Oh no! Not again. Starting allllll over.

[throwindatowl]

  I have fallin. I feel all the things that come with relapse. I dont feel good. I met some great people on here. Thankyou for your help. Its day 2 Of nothing im ok. I weened down this weekend 5mg on sat 5mgs sun. Oh, I really wish I could just make the right choice. Its that simple. Make the right choice. Everyday. Im week. I go to na BUT going isnt enough. I will go more and get involved. Ive had 6 weeks clean and it was so great. I made the wrong choice, Here I am again. Needing a shoulder to cry on, and support. I know Ill get that here. Things will get better I just know it.

[Jaybay]

Hey!  I'm a fisherwoman too ya know!  Wolf, I dare ya to tell everyone what happened on our last trip?  :-D

[Wolfmedicine]

Hey,

After 6 weeks and the short time/amount that you were doing I believe you that you're feeling OK.  Second and third days are worse.  It's all downhill now.  Hang in and don't get stupid.

Had a great ride today.  Sunny, 60's.  The bike likes the cool weather and is runnin like the cats A$$.  As far as attitude adjustment goes, "I'm your Huckleberry. Say When".  You won't have to bait my hook for me.  I am an offshore fishin fool......

[freebird227]

Read my post On Addiction you may find something there you can use

[throwindatowl]

No, you dont have  to come down for the additude adjustment! haha. The fishing vaca, for sure.I wish I knew what happened man. Wait, I know what happened. I got drunk, ordered up some oxys two, just two for the night. Two weeks later I knew what had to be done. I did about 100mg for about 13 or 14 days. Today is day two and I feel really good. BS you say. Sat I had only like 5mgs and had mild wds. sunday the same. Monday was tough but much better than going from 100mg a day to nothing. It was nice hear from you hope your bike ride went good. I hope and know your feeling good. On second thought, If I cant get my act together Ill buy you a ticket down and pay for the fishing trip, the serious attitude adjustment is on you ok?

[Wolfmedicine]

Dude,

Are you gonna make me come down to Venice and give you a serious attitude adjustment?  I can do it and have fishing vacation at the same time.  Like you, if I say matter of fact I will do something, I will do it.

OK, after 6 weeks off what did you do?  What, how much, how long?  Thankeew.

[dominosarah]

Each morning make a promise to yourself that today i will stay clean.......We are all a work in progress and that is a good thing!!!         sara

[throwindatowl]

Remember. I wont make a promise I cant keep. Or I really try and not do that. Right now I would love to promise him that. I cant. I wish I could. I cant. I will continue to live for the day when I can. That day is comming. I know it. That day will come when I can promise myself Ill be clean. I do have to say. Im not sure if Ill be able to promise myself that. I do have hope. After rereading that you can see, Im a work in progress. haha.
  to dominosarah. and Jaybay.  Thanks alot!

[Jaybay]

OK, your promise to your friend was a good idea.  How about you promise him you'll be clean for every birthday for the rest of your lives?  

I'll pass on the howdy to Wolf.  He's out on the Harley today - finally got some nice weather again.  :-)

[dominosarah]

Im glad you arent high too.......

[throwindatowl]

I promised Id go to meetings. I gotta work it like  you said. Im glad I kept going even after a slipped, Id be high right now. Glad Im not.

[dominosarah]

Promise yourself that you will stay clean and go to your meetings as it works if you work it~~~sara

[abel04]

you don't have to have a bad life to crave release--drugs--alcohol---live is hard even when it's ok.
sending you the best
annabel

[throwindatowl]

yeah there was something that made me use again. I get some time clean then think  Ican  just do it once and be ok. I made me use again. I dont have big issues in my life. No worse than anybody else. Im keeping my spirits up. A good friend of mine is doing the same thing same day. I promised him  I would have 30 days clean on his BDAY. I m the type of guy that has no problem promiseing others things and holding up my end. When it comes to me. Different story. So, I dont care how I do it. I promised him something I KNOW I can do. Ive done it. I feel good cause I know when I promise someone something it will get done. Thanks, You were one of the people is was talking about. Heaven sent. Tell the  ole wolf man I said HI.

[Jaybay]

So you fell down.  Now you're getting up again and looking for ways to stay on your feet by getting more involved with your NA meeting.  That's a good thing!   You had 6 weeks clean.  Nobody can take that away from you and you now know that it's possible.  As long as you keep learning from your mistakes, it's less likely you'll repeat them.  Was there something specific that caused you to use again?