It gets about 5% easier each day. If this is your 13th day without it, then just hunker down and complete your detox. It only gets easier now. You can do it. Good Luck to ya. Rodneyrdr
hey, i just posted above and i guess i thought someone was here, like a chat line, this is my 1st time on the forum ill check back later or tommorow, i really need some support with my lady away , but if some one wants to email, me go ahead, im always checking that, peace
ive have a "comment" since i was informed i cant ask a question in this forum the thing is i was addicted to heroin for 3 years and moved out of nyc to florida and detoxed in a week or so unfortunatly without counceling ever, i was clean for 4 years then i had a severe back injury and was prescribed 1st vicodins which i never heard of ,realy, i never took any pills to get high(in my past) but when i started abusing my meds it kept going and they kept em coming so when i told my doctor that i was an addict again and avout my past he sent me to the methadone clinic and i thought great it helps the pain and ill just get off it when im done that was a year and a half ago i went up to 100 mgs and for the last 6 months have been coming down i was at 18 mgs 13 days ago and walked off and i am sicker than i have ever been for the past 10 days now painfully sick how long will this last in someones "non medical opinion" im realy beside my self it seems its getting worse dope was like a walk in the park compared to this what will ease it the reason i stopped the therapuedic detox is, im supposed to be in n.y with my fiance on vacation to see her dad get married but couldnt even drive her to the airport i thought at 18 mgs id feel human at least after 2 weeks of not dosing any body have any words of wisdom please email me here ....t.***@****
Hey, Guy....
I am concerned about you. As MrMichael put it: "Why the curiosity?" Where you are [at this point in your recovery] right now is the HARDEST part of sobriety in MY opinion (2-4 months clean: You feel SO GREAT about your accomplishments; however, there is that nagging feeling that you're missing "Something")
Keep posting, and reflect upon your thoughts from moment to moment. Make sure that you aren't trying to give yourself subconcious reasons to use!
I'm probably OVER-reacting here, but if you are SURE that this doesn't apply to you, please forgive me.
I, for one, have been through this TOO MANY TIMES!!
Goodnight to you ALL!
Jess
P.S. to GWH-- Don't forget to put the Rain-x on the Audi's windshield... You will need it next weekend!
the question is "why the curiosity?" well I appreciate the concern and there definitely needs to be some concern. I'm about 2 and a half months clean, I feel great and as Jess put it, there is something missing. I had to pay off "my guy" a week ago, see I told him when I got that wafer almost 3 months ago that I wouldn't be around because I didn't want to see him, he fully understood, he was really nice about it, he knew I needed to stay away. Well he called and asked for the money I owed him ($70 for a 40mg wafer)........... it is really hard to get over here so they sky rocket the prices. Anyway, I went over, he had a bag of 1000 80's and about 500 40's. As soon as I walked in he put it away and before I could say anything he took my money and pretty much told me to leave. I had a little bit of a whole in my stomach when I left.... like I was missing someone, or like you just broke up with your girlfriend, that type feeling. Well I have gone away with my girlfriend the last 3 weekends and when i have left each time I got really nervous for the first couple of hours and then I was fine and didn't think about anything for the entire weekend. The point is, I really feel like I'm "missing out" you know what I mean? You start to associate the drugs with whoever sells them and you think their your true friends, and then I try and rationalize, like hey, there your friends, you need to hang out with them more............... and when I start thinking about it I always want to go there and hang out, when really all I want to do is use................... I'm not going to lie, I loved heading out on a saturday afternoon to go see these "friends" who had as much beer as you could drink enough cocaine to kill 10 horses and enough Oxycontin to have 50 people overdose..... i would blow an oxy and then take a few lines, then drink and of course the only thing that could enhance that feeling was about a pack of cigarettes...............
Well on a good note I haven't used and I also know that what I described above is an equation for failure, it would lead to being broke, depressed, alone, and most likely dead, the scary part is, nobody knows what I have done or what I liked doing.
So, to sum it up, I was thinking of taking methadone maybe once or twice to satisfy my urge, but I decided against it because number 1 its just as bad, and number 2 it would only make me want to do more........
Well thats it, so what do you think Dr's??????
GWH
Boy, can I relate. It's good you are being honest here. Have you talked to another addict in person about what you are feeling? It usually helps quite a bit.
Your addictive mind is out to **** you. When I go through spells where I think about going back, I try my best to get the thought out of my head as soon as possible. If I sit there and fantasize about the high, I am gone. Doesn't matter that OC's almost killed me, almost put me on the street, took everything. My mind will still at times try to convince me that living high is really living. I need to take immediate action to rid myself of the thoughts. Talking to another addict is indispensible. Also, dwelling on how bad things got helps, as does prayer, or an aa/na meeting. Be careful.
I took a recent picture of myself and my girlfriend, and I know its too personal for you to send pictures, but I would really like to send it to you, it really shows what this forum has done for me, and specifically what YOU, YES YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be in this situation with my girlfriend, your the one who beat it into my head and convinced me that I had to tell my girlfriend in order to save my relationship, so let me know if its ok to send it to you.
This goes for skipper/IR and a few others as well, YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE, THE PEOPLE I HAVE HAD SO MUCH CONTACT WITH IN MY REHABILITATION PROCESS THUS FAR. (hellbent,jessesarpy,WW etc)If its not too personal for people then I would love to share a picture that literally shows how I feel.
Thanks guys and girls........
GWH
MINE IS R_BACCARI***@**** email me and I will email it to you, i don't have your address...............
if you really feel you want to, i don't mind if you send a picture. however, i really hope you still have my address, because i cannot post it here.
i'm so glad to hear you sounding so happy...i guess that depression you were feeling is lifting a bit?
Hey...
Send it here: ***@****
(as long as it's just pg-13 or less!
oh, and I would need your email address.
Hey you....
I am sure you already got the email...so I am sure everything is kool...just thought I'd post anyway...lol....Laters
Christine
The methadone is completely out of your system. Methadone is out of the system in 3 to 5 days in your case, a little longer for chronic use. The withdrawals from methadone sometimes take a while to come around because of how long methadone acts in your body. Why the curiosity?
i have that picture but I don't have your email address...........................
Hey there, I just wanted to let you know I finally feel free, like I can do anything in my life and not think about drugs. I have gone away the last 3 weekends and didn't even worry about drugs and I credit you for a lot of this. When I was stubborn you were the one to put me in my place, and I just wanted to say thank you for that. If you get a chance please write back and let me know how you are doing.
GWH