Once The Withdrawal Is Over?

[Sisyphus]

This one is lengthy.  So if you don

[Mr_EyEs]

Hey IO can be there if you need someone to talk to. It sometimes takes that person to talk to about similar situation yet still not doing the stuff. I have partial now because I wated on my root canels. Sorry about the bad spelling

[King Infernus]

From King Infernus: so i am on my second day of not taking Hydrocodone and it feels like hell a true nightmare i feel like i am running out of air i feel like i am going to die. what the **** can i do? i feel very hopeless and i feel guilty that i barely pay attention to my fiancee. i try petting my cats but it just doesnt work i take showers but it only makes me feel good for a bit. and then... yet again those feelings. Today i tried watching Scarface and it only made it worst lol. just seeing Al Pacino doing coke lol not a good method to forget about addiction. im also now scared because on September i will have surgery performed on me nose surgery and i really dont want to take any more Hydrocodone, Oxycodone or anything with Codone in it. It is also hard to sleep last night i took Nyquil so it could knock me out but unfortanely it didnt happen. i took the Nyquil at 8pm and feel asleep for a bit woke up at 11 and waited till 1am to take another 2 Nyquil gel-tabs and still nothing 4 ******ng Nyquils couldnt let me go to sleep...why is that?. People i need help for the first time in my life i have admitted to myself that i need help.. does anyone have any methods? what can i do to stop feeling this way? i have a job interview tomorrow and i dont want to blow it...

Sincerely
King Infernus
(B.M.L) S.M.D

[skipper]

truehad:
everone has to do in their own time and place. as this forum close down around us i will tkae what eve posting you choose to share with the rest of us....believe it or not you are what this cyber-place has always been about to me....i've been posting here since 7-01 and you are what this little corner of space of cyber has always been about!
kep an angel on your shoulder...and never throw your dreams away!!!
KIP

[jack daniels]

how do you feel today? fuzzy? legs hurt? ackes and pain? Mr. Dieira (can't spell) it will get better...i have day 20 today.."smile"  and i have payed some dues..bet your ass on that..Jack

Ps hang in there it will get better and 2 or 3 more days...you will live...

[truehead]

Today is day one for me.. no wake up pill.. that threw me off a little bit.. but i am not scared.. well a little.. but nothing too major.. i have never wanted something so bad in my life.. nothing.. this will be the best thing i have ever done for myself.. "for a minute there i lost myself".. that is how i feel.. i dont feel like me anymore.. and i want to.. i am doing just as you did.. sisyphus.. no benzos.. little to no tyrosine.. no hot baths.. i want hell.. bring it on.. make me never do this **** again..

Remember when you were young,
You shone like the sun.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Now there's a look in your eyes,
Like black holes in the sky.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
You were caught on the crossfire
Of childhood and stardom,
Blown on the steel breeze.
Come on you target for faraway laughter,
Come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!

You reached for the secret too soon,
You cried for the moon.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Threatened by shadows at night,
And exposed in the light.
Shine on you crazy diamond.
Well you wore out your welcome
With random percision,
Rode on the steel breeze.
Come on you raver, you seer of visions,
Come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!

Shine on everyone..

~true

[Susie B]

I've read you posts from the start- you should be so proud! I think you listed your e-mail once, but I can't find it anymore. I'd like to ask some advice and not use space here - if you don't mind.

[jack daniels]

if anyone needs me please email at ***@****  thanx  Jack

[Philip1815]

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[jack daniels]

ooo yes i will..thanx for caring...you stay clean aswell...i'm offf to a meeting...Jack

[sandstorm]

You better keep in touch.  Keep up the great work!
Sandy

[jack daniels]

Day 16 clean from Oxy for 12 years and life is a trip, i'm relearning how to live without drugs. each day IS a little better, but at night it's just plane rough...Joneing BIG TIME, every night..i know this to will pass...but i'll say this. i feel so good not having that deamon anymore..i get up in the morning and feel great instead in being in w/d ...yes it's been tough but very worth it...i'm very proud of my self and have a clear mind..what's left of it..i got a butt load of support from everyone here and i thank you very much...i will post from time to time to let evryone know how i'm doing..as i have gotten lot's of post telling me that they are keeping up with my progress...see you can become drug free all you have to do is DON'T DO IT   thanx to everyone for there support...Jack

[RobynBanks]

At first I read your name as 'Syphilus' and thought, dude that's sick. Good to hear its a sensible Greek name. YES...right now its all about baby steps. Try not to think, just do. Your very vulnerable emotionally right now- be carefull. Take it easy on yourself - strength will increase daily.
Must be nice to wake up sick.
Robyn.

