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New to this forum.....2 days without Oxy!
Hello,
I've been reading these threads for a while and found them very helpful and encouraging.
I have been hooked on Oxy's for about a year and a half. I started taking Lortabs, but after a few months it progressed into Oxy. Sometimes, I was taking as much as 100MG a day, usually 10's and 20, chewed up. Other times, it was just a handful of 5MG immediate release tabs, (10 at a time). After a year of this I was completly disgusted with myself and my addiction, (which I kept hidden from everyone around me) so I decided to go cold turkey. The days that followed were the worst, most agonizing days of my life. At one point, the pain was so bad and my blood pressure got so high that I started bleeding from the ear. This scared me so much that I started taking the pills again, just to keep the horrible DT's at bay.
So I ended up taking the pills for another six months, this time a steady regimen of 60-70 MG a day, all in one dose in the morning.
About a month ago I decided enough was enough. I started to taper down my dose by 2.5MG every day. It was easy at first, but once I got down to lower doses, I began experiencing mild withdrawal symptoms. It seemed like an eternal month. 60MG, 57.5MG, 55MG etc, etc,.
I am glad to say that two days ago was my last dose. I feel O.K., my main complaint has to be the sweating/runs.
Having experienced both the agony of cold turkey DT, and the slow taper method, I can say honestly that there is no comparison. There is nothing worse than fighting off the grip of the horrible drugs...but it can be done.
I've been reading these threads for a while and found them very helpful and encouraging.
I have been hooked on Oxy's for about a year and a half. I started taking Lortabs, but after a few months it progressed into Oxy. Sometimes, I was taking as much as 100MG a day, usually 10's and 20, chewed up. Other times, it was just a handful of 5MG immediate release tabs, (10 at a time). After a year of this I was completly disgusted with myself and my addiction, (which I kept hidden from everyone around me) so I decided to go cold turkey. The days that followed were the worst, most agonizing days of my life. At one point, the pain was so bad and my blood pressure got so high that I started bleeding from the ear. This scared me so much that I started taking the pills again, just to keep the horrible DT's at bay.
So I ended up taking the pills for another six months, this time a steady regimen of 60-70 MG a day, all in one dose in the morning.
About a month ago I decided enough was enough. I started to taper down my dose by 2.5MG every day. It was easy at first, but once I got down to lower doses, I began experiencing mild withdrawal symptoms. It seemed like an eternal month. 60MG, 57.5MG, 55MG etc, etc,.
I am glad to say that two days ago was my last dose. I feel O.K., my main complaint has to be the sweating/runs.
Having experienced both the agony of cold turkey DT, and the slow taper method, I can say honestly that there is no comparison. There is nothing worse than fighting off the grip of the horrible drugs...but it can be done.
hello everyone- i am still very shocked at how i got here? how did i end up googling opiate addiction chat rooms/forums?? this can't be happening. well, it is...and i realized, when i hit rock bottom that i had to stop. i have been blowing tons of cash, probably $1000/month on pills. i started getting the pills, hydrocodone from my doctor for migraine headaches, and, they really worked. it started with a "rebound" headache...so i took them the next day too...i loved the high/euphoria feeling i got from taking these pills, so i would con my way into getting more. when my doctor told me that he wouldn't re-fill me, he wanted me to start taking immitrex for my headaches instead, i was SO scared....that is when i found a friend that had access to a prescription, 75 a week to be exact. i would call him like a freak every single week, sometimes more for a refill. i paid $6 pill, and when desperate, even $20/pill for the 10mg vicodins. one time, he was out, so i ended up buying 10mg oxys. i didn't realize these were stronger...until they were done and i tried to take a vic again, NO high...so, i took two....nearly trippling my original dose. i am so mad at myself for getting to this point...so, it's been about 8 months, and i have probably paid $3000 or more on these pills....i first would take a 5mg pill a day, or so, for a legit headache...it turned into 10mg (sometimes two at a time) of oxys, 3-4 times a day....that's 80mg a day of oxys.....
i tried to quit once, and had terrible withdrawals, i truly had no idea, after only 5 months or so, this would happen....i couldn't sleep, eat, was puking all day, and had terrible diarrhea. i missed work, and couldn't take care of my husband and 2 children.
i realized then, i had a problem, but still, couldn't stop, decided i would taper it off...which...i didn't end up doing, just kept using...that lasted until last saturday, when i took my last oxycodone pills in the morning. i drove home with my children, half high, and was drinking i was crying as i flushed everything down the toilet. how could i be so ******* irresponsible to put my family in danger?!?! its because of the drug, and being addicted to the high.
