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Oxy Withdrawal, How I did it
Hello everyone, I am finally posting to this forum. I have been eating Oxy's for over two years, at my worst: 6 / 20's a day. I have been reading your posts for a couple of months now, I have had enough and decided to quit so here is how it went for me.
You guys all seem to agree that a gradual "taper" is the way to go so this is what I tried, with no help... My wife didn't even ever know that I had a problem, or should I say, HAVE a problem. Yes, as boring as this sounds, admitting your problem is the beginning.
Anyway, from 6 pills to 4 was easy over maybe 3-6 days then to 3 pills for a couple of weeks, I need to say that, and this is very important, your body is a "creature of habit" and prone to conditioning. I never liked the way I would sleep if I had taken the drug to close to bed time so I never took any after about 5:00 PM and this was never a problem, never felt cravings at night as my body was "tuned" to this.
Now in my withdrawal, this still holds true, if I make it to 5:00, my symptoms just slacken to almost nothing until the morning (because this is how my body has been conditioned). So I find that tapering is easy if you just take your dosage and spread it evenly throughout the day so there is always some in your system. And don't take them at a time when you didn't as your body will be O.K. at this time and it's a nice place to be, no drugs and no symptoms, or at least very reduced symptoms, it's a time to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
So back to my withdrawals, from 3 it got a little harder (1 at wake, 1 at noon, 1 at 4:00 PM). I think because less than 3 you stop feeling the "nice" or highness.
I went from 3 to 2 1/2 , I just went from 1 at wake to 1/2. This is where it started to get hard. I did this for about a week then it was time to go to 2 so I started to take just halves, in 2 you have 4 halves so I now went to 1/2 @ wake, 1/2 @ 10:00AM 1/2 @ 12:00PM 1/2 @ 2:00 PM and 1/2 @ 4:00 PM, about every 2 hours. I did this for about 4 days. At this point I was feeling like I wanted more, not real bad, doable, no real symptoms yet besides the depression, this was starting to get to me but I knew where it was coming from so I fought it knowing that it would end.
I now had to start changing what my body wanted so I decided to stop the morning dose, I wanted to extend the time from my last to my first and start getting used to not having any, remember, I don't take after 4-5PM so when I took my first of the day now at 10:00AM it has been about 18 hours since my last and now I am feeling the pain of withdrawals, all of them. (I am not a writer and am doing the best I can, I hope this is making sense) This is where you will be tested, you just want the high all the time now and keep saying to yourself, ****, I'll just get high once more, it wont hurt and then I'll go back to my plan.... ********, DON'T GIVE IN. Somebody once said to me, "If your going to do something, do it, give it your all... If your not going to give it your all then don't even try, it's a wast of time and energy. ARE YOU GOING TO QUIT OR KEEP DOING THESE ******* PILLS??? Now is the time to decide what it's going to be, go one way or the other, don't kid yourself, there is only 2 choices, not three... remember this, Not three.
I went from the two pills, all halved, to now I am just taking 1/4 pill at noon and 1/4 pill at 4:00.. The pain is bad from 10:00 AM until 4:00 PM but at it's worst from about 2:00 PM till 4:00PM. By 5:00PM I am feeling OK and by 7:00PM I am like normal (as well as I can remember what normal feels like) So this has been my experience, I have posted this because I spend some time looking for a post like this so I would know what I was up against. I found that the more posts like this one that I read, the more I felt that I could handle this without going to a drug rehabilitation center. I am now at this stage, my wife still doesn't really know or understand what has been happening (I say this so you realize how easy it is to hide this problem, we are close and she doesn't even know??? go figure???)
Now I don't know how to proceed, 1/4 at noon and 1/4 at 4 and I am in pain, really want more... Should I now just quit or taper more?? I'm thinking quit, so tomorrow I will not take any, it has been over 2 years and tomorrow I will take no more... Wish me luck, I will let you know how it goes for me.