[Chezz2]

Brandy,

I posted this above to someone else in your position. You REALLY need to be careful about taking too much and running out. You can go into a seizure and DIE from this. This is not a joke. Read up a little on Dr. Ashton's titration methods and stuff. She will also let you know how bad benzo's can be on your life, if you run out, or stop taking them. Numerous people have died by either not knowing this, or not seeking help.

Sorry to hear about your Zanax addiction. From what I hear the withdrawals can not only be deadly, they are EXTREMELY uncomfortable and you end up having more anxiety than you ever had before you started taking the med if that is what you were taking it for.
You need to educate yourself on the Dr. Ashton's benzodiazapine detox method.
Here is a site that will get you started.

http://www.geocities.com/benzobusters/

There is a link on there for Dr. Ashtons method. She is world renown for her research and detox method for benzo's. Specifically Zanax, seeing as how it is the most dangerous, has the fastest half-life, and is overall the hardest to detox from.

I could tell you to switch to a longer acting benzo like Valium and slowly tapering from there. But for your safety and getting educated yourself it is best if you use her method as a guide. She has spent the last 20 years treating patients and perfecting a SAFE method of detox, which is the most important since you can DIE if you don't detox correctly.
I am not tryingto scare I am not trying to scare you. I just want to see you detox SAFELY.
Feel free to post more, we are hear to support you...

Chezz

[Huiler]

Wow, this thread is still open!
Re Xanax..my advice...take it easy easy easy and detox off it a crumb at a time. Hold to your resolution to do it, don't stop, a lo-o-o-o-ong and easy detox!
Good luck!
H.

[brandiwine03]

hey! this is my first post and you guys seem to be going thru what i'm goin' thru. my addiction is to these d--n benzodiazapines. by the grace of God i'm not in to pain meds or anything other than the typical benzos; tamazepam,valium and the dreaded XAnAX. i only say they are bad cause' i'm out and can't refill until tomorrow. i don't wanna be high-----i just want the calm,"normal" feeling i've lacked. basically i say the pills help, not hurt me. that is until i run out. is there anyone who can tell me how to make this withdrawl paaaaiiinnn go away?  i love knowlege and wanna know more about some of the remedies of not having my fix. as for me @ this moment theres no cure for the pain-no key to the chains.   any sugg would be appreciated!

[mystere]

Sisyphus WHERE ARE YOU? I hope you are well and chemical free!  Please check in if you possibly can--A lot of people on this forum care what happens to you including me!--I so enjoyed reading your posts--You are the writer that I had always wanted to be!  Peace and Prayers mystere AKA New Orleans Lady

[kilo]

First and foremost...Give yourself a huge pat on the back and maybe a good glass of Cabernet for being clean 4 days. You have already beat the majority of physical w/d's and everyday forward will get better. Just please arm yourself for the next couple of months...the cravings and urges will come, but believe me they can be defeated. Go to www.habitsmart.com  there is some fine reading concerning urges and how to deal with them.

As for myself I'm 37 days clean, and honestly I feel great. Still a few hours a day I could use more energy, but I feel myself getting stronger each morning. In fact I don't keep count anymore as to how many days I've beaten this monster. I had to refer to my trusty calender to answer your question. My urges now are a few 5-10 minutes intense periods per day. It use to be a few 5-10 minutes intense periods, every 5-10 minutes. So don't worry about the next month or two, it will go by fast and all of a sudden you stop and figure out that you've been clean for a few months, instead of a few days.

