Oxy to Vicodin

[Chas]

Ive been snorting oxy contins for almost a year now.  Recently Ive been doing about 40mg a day of the oxys.  Ive tried to quit a few times, and the withdrawals are too unbearable to stay with it.  I cant function enough to go to work every day for 9 hours.  SO i have never been successful quitting them.  I absolutely cant miss time at work and my job is extremely important for me right now.  Recently i found someone with some vicodin 750s and i have some of those.  I have been doing 2 or three of those a day for the past few days and not any oxy's at all.  Im hoping that going to a couple vicodins a day will make the withdrawals much more manageable. With the vicodins i dont really get 'high" or anything, but I dont feel the need to get the oxys.  I feel like i can bring myself down to 1 or 2 vicodins a day very soon.  Just wondering if i am wasting my time?  WIll the withdrawals be just as bad when i stop completely??

[spook]

My injuries were emotional and spiritual,some underestimate them when compared to Physical Pain,I was degraded to the point of suicide by cruel selfish people without a soul(I was scorned by my city peer group as being ugly and this was confirmed by my sexual failures),I found myself in a world of atheistic materialists,I looked upon the world and all its problems and realized I could help.
I was taken from all of my kind friends at the age of 13 and shifted to the city from the country(this is where the above occured).My parents Divorced at the same time.The city had no soul,everybody was either stressed or selfishly happy,in essence they had all gone mad.But this was normality in the city,cruelty,selfishness,Egocentrism,materialism,I did not fit in,so I started to change my world,` our world `,at first I was ridiculed,but then people started coming back for spiritual enlightenment,they realized I want nothing more than them to be happy and to deprogram them from years of brainwashing.
My mother does not have normal emotions and gets angry if approached with the emotional problems of her children.
I was always on my own even in a room full of friends.
Eventually God offered me his hand.
I have panick disorder and Hepatitis C,with Psychomotor Depression,all probably drug abuse induced.
I have not had a relationship with a female for over 20 years.
Although,I have been used for sex,for months on end.geesh!
I am 37.
I am very happy.
I am a mystery only to be solved,by understanding yourself.
I can be your worst nightmare or your sweetest dream.

[spook]

You are one of the fortunate few,Oxy works for you,so you take Oxy`s(its so logical )I am glad you found an intelligent Doctor,its rare these days.lets hope annie has better luck in future.although,God works in mysterious ways and may be trying to avoid addiction in this case.I have had severe pain,been denied pain relief and recovered after a couple of weeks and was now thanking the doctor I had cursed,because I LOVE Opioid High and avoiding it is like out of sight out of mind.....
But as for CHRONIC pain goes ,my advice is give them what they want in the dose they want.Otherwise at least give them a bottle of NEMBUTAL so they kill themselves in dignity.

[PS >>>>Annie]

You are sooo right on target.  My pain has made me very strong.  I'm AM VERY THANKFUL in retrospect, although it doesn't seem like I am.........in the present.  My pain will progress...over time due to the degenerative arthritis.  So it is a good, that I wasn't given medication earlier, because of the tolerance build up factor.  I still stand by my point of view though... Some people may not handle pain the way I do.  Ex.  My first Ortho would call everyone in the ofc, into my room and tell me to walk.  He said, "look..she barely limps, Is this a miracle or what?"  He also told me I was his most severly injured patient, and the most strongest, and living life to the best of my ability.  Most of his patients complain, withdraw from life,  and have less injuries than I do.  

Taking all into consideration......I do grow very weary at times.  I am not getting any younger, and do feel the effects more now than ever.  I am only human.  I want to be able to run, and push my 4 year old down the street on his bike, and just be able to sit indian style.....lol......Seems silly, but these are all things we take for granted.  

I had to laugh at my husband.....He came in from doing some yard work... whining about a splinter in his finger...He went on and on, about the pain, and worried that it would get infected.....lol  I just laughed.  He said what's wrong w/ you??? I said, "I know how you feel...I just had 30 splinters (the staples) removed from my leg. lol ha ha..........

It's always nice to hear from you, Spook!
Annie
Ps......What was the nature of your injuries, you spoke about in your post.  You may have mentioned it before, but I seem to recall that you don't talk much about it.  I'd like to hear ....(:

[OxyDaddy]

I too am amazed at how little doctors know about treating what they call Chronic Non Cancer Pain. Believe me, I had to jump through all of the stupid hoops with other doctors, and it was actually my Primary Care Doc who said I was being treated incorrectly by being given episodic pain medication, and he started me on Oxycontin the first time. He sent me to another Ortho doc, and he confirmed that short of a total knee replacement, there was nothing he could do. I was then referred to my current pain Doc. Once on the Oxycontin, I went through all of the same feelings I see posted here...fear of dependance, stigma of using opioids for pain relief, and I stopped using them the first time. My knee was so painful that I decided improving the quality of my life is the most important thing. Screw what other people think. They do not have my pain. It is important for me to be responsible with my prescriptions and not run out too soon. My pain doc has been great. He knows I am educated in these matters, and I told him I wanted to be actively involved in my treatment. That I need him as a consultant for my condition. He was cool with that, and that is why he asked me what I wanted him to prescribe for me. When I was taking too much Percodan or Vicodin, I leveled with him. You just need to hang in there. We all know inside, when we are misusing our prescriptions. Each of us chooses the action we will take. I found is was easier to be honest with him, rather than withdraw for a couple of days before my refill. I had 4 Oxy 20's left when I went to see him Tuesday, and that was more than he expected. I got my refill with no problem. The appointment took like 15 minutes. I see him again in three weeks, and he will refill me again. Its up to me to be prudent with my scripts. Pain meds and doctors, and the way we are treated is one of the most blatant injustices I have ever been subject to. I too have a son (2) and another baby on the way. I am glad I am able to function semi-pain free.

[PS >>>>Annie]

correction above......from here to hear.  Excuse my errors..It's after midnight and I'm typing franticly in the dark.  lol

[PS >>>>Annie]

It always amazes me when I here a story like yours.  I have suffered for years.  Doctors in my local are pulling out of the pain field due to addiction.  I was only given 5/500 mg of pain meds after a very painful surgury.  I am currently working w/ someone via the internet to find someone to treat my pain.  I am still young and want some quality to my life.  I have two very active boys.
I was watching Politicaly Incorrect tonight, and they said doctors who prescribe oxy..were being sent on extravagant vacations by the manufacturers.  I don't believe that...at least not where I live.  They fear the DEA.  What gets me is..the host on this show is pro-legalization of street drugs, but nocks compassionate pain doctors who treat people such as yourself.  Go figure.  A guy just killed himself, because he was being undertreated for cancer...IN my state.  He just didn't have the strength to battle the pain.  What screwd up ideals I tell ya.

Annie