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REMEMBER ME????
Oh....how i miss you all!!!!!!
i havent been online in a long while....our internet has been down for awhile and i've been working full time. for those of you who remember me and gave me help and support heres my update:
I am working full time as an Assitant Manager of a Retail store. I love my job and the people i work with. I also still babysit on Mondays, Fridays and a couple of "over-nights" a month. She just turned 1 yrs old and is such a blessing for me right now. With my girls being gone, its nice to have a baby i can love and "mother" she helps to full a little of the "void" i have these days. the girls are doign ok, but we all miss eachother so much. the holidays are hard and my ex is keeping me from them, i had NO contact on Thanksgiving or my B-day and he refuses to make any plan w/ me for xmas. when we go back to court his actions will be in my favor, but it doesnt make me or them feel any better right now. I am so busy with work and babysitting, I dont have time to obsess about the girls so I am thankfull i have things to keep me occupied.
On a horrible note, I did find learn "without a single doubt" that my mother (who i dont have a good relationship with, due to the custody battles she put us thru as kids) has been paying for and helping my Ex in getting the girls back in Florida. I fing myself questioning often how my own mother could be so cruel??
Now for my addiction...I am doing ABSOLUTELY GREAT!!!! I quit on July 11th and havent relapsed or even thought of a pain pill once... I am down to 1/4 of suboxone a day and plan to be completely done by the 1 st of the new year!!!! i often forget to take the 1/4 and the only symptom i get is alot of yawning. If you remember, I do have medical problems for which i was taking pain pills to begin with. Working is hard on me, as is doing freight and lifting boxes, BUT i am dealing with the pain and not covering it with pills. I take a tylenol maybe once a week if that. I surprise myself when i find how much pain i am able to tolerate now. I broke 2 toes 2 weeks ago (and it HURT soooo bad) but i went to work the next morning and worked 10 hours on my feet.... It just shows how much the pain pills were holding me back in life (and to think a year ago i would have swore that those evil pills actually gave me more energy!!!)
It still amazes me how much my own mind convinced me that those pills were "helping me"
So please let me know how ALL of YOU are doing, I want updates!!!!!!
TO ALL OF YOU STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW....believe me when i say, you life will be sooo much better once you over come this "monkey on your back" it is soooo worth it, just take "Baby Steps"
Luv ya,
tink :)
i havent been online in a long while....our internet has been down for awhile and i've been working full time. for those of you who remember me and gave me help and support heres my update:
I am working full time as an Assitant Manager of a Retail store. I love my job and the people i work with. I also still babysit on Mondays, Fridays and a couple of "over-nights" a month. She just turned 1 yrs old and is such a blessing for me right now. With my girls being gone, its nice to have a baby i can love and "mother" she helps to full a little of the "void" i have these days. the girls are doign ok, but we all miss eachother so much. the holidays are hard and my ex is keeping me from them, i had NO contact on Thanksgiving or my B-day and he refuses to make any plan w/ me for xmas. when we go back to court his actions will be in my favor, but it doesnt make me or them feel any better right now. I am so busy with work and babysitting, I dont have time to obsess about the girls so I am thankfull i have things to keep me occupied.
On a horrible note, I did find learn "without a single doubt" that my mother (who i dont have a good relationship with, due to the custody battles she put us thru as kids) has been paying for and helping my Ex in getting the girls back in Florida. I fing myself questioning often how my own mother could be so cruel??
Now for my addiction...I am doing ABSOLUTELY GREAT!!!! I quit on July 11th and havent relapsed or even thought of a pain pill once... I am down to 1/4 of suboxone a day and plan to be completely done by the 1 st of the new year!!!! i often forget to take the 1/4 and the only symptom i get is alot of yawning. If you remember, I do have medical problems for which i was taking pain pills to begin with. Working is hard on me, as is doing freight and lifting boxes, BUT i am dealing with the pain and not covering it with pills. I take a tylenol maybe once a week if that. I surprise myself when i find how much pain i am able to tolerate now. I broke 2 toes 2 weeks ago (and it HURT soooo bad) but i went to work the next morning and worked 10 hours on my feet.... It just shows how much the pain pills were holding me back in life (and to think a year ago i would have swore that those evil pills actually gave me more energy!!!)
It still amazes me how much my own mind convinced me that those pills were "helping me"
So please let me know how ALL of YOU are doing, I want updates!!!!!!
TO ALL OF YOU STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW....believe me when i say, you life will be sooo much better once you over come this "monkey on your back" it is soooo worth it, just take "Baby Steps"
Luv ya,
tink :)
you made my 90 days mark so special by posting...I miss you so much, and think about you all the time...
you better try to check in a little more..
love u
r2r
you better try to check in a little more..
love u
r2r
Hey sweetie...how are you? WHere on earth have you been? You are missed. I hope all is well...
xo, Lisa
xo, Lisa
thanks.....
i promise to check i more often. glad to see you both doing good. we ahve ALL come such a long way....
luv ya both,
tink :)
i promise to check i more often. glad to see you both doing good. we ahve ALL come such a long way....
luv ya both,
tink :)
my tinkster...hey baby girl. i am sooo glad you posted and i have missed you so much. i knew that you would do this one day...i'm so proud of you.
sorry tink that you are having to still go through all of this with your ex...that really SUCKS. and your mother???? i want even go there. you are strong now and have turned your life around...there is no reason why you cant get the girls back now. hang on sweetie...it'll happen.
i loved your above statement..."and to think a year ago i would have swore that those evil pills actually gave me more energy"...hehehehehehehehehe
miss ya girlie...but i understand how busy you have been. that is a good thing. if you cant stay around...please drop me a line every now and then and let me know you are ok.
huggs,
kim
sorry tink that you are having to still go through all of this with your ex...that really SUCKS. and your mother???? i want even go there. you are strong now and have turned your life around...there is no reason why you cant get the girls back now. hang on sweetie...it'll happen.
i loved your above statement..."and to think a year ago i would have swore that those evil pills actually gave me more energy"...hehehehehehehehehe
miss ya girlie...but i understand how busy you have been. that is a good thing. if you cant stay around...please drop me a line every now and then and let me know you are ok.
huggs,
kim
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