two children,I have been on Methadone (presently at 50mg)for 3 years & before that I was on prescription pain pills & before that at a younger age I used illegal drugs.I know now that I use these drugs to avoid my personal issues,low self-esteem, depression,compulsive,& codependent.I have tried to get help for my mental issues though,I am on medicaid which is not a good ins.you don't get very good doctors.They don't listen & try to honestly solve your problem, they just write a script, nothing has helped,& now I am at my worst. When first on meth. I felt great, it didn't have  bad side effects that pain killers had I thought, & I finally felt a little normal though this was an illusion because the longer I was on meth. the worse I felt.The worst side effect to me is I cannot function because I sleep all the time & I hate myself for it, if it wasn't for me sleeping all the time, forgetfullness & putting things off therefor I never get anything done, this would not be a bad drug. I want to feel normal & be able to get up at a descent hour and accomplish every day tasks.I pray for things to get better & they just get worst. Every day  goes by gets worse & I have no self-esteem left, I hate myself & my life I feel has no purpose, also I'm hurting my children, which hurts even more,this is'nt who I want to be or become. I am so scared all the time I have never been scared like this, I feel like a young child crying out for help & there's noone there.I thought I was doing the right thing by getting off cocaine & going to pain killers,& then to methadone hoping to get clean. Some days I can't even get out of bed. I have to function somewhat I have children. My questions are, why do I sleep all the time,always feelling exhausted.The only way to get up is to take more pills. (How do I get off meth.) or just stay on it at a lower dose & is meth. dangerous long term..Overall what do you suggest I do?.Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, I don't know what else to do.
Lorie

[grievingwidow]

Hi, I am also on Methadone, have been for 6-7 years.  I take 30 mg a day, plus also take Percocet when I have a bad headache (the reason I started taking these pills to begin with).  I have the same problem you do as far as no energy, putting things off, etc. I posted here a few days ago with basically the same question, wandering if the Methadone was keeping me from moving forward in my life.  I sleep, drag myself up at 4 p.m. to go to work, struggle until midnight to produce enough without being fired.  I do not have small children anymore, thank God, don't know what I would do.  I know that I need to get off the Methadone but for me the only way will probably be going to a rehab.  I have insurance now and there is no excuse not to do it, just still scary when thinking of withdrawal agony and also what kind of life I will have without the drugs?  I don't know why that scares me since I obviously post how horrible my life is now anyway.  I just want you to know that you are not alone, if that is any consolation.  I am afraid I have no clear-cut answers for you since my life is such a mess right now, but you have come to the right place, and hopefully both of us will be on the road to being drug-free soon.

Love, Cindy

[tobbs]

hay lorrie i am so glad you posted, i dont have much time know as i have to take my younger son to school,as soon as i get home will post more but i can tell you , your methdone dose is not right because the meth can make you feel good or normal to a great extent. as i say i dont have a lot of time now but you can be ok.  When your methdone dose is to high it makes you sleep or when its to low you have noe enegery . at least what i am telling you goes for me . I will tell you i have lived and felt (more) (NORMAL) on methdone than at any time in the last 15 years. I know this for sure if your dose is not right,i would feel just like what you say. do you go to a clinic, or do you self medicate i will be back on line in a couple hours .Please get help for yourself. MY mom was adictiad ha ha what spelling . To valium when i was a child i think that has a lot to do with my adiction bye for now tobbs

[redblue]

My friend is on 280 mgs of methadone daily for chronic pain and also 7  10/325 hydrocodone daily.  She sleeps alot, usually around 12 hours per day.  she has a very high tolerance to opiates.