i am done....i am on day four now, no more oxys or vics for me EVER. i will never use them again for an extended period of time, or probably never at all, especially not for illegal use.
i must have an angel watching over me, because my withdrawals this time around have been so minor....i felt GREAT on sunday, and monday. yesterday was my worst day so far....i was sick all day, just felt so gross, and sick, not like myself. i rested, and worked most of the day, which was a good distraction.
i drank smoothies, took tons of vitamins....and drank a **** load of water.
i thankfully haven't had any trouble with sleeping....like i said, i must have an angel looking out for me.
after my 8 month struggle with drugs, i am so proud to say that i can live my life again!!!! i dont need a pill to be some happy fun person! i have a wonderful family and they are my new high :)
thank you for listening, and the moral of the story is, you CAN do this. it will save you money, it will save your health, and if you have a family, you are putting their lives in danger. as well as your own which is VERY selfish!!!! you can stop, you can all do it, if i can, you can!
hot showers are amazing therapy!!!!! you are seriously, symptom free while in a hot shower :) take your time in there!!!
hang in there, and you will get through! the ONLY Way out is through!!!
best of luck!!!
i tried to quit once, and had terrible withdrawals, i truly had no idea, after only 5 months or so, this would happen....i couldn't sleep, eat, was puking all day, and had terrible diarrhea. i missed work, and couldn't take care of my husband and 2 children.
i realized then, i had a problem, but still, couldn't stop, decided i would taper it off...which...i didn't end up doing, just kept using...that lasted until last saturday, when i took my last oxycodone pills in the morning. i drove home with my children, half high, and was drinking i was crying as i flushed everything down the toilet. how could i be so ******* irresponsible to put my family in danger?!?! its because of the drug, and being addicted to the high.
i am done....i am on day four now, no more oxys or vics for me EVER. i will never use them again for an extended period of time, or probably never at all, especially not for illegal use.
i must have an angel watching over me, because my withdrawals this time around have been so minor....i felt GREAT on sunday, and monday. yesterday was my worst day so far....i was sick all day, just felt so gross, and sick, not like myself. i rested, and worked most of the day, which was a good distraction.
i drank smoothies, took tons of vitamins....and drank a **** load of water.
i thankfully haven't had any trouble with sleeping....like i said, i must have an angel looking out for me.
after my 8 month struggle with drugs, i am so proud to say that i can live my life again!!!! i dont need a pill to be some happy fun person! i have a wonderful family and they are my new high :)
thank you for listening, and the moral of the story is, you CAN do this. it will save you money, it will save your health, and if you have a family, you are putting their lives in danger. as well as your own which is VERY selfish!!!! you can stop, you can all do it, if i can, you can!
hot showers are amazing therapy!!!!! you are seriously, symptom free while in a hot shower :) take your time in there!!!
hang in there, and you will get through! the ONLY Way out is through!!!
best of luck!!!
so i got addicted to oxy at 17 justbecause it helped deal with so much **** in the world it was a set me free drug but then i realized after 2 yrs blowing hundreds of dollars a week on the **** wasnt good so i came up with a plan of attack it sucks not bein able to spur of the moment things because you dont have your drug or you have to meet someone instead, but anyway i couldnt do cold turkey so idid the last 80 on a fri then took morphine 90mg sat and sun then mon took half a suboxene same for tues and wednes then thurs threw sat only a quarter this is all off 8mg suboxene then sunday threw today havnt took anything at all but i feel incredable havnt had withdrawls just depression but my girlfreind helps with that my best friend but im free just got to man up and do i feel so good not worrying bout the next fix idn just needed toshare
i am new to this board so hee goes i have been crushing oxys for about 6 months for severe back pain, but want to quit i'm sick of mild w/ds, so i want to revert to the same does with controlled release the way i am supposed to take it,, is this safe??? or will i experience adverse reactions??, i am so scared of the switch, i want to switch so my does are more reliable and then i can wean off properly with help from my doc,, any advice would be appreciated i want to start tommorrow
I'm hanging in there. :) You are really lucky to have access to a whirlpool! Man, I think I would live in that thing for the net week If I could. I think distraction is also a very important aspect of getting clean. I've found that it helps a lot to occupy yourself with other things. I've been writing a lot and working on some projects that I have going, and that seems to keep me focused. If you can, find something you really like to do, (besides drugs, LOL) and obsess yourself with it.
