Need some company

[jennifer819]

I am not feeling very good, is there anyone out there I can talk to?

[j34]

Oh ya I love hot milk with cinnimon and sugar That's my comfort drink.Ps lots of water.

[j34]

You are in my thoughts and prayers.You are on the right track.This is a hard time right now but the rewards are sooooooo worth it.Keep on Keeping On. Reaching out,taking suggestings and wanting it are all things that are helping me. Stay safe. Somebody always loves you. j

[joann1975]

Jen...will you please talk to us? We haven't heard from you and are concerned!
JoAnn

[NautyOne]

From what I am reading from you......you were taking alot.  It is not safe to detox at home alone off of what you were on.  Please get some help.  Call your Doctor or go to the ER, Please...........I had a bad seizure at home and was lucky that my Mother was visiting me at the time......I was in the shower and my Mother heard a huge crash and I was lying on the floor of the shower with my eyes rolled up in my head.......I came thru it with a black-eye and lots of bruises on my body.......I hate my shower.  I didn't get medical help , but I couldn't take a shower for a couple weeks without someone being right outside the door.  I wasn't taking anything near what you were......Please get some help.

Luv,
Nauty.............

[sadinmichigan]

Good morning Jen, i hope you got a little bit of sleep. There isn't much i can add that others haven't said . Please hang in there.Fight this thing..nothing worthwhile comes easy..right? I have been right where you are,we all have..it's tough but NOT impossible by any means...Stay focused on the goal.

[Xandria]

I'm new here too, and going through the same hell right now.  Happy to chat with you when you feel up to it.

[dominosarah]

Thank you!!!!

[marcatj]

yup Sara - agreed.

and it's absolutely horrible for all.

but Jen - you WILL get through this.  and you WILL be ok...

let us all help you...

with luv,
mj

[dominosarah]

I beg to differ with you.  I have experienced withdrawal as i went ct on my DOC.  We also have tons of sympathy for people who are suffering as we do know how they feel.  Please dont judge any of us until you know where we came from.            sara

[p1llpoppinanimal]

If there is one thing i have learned, NOBODY, and i mean NOBODY will ever understand unless they are experiencing or have experienced what you have..They do not have sympathy for you because they simply CAN'T realize the seriousness of the matter and how horrible it is..

[marcatj]

ps - this is assuming you are already a few days in to being off the ativan.  that one i'm not sure about going cold turkey. but if you are already a few days off of them, i think you really are just into w/d's.

the narcotics most of us have gone through the withdrawals and while really awful, not life threatening...

it DOES get better. and soon.

[marcatj]

Jen - get through it hun.

you have a day or two more of the bad withdrawals, and that's it.  and YES, we've all been there.

it's alot of perc's and other pills you were eating, so yes, the w/d's are bad.

but they will get better soon.  and if you can, write how you're feeling now in a journal somewhere so you don't forget it.  because you don't want to go through this again.

you are almost through the worst of it.  you aren't going to die, we've all been through it, it's AWFUL, but i promise it will pass soon... and the mental part is just as bad as the physical part.. the fear, depression, etc.  that is the w/d too. PLEASE know this will lift soon, as well...

breathe honey.... you're going to be ok..

xo
mj

[faith_hope_love]

Hi Jennifer, I just wanted to add that I am praying for you.  I know you are beyond miserable right now and I have to agree with the other's that just stopping ativan and ultram can be really dangerous.  

Can you tell your family how serious this is so maybe they can help?  Or maybe let them read what people are posting here so they will understand.  If it were just vicoden or percocet, you would still be miserable but wouldn't be at risk for a seizure like you are now because of the ativan and ultram.

I know you probably don't feel like typing much but can you tell us how many ultram, how many ativan and how many percocet did you take per day?  The people here can help you better if they know your daily intake.

Let us know how you are when you can..take care!

[broknbck]

you said that your body is actually shaking. well you have quit cold turkey off some nasty drugs that are not safe to do that. you should not be alone and jeez does your doctor know that you are doing this. or maybe you do not have a doctor for all these scripts?

i think you need to go to the hospital and follow up with a doctor tomorrow. and not be alone. there is a very good chance you may go into siezures. you can always call an ambulance if no one is around to drive you.

[bandnmom]

Hi!!!

[extrmeski]

OH I hated that part of the whole thing, I used to watch teh sun come up.  It does get better with time.  Benedryl helped me to sleep.

[dominosarah]

hi bandnmom!!!!  

[bandnmom]

jennifer,
i just wrote a journal entry today called...from my heart. Its a very positve journal. Read it! Maybe it will help you see the positive in all this!

[bandnmom]

yep..we r here? Hi sarah!!

[dominosarah]

keep talking to us.......we know how you are feeling.

[bandnmom]

Im am butting in to. I am sorry that you are going threw this. Like everyone said it does get better. Going CT ***** but but coming off some of those meds can be very dangerous. Is anyone home with you?

[addict3]

Jen,
how much vicodin...percocet....ativan...and ultram?

[worried878]

the tramadol and ativan would be the ones that could be dangerous for u...u dont say ur dose of these 2 meds...seizures can be a side effect from stopping either of these meds abruptly...these both should be tapered slowly....if u r out..then u cant taper...u need to be safe...and try not to stay alone for a few days...again...911 if need be

[joann1975]

and you are still taking these or you quit these?