Yeah the Beau Rivage is great. If you ever get a chance check out Taka Maku. It's a decadent Japanese steakhouse, where they cook you a ton of food right at your table. I'm getting starved just thinking about it.
Well "Nawlins Lady you hang tough and be good to yourself, because you have already accomplished more than you'll ever know!

Congrats again. Springtime is a great time to get clean.  Peace to you.

Kilo

[kilo]

Hey girl I've seen you post here hundreds of times, just wanna say Hi and hope your struggles are going well. Just a note of interest, if you're in 'Nawlins then we are damn near neighbors. I live down the street on the Mississippi Gulf Coast...Biloxi proper...you know the Redneck Casino Capital.
Actually this place is quite nice, fine folks, fine food and all the damn crawfish one desires.
Well take care and once again hope this finds you doing well.
Peace

Kilo

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

We are neighbors! My husband and I are frequent guests at Beau Rivage--Thank you so much for responding--I am on my 4th day with no hydrocodone--and believe it or not the withdrawals this time were not bad--I started on Wellbutrin (an anti-depressant) approx 10 days ago and I think it has made a tremendous difference in how I feel this time--How have you been?  I'm so tired of this merry go round--Getting pills only to run out and go through withdrawals--it seems like a never ending cycle--Oh well I will continue to keep up the fight!  
P.S.--I love the Mississippi Gulf Coast!  The people are wonderful!  Take care talk to you soon!  N.O. Lady

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

I hope you are well--Please check in and let us know how you are doing.  Your posts are so eloquent and erudite--They helped me immensely. I too am at the OK WHAT NOW? stage in this baffling and frustrating process of living without the help of chemical inducements. Peace and Prayers to Everyone on this forum and anyone trying to "fight the good fight." N.O. Lady

[bluecatchew]

Hi to all :) I have been a " lurker" for about a year now and I just wanted to say thanks so much for things unsaid. I went through ct wd oxy120mg, valium, and Hydo 10 mg 6 a day and the only way I got through it was by reading these post. I hate to report that I am back on some pain meds. Oxy 80mg a day and 30 10mg of hydo a month. I have a ruptured back L5-S1 emergency surgery 1996, caudal equinal syndrome, ankylosing spondylitis, narrowing of forem L3,4,5, and Lupus. I am 41 years old I have 5 children 3 still at home 2 grandkids, one on the way, and last but not least 3 cats :) I did not now how to get started hence my post on this topic. I like many of you would like to get off of these meds totally as I feel like they are all consuming, I have run out the last 2 months in a row hence I have imposed a self inflicted week and a half withdrawal of ungodly description. I wrote dowm the detox cocktail so if it happens again I will at least have some comfort measures on hand. Well I have taken up enough space I look forward to getting to know you guys better. To a pain free night. J

[ceriedwen5]

today i know i have you all to talk to,thank you very much,xoxo berta

[Esmith28]

My best friends name is Berta!! I am right htere with ya Berta...I have been using pills for a few years but got really bad this year. I have my last refill aof vic 7.5 at the pharmacy, it wont go through til midnight...I used to take hydro 10 but doc was silly and gave me that so it takes much more to make me feel good so I go through them in like 3-4 days...I know a horrible case of WD's are waiting at the end of this cycle and I know I have to wean myself but the addiction kicks my good sense right int he butt, and it all starts over again. I have not had a pill in 36 hours and the wd's are starting..freezing, twitching, yawning, general uncomfortability...hang int here we are all here in it together...

[ceriedwen5]

hello i berta,i've read all the post on this page,i wish i could talk with some of you on the phone.i am going through withdrawls right now,third day today,im feeling terrible too.i am sad,and useless,and i think my relation is over,maybe because of the vicodin use,im thinking,but when i start to withdrawl he calls me lazy,so i just end up getting more pills,not this time.il do it,and listening to the man on top of the page whose name begins with sy,i cant remember,but id like to alk more to you if posible,you hae allot of courage you all do,,,and i just want to say im glad i found you all.sincerly berta