While I was on the Oxy, I often felt the same way you do. I looked at people and tried to remember what it felt like to feel normal. I came to the conclusion that I was living in a self-imposed prison, and that everybody else was free. The withdrawal symptoms I have come to accept as my penance for addiction, and I am trying to look at it as a process of purification. I feel like I'm emerging from a shadow land...crawling back toward the world of light.
It helps me to think of it this way.....DT from these pills is likely one of the toughest thing i'll ever go through, so in a sense, for the rest of my life, no matter what comes my way, I'll be able to look back and say;
"I beat Oxy", so I can beat anything else.
Just try to imagine how much STRONGER you will be as a person and a mother when you come out of this shadow. You're going to be practically invincible for the rest of your life!
While I was on the Oxy, I often felt the same way you do. I looked at people and tried to remember what it felt like to feel normal. I came to the conclusion that I was living in a self-imposed prison, and that everybody else was free. The withdrawal symptoms I have come to accept as my penance for addiction, and I am trying to look at it as a process of purification. I feel like I'm emerging from a shadow land...crawling back toward the world of light.
It helps me to think of it this way.....DT from these pills is likely one of the toughest thing i'll ever go through, so in a sense, for the rest of my life, no matter what comes my way, I'll be able to look back and say;
"I beat Oxy", so I can beat anything else.
Just try to imagine how much STRONGER you will be as a person and a mother when you come out of this shadow. You're going to be practically invincible for the rest of your life!
I am taking prozac and have been on and off for about 8 years. Now I realize that continuing the prozac is vital for me to be clean. I suffer from severe anxiety and depression.
My parents have a big whirlpool bathtub so I guess I will be using that a lot! I have suffered so much hardship and so have my family and friends as a result of my drug use and I DESPERATELY want to be free from the oxy/hydro prison I live in.
I look at all the "normal" people in the world and I wonder how they get out of bed every morning and live their lives without pills. I want to be one of those people. I am definitely very scared of the physical w/d's but what concerns me most is learning to live life again without pills. How are you doing on your end?
My parents have a big whirlpool bathtub so I guess I will be using that a lot! I have suffered so much hardship and so have my family and friends as a result of my drug use and I DESPERATELY want to be free from the oxy/hydro prison I live in.
I look at all the "normal" people in the world and I wonder how they get out of bed every morning and live their lives without pills. I want to be one of those people. I am definitely very scared of the physical w/d's but what concerns me most is learning to live life again without pills. How are you doing on your end?
It's good that you have somewhere to stay during your trials. Having people around who will support you emotionally in invaluable. The hot showers/baths really help to relieve the muscle pain and anxiety. In my opinion, hot showers are the only real relief for the symptoms. When your going through the DT, that time alone in a hot shower is sometimes the only 20 minutes when you will feel like a normal person.
I was prescribed Paxil by my doctor for anxiety. I am not a depressed person, but I've been taking them anyway...if only to balance out the chemicals in my brain until I've licked my habit. Stress and anxiety are a normal part of life. Some people just deal with it better than others...I guess that's why I started taking Oxy in the first place. It gave me the motivation to get up and go to work every morning. I know that's a bad reason for taking them, but hindsight is 20/20.
Honestly, these pills are the Devil. The grip they get on you is so hard. I've quit a lot of things in my time, (smoking cigarettes, eating meat) but nothing has ever held me like these pills.
Just a thought.
Were you tapering too quickly? How much are you taking? As I said above, going down 2.5 MG a day worked for me, but everyone is different. More than anything, you just have to really be true to yourself. I don't think anyone has a chance in hell of quitting unless they are utterly fed up with the pills and have decided 100% that it needs to be done.
As i'm writing this I'm having pretty bad anxiety. Sweating, mostly. I've taken two hot showers already and I'm going to take another. Believe me when I say this...I would rather sit here and sweat and shake myself to death than ever be a slave to pills again.
I was prescribed Paxil by my doctor for anxiety. I am not a depressed person, but I've been taking them anyway...if only to balance out the chemicals in my brain until I've licked my habit. Stress and anxiety are a normal part of life. Some people just deal with it better than others...I guess that's why I started taking Oxy in the first place. It gave me the motivation to get up and go to work every morning. I know that's a bad reason for taking them, but hindsight is 20/20.
Honestly, these pills are the Devil. The grip they get on you is so hard. I've quit a lot of things in my time, (smoking cigarettes, eating meat) but nothing has ever held me like these pills.
Just a thought.