I hope this helps even one person, please stop as this is the highway to HELL.
Tom...
You guys all seem to agree that a gradual "taper" is the way to go so this is what I tried, with no help... My wife didn't even ever know that I had a problem, or should I say, HAVE a problem. Yes, as boring as this sounds, admitting your problem is the beginning.
Anyway, from 6 pills to 4 was easy over maybe 3-6 days then to 3 pills for a couple of weeks, I need to say that, and this is very important, your body is a "creature of habit" and prone to conditioning. I never liked the way I would sleep if I had taken the drug to close to bed time so I never took any after about 5:00 PM and this was never a problem, never felt cravings at night as my body was "tuned" to this.
Now in my withdrawal, this still holds true, if I make it to 5:00, my symptoms just slacken to almost nothing until the morning (because this is how my body has been conditioned). So I find that tapering is easy if you just take your dosage and spread it evenly throughout the day so there is always some in your system. And don't take them at a time when you didn't as your body will be O.K. at this time and it's a nice place to be, no drugs and no symptoms, or at least very reduced symptoms, it's a time to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
So back to my withdrawals, from 3 it got a little harder (1 at wake, 1 at noon, 1 at 4:00 PM). I think because less than 3 you stop feeling the "nice" or highness.
I went from 3 to 2 1/2 , I just went from 1 at wake to 1/2. This is where it started to get hard. I did this for about a week then it was time to go to 2 so I started to take just halves, in 2 you have 4 halves so I now went to 1/2 @ wake, 1/2 @ 10:00AM 1/2 @ 12:00PM 1/2 @ 2:00 PM and 1/2 @ 4:00 PM, about every 2 hours. I did this for about 4 days. At this point I was feeling like I wanted more, not real bad, doable, no real symptoms yet besides the depression, this was starting to get to me but I knew where it was coming from so I fought it knowing that it would end.
I now had to start changing what my body wanted so I decided to stop the morning dose, I wanted to extend the time from my last to my first and start getting used to not having any, remember, I don't take after 4-5PM so when I took my first of the day now at 10:00AM it has been about 18 hours since my last and now I am feeling the pain of withdrawals, all of them. (I am not a writer and am doing the best I can, I hope this is making sense) This is where you will be tested, you just want the high all the time now and keep saying to yourself, ****, I'll just get high once more, it wont hurt and then I'll go back to my plan.... ********, DON'T GIVE IN. Somebody once said to me, "If your going to do something, do it, give it your all... If your not going to give it your all then don't even try, it's a wast of time and energy. ARE YOU GOING TO QUIT OR KEEP DOING THESE ******* PILLS??? Now is the time to decide what it's going to be, go one way or the other, don't kid yourself, there is only 2 choices, not three... remember this, Not three.
I went from the two pills, all halved, to now I am just taking 1/4 pill at noon and 1/4 pill at 4:00.. The pain is bad from 10:00 AM until 4:00 PM but at it's worst from about 2:00 PM till 4:00PM. By 5:00PM I am feeling OK and by 7:00PM I am like normal (as well as I can remember what normal feels like) So this has been my experience, I have posted this because I spend some time looking for a post like this so I would know what I was up against. I found that the more posts like this one that I read, the more I felt that I could handle this without going to a drug rehabilitation center. I am now at this stage, my wife still doesn't really know or understand what has been happening (I say this so you realize how easy it is to hide this problem, we are close and she doesn't even know??? go figure???)
Now I don't know how to proceed, 1/4 at noon and 1/4 at 4 and I am in pain, really want more... Should I now just quit or taper more?? I'm thinking quit, so tomorrow I will not take any, it has been over 2 years and tomorrow I will take no more... Wish me luck, I will let you know how it goes for me.
I hope this helps even one person, please stop as this is the highway to HELL.
Tom...
