This is how INSANE an addict is...

[vic n' ike]

I just went to the refrigerator and heated up some leftover pasta from last night (delicious, btw) and had to FORCE myself to eat it.  Why "force"?  Because normally I eat NOTHING at all during the day in order to ensure that I get to my 5 o'clock "feeding time" (LOL) WITH AN EMPTY STOMACH, at which time I promptly down 3-4 vics or percocets at a time to try and get high!  

I hold out all day (food and pill-wise) so that my regularly-scheduled early-evening perscription-drug binge can be more effective!  

Unbelievable- I had to WRESTLE with myself to eat, something I normally would never have had to do- i.e: in the past when I was hungry, I JUST ATE!  Simple as that.

How pathetic this life is- and you want to know the funny thing?  I don't even get "high" of the pills anymore!  They barely affect me at all.  What a joke.

[DeezNuts]

vic, i know exactly where ur coming from. it almost sucks when u don't get that buzz. but what sucks more is chasing it.

[beachtowel]

when I finally went in front of the judge in 2005 I weighed like 118 lbs....at 6 foot tall........I was a mess and eating wasn't a big deal obviously......

[bettie1976]

i ate good healthy meals when i was using. and drinking. i know thats why i lost 25 pounds in the last few weeks. just getting all that outta me. im 5'9 and weigh 165. even when i was at 190 (a month ago) i didnt look big, just bloated from all the c r a p.

[tzt2lady]

While on speed i survived ten days on ony beer and no sleep.  Then walked around thinking people couldn't tell.  How embarassing.  I think it was the 80's and I was dressed in camoflauge.  oh my.

[OhioVicoguy]

beer and pills was me! now its food and sweets!!??

[lunachick]

hmm. i could never go without food in order to get a better buzz. I know it works, but I would always end up throwing up. But I did only eat when I needed to take a pill..Probably why I got huge when i foound out I was pregnant and quit..