Were you tapering too quickly? How much are you taking? As I said above, going down 2.5 MG a day worked for me, but everyone is different. More than anything, you just have to really be true to yourself. I don't think anyone has a chance in hell of quitting unless they are utterly fed up with the pills and have decided 100% that it needs to be done.
As i'm writing this I'm having pretty bad anxiety. Sweating, mostly. I've taken two hot showers already and I'm going to take another. Believe me when I say this...I would rather sit here and sweat and shake myself to death than ever be a slave to pills again.
i just want to comment to the people that go c/t and take xanax and other benzos to kill the anxiety. i have done that before, and when the xanax is gone, it seems like the w/drawls are worst!! i swear, i wanted to kill myself coming off of methadone c/t. but after the xanax were gone, man i wish i could of cut my head off. it was that bad. i dont know how they affect anyone else but if you are addicted to anything, it doesnt take long to develop a habit. after about 2 months going c/t, i got back on the methadone. i couldnt handle it. but then again i never knew about this website either. i love this place and i wish i had it back when i was trying to get off. thanks, tammy
I've been using the xanex just for sleep aid at night. It does help a little with the anxiety, but it makes me very sluggish. Last night was the last time I was planning on using it. I've gotten through the worst of the wts and am ready to have me back again. w/o chemicals! except cigs I need those.
I am going c/t. Tapering simply does not work for me at all because I don't have the willpower to taper I want to get high. My son and I are going to stay with my parents for a week or two and they know all that is going on that way I won't go get more and I will have support. I have heard hot showers/baths help a lot....why is that?
I have a full stock of supplies to get me through and keep me as comfortable as possible. I have immodium, vitamins (plus energy packs), xanax, sleeping pills, flexeril, nyquil, etc. I am as ready as I am ever going to be.
Thanks for the help!!
Also, how do you feel mentally/emotionally? Do you experience a lot of anxiety or depression or lack of motivation? If so, how do you deal with it?
I have a full stock of supplies to get me through and keep me as comfortable as possible. I have immodium, vitamins (plus energy packs), xanax, sleeping pills, flexeril, nyquil, etc. I am as ready as I am ever going to be.
Thanks for the help!!
Also, how do you feel mentally/emotionally? Do you experience a lot of anxiety or depression or lack of motivation? If so, how do you deal with it?
Are you tapering down or going cold turkey? If you can, I really recommend tapering, because it will improve your chances for success by about 90%.
I've found it really helpful to take LOTS of hot showers, along with Immodium, Advil, and lots of Gatoraid to keep hydrated. I'm using some Zanex to help me sleep at night, and it's really helping. I think most of the DT symptoms actually come from being dehydrated from going to the bathroom and sweating so much, so you really have to force yourself to keep drinking. You can also take 4-200MG Advils to help with muscle pain. Above all, if you are REALLY committed to licking this thing, take all the pills you have left and FLUSH EM'. I know it takes a lot of courage to do this...I forced myself to do it two days ago. But once they're gone, you'll know that they are out of reach and you can at least fight the fight without thinking about running back to your supply. Good Luck, and hang in there. I know you can do it if you want to. I did! Or rather, I Am, and I not the strongest person in the world, so I know it can be done!
I've found it really helpful to take LOTS of hot showers, along with Immodium, Advil, and lots of Gatoraid to keep hydrated. I'm using some Zanex to help me sleep at night, and it's really helping. I think most of the DT symptoms actually come from being dehydrated from going to the bathroom and sweating so much, so you really have to force yourself to keep drinking. You can also take 4-200MG Advils to help with muscle pain. Above all, if you are REALLY committed to licking this thing, take all the pills you have left and FLUSH EM'. I know it takes a lot of courage to do this...I forced myself to do it two days ago. But once they're gone, you'll know that they are out of reach and you can at least fight the fight without thinking about running back to your supply. Good Luck, and hang in there. I know you can do it if you want to. I did! Or rather, I Am, and I not the strongest person in the world, so I know it can be done!
Congrats to you!! I really need to hear stories like this because today is my last day on oxy/hydro. I just took my last oxys about 10 min ago and now I am going to go c/t. I have never been more scared of anything in my life...I would rather go through childbirth 10 times in one day then deal with w/d's. But when I hear people say that they did it and they are okay, it gives me the hope and strength that I need. If I didn't have this site and the people on it (like you) that post I would probably end up dead or in jail.
So thank you SO MUCH for sharing!!!
So thank you SO MUCH for sharing!!!
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