I absolutely hear you 100%. I see these people who start with Rx pills and turn to heroin because its a cheaper and better high.... I not once have tried it. Honest. I lost my father and uncle to black tar and now currently another family member who is dealing with the addiction and it is BAD. I've lost contacts with these other people and I know I WANT to stop. I just don't know how. I've read so much about how you "should stop this way" but everyone is different and Im not sure what to go on. Yes, I need a guide.
When you deliver a bomb shell, there is some damage done but nothing that cant be fixed better than new. Your wife is just blind to this and a little scared so do take her out and assure her you are going to be ok. No more bomb shells for awhile. You will have to educate her now on this and maybe a counselor or third party that can best explain the effects of using prescribed pain medication and that it can be difficult to get off. Your wife sounds like a gentle lady. You know how best to ensure her and in turn she will be able to meet your needs.
Here are some observations,
Coffee is a bad idea...
Don't take over the counter sleeping aids as they don't help you sleep and you feel worse in the morning because of the drug.
If you have someone to talk to, it would help, more than likely you wont so doing what I am with this forum is good, I am able to say what is on my mind and don't care what the recipient's care or think since I will never meet any of you. I can say what I want!!!
I can't wait until this is over...
This is to Aura, you need to help yourself... You will find motivation here but it is up to you to help yourself, nobody else can help you, only guide you.
Coffee is a bad idea...
Don't take over the counter sleeping aids as they don't help you sleep and you feel worse in the morning because of the drug.
If you have someone to talk to, it would help, more than likely you wont so doing what I am with this forum is good, I am able to say what is on my mind and don't care what the recipient's care or think since I will never meet any of you. I can say what I want!!!
I can't wait until this is over...
This is to Aura, you need to help yourself... You will find motivation here but it is up to you to help yourself, nobody else can help you, only guide you.
I agree with you about the kids, there is a time and place for everything...
I did tell them and understood at that time that they didn't even understand, yes it is to mature for them at this time. My wife doesn't even understand, everybody just went through their normal rituals this morning with some uneasiness toward me, I just had the worst night of my life, this being day 2 for me and I realized that even though I told everyone at home, I am still going this alone.
Laura didn't look at me much and when she was leaving she just came to me, gave me a little kiss and said "good luck" and walked out the door. At first I was hurt, then I thought about it and realized that not only did she have nothing to do with this or would she ever find herself in this mess, but on top of all that, she doesn't even understand what is going on, has no clue what I am facing or feeling... You would think that it would be nice to have support but what really should I expect... what do I think, is she going to stay home and hug me all day and tell me it's going to be all right? What is support? What can she do? NOTHING, and what she did do was all I should have expected, at least she didn't say "you idiot, how come your always in trouble and I never am, how come you keep needing me to support you and I don't ever get in trouble.....
I am not going to take this out on her, I am going to fake it, pretend that everything is fine as I did this morning. I will not show my pain or be agitated with her, there is not much Laura can do for me or anybody for that matter, I got myself into this, it is my fault, I am the fool and I will deal with this myself, I am the only one that can help me and I will do this thing.
These posts, no matter who I address them to are really for me, I need to tell myself the truth and keep telling myself the truth, this is truth. I did the pills because I liked them, not needed them.. I have been around and knew very well what was going to happen, as time went on I knew it was getting worse, I went on anyway and continued to take them, I saw my friends getting into trouble with these and I continued, I hid this from my family and continued, I was dealing these so mine were free and I continued, I read about these and the problems many people were having and even deaths and I continued, I hated myself for doing these pills and I continued.
Now I tell my wife Laura that I have a problem and I expect what? What would I think if she came to me and said that she had been a druggie, it has been three years and she kept it from me???
Now after all this, I am sitting here wanting a pill bad What the ****
I did tell them and understood at that time that they didn't even understand, yes it is to mature for them at this time. My wife doesn't even understand, everybody just went through their normal rituals this morning with some uneasiness toward me, I just had the worst night of my life, this being day 2 for me and I realized that even though I told everyone at home, I am still going this alone.
Laura didn't look at me much and when she was leaving she just came to me, gave me a little kiss and said "good luck" and walked out the door. At first I was hurt, then I thought about it and realized that not only did she have nothing to do with this or would she ever find herself in this mess, but on top of all that, she doesn't even understand what is going on, has no clue what I am facing or feeling... You would think that it would be nice to have support but what really should I expect... what do I think, is she going to stay home and hug me all day and tell me it's going to be all right? What is support? What can she do? NOTHING, and what she did do was all I should have expected, at least she didn't say "you idiot, how come your always in trouble and I never am, how come you keep needing me to support you and I don't ever get in trouble.....
I am not going to take this out on her, I am going to fake it, pretend that everything is fine as I did this morning. I will not show my pain or be agitated with her, there is not much Laura can do for me or anybody for that matter, I got myself into this, it is my fault, I am the fool and I will deal with this myself, I am the only one that can help me and I will do this thing.
These posts, no matter who I address them to are really for me, I need to tell myself the truth and keep telling myself the truth, this is truth. I did the pills because I liked them, not needed them.. I have been around and knew very well what was going to happen, as time went on I knew it was getting worse, I went on anyway and continued to take them, I saw my friends getting into trouble with these and I continued, I hid this from my family and continued, I was dealing these so mine were free and I continued, I read about these and the problems many people were having and even deaths and I continued, I hated myself for doing these pills and I continued.
Now I tell my wife Laura that I have a problem and I expect what? What would I think if she came to me and said that she had been a druggie, it has been three years and she kept it from me???
Now after all this, I am sitting here wanting a pill bad What the ****
First things first, you need to stop hanging with this crowd, you need to completely separate yourself from them as you will have a much harder time getting off the poison if you have relations with this crowd.
You also have a false perception that you are better as a person on drugs, I don't know you but I do know this is not true, no way are you better on drugs and as time goes on, you will notice that what you think now has gone and the drugs will take control, you will no longer feel socially better on drugs. Also you will note that your "low addition" will become something different. The longer you are on the drugs, the worse everything gets Period This is a fact, ask anybody in here. The drugs just keep wanting you to take more for the same feeling and at some time you really can't get that same feeling but you do keep taking more and more.
If you decide to quit NOW it WILL be easier, much easier than down the road. You will need to do this sometime, quit that is, at some point, you will need to quit, you can't do this for the rest of your life, you know this, so why not now? It will be better now than later. Does this make sense?
Set yourself a do-able taper, taper down as low as possible, then stop. It will be hard, but harder the longer you wait. I don't like the idea of replacing one drug with another, I think that you have to set your mind to doing this and get it done...
After you reed this, please give me your reply.
You need to quit sometime!!!
You also have a false perception that you are better as a person on drugs, I don't know you but I do know this is not true, no way are you better on drugs and as time goes on, you will notice that what you think now has gone and the drugs will take control, you will no longer feel socially better on drugs. Also you will note that your "low addition" will become something different. The longer you are on the drugs, the worse everything gets Period This is a fact, ask anybody in here. The drugs just keep wanting you to take more for the same feeling and at some time you really can't get that same feeling but you do keep taking more and more.
If you decide to quit NOW it WILL be easier, much easier than down the road. You will need to do this sometime, quit that is, at some point, you will need to quit, you can't do this for the rest of your life, you know this, so why not now? It will be better now than later. Does this make sense?
Set yourself a do-able taper, taper down as low as possible, then stop. It will be hard, but harder the longer you wait. I don't like the idea of replacing one drug with another, I think that you have to set your mind to doing this and get it done...
After you reed this, please give me your reply.
You need to quit sometime!!!
Dont feel that you have been lying to your kids. We tell our children certain things at their different ages so they will understand it. You dont start teaching your kid to drive at two. It's up to you if you want to tell them now or later or never, i had to to explain why there are problems between their parents. You children will not think any less of you and will rally to your side to help you if you decide to tell them. Dont put added pressure on yourself right now.
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