Ultracet Freedom/My Body hurts!

[Secrets-Lies]

How long will the WD last!!

This is my first time to post anything here.  I have been reading this site for about 3 months.  I am 4 days into Cold Turkey from a 5-8 pill Ultracet in combo with a 2-4 pill Vicodin a day habit for the last 4-5 years.  I am 39 years old married w/ 2 dogs (they are the most pure creatures...they inspire me)

4 days ago I decided to fess up to my husband and tell him that the pills I asked him to hold for me because I was tempted to abuse ....that I was getting refilled behind his back for the last 2 years.  My intent was pure...at first.  I knew I had refills and I could just get more.  He was actually really pissed at first and after he has been very supportive and really believes i can kick this.  Last night (day 3) he was out of town for 1 night and I ripped the house apart looking for a pill I might have stashed in a pocket (I used to keep individual pills in my pocket so I could take them without anyone seeing me take out a pill bottle.. pills can be very noisy in the bottle as well.)

He called to check on me today and I told him what I did last night and that I could not be trusted (horrible feeling saying that to your husband).  I know I did the right thing but it makes me anxious as hell.  I know the more avenues I cut off from getting more pills, the less I hide, the less secrects the better and I better do it quick before I change my mind.  I told my Mom who is full force and convinced that I can't do this without help..ie Narcotics Anonymous.

Here are my questions:

Can I do this alone with the help of my husband and mom (if I can continue to be honest with them)?
Do I need to tell the Doc (of course you addicts know why I am hesitant?)
My Mom's ex-meth head friend told her that 4-8 days coming off of Ultracet can lead to seizures/comma even death..has anyone heard that?  It really scared me due to the fact I am 4 days in.

I have had extreme restless leg, body aches, goose bumps, dizzyness... totally out of body hell.  I feel like I'm actually feeling better today and I got 3-4 hours of sleep last night... Can I expect more and worse in the coming days?

God bless all of you on this site and good luck to you all!!!!

[Elated35]

Anyone who has ever taken antidepressants knows that is one medication you should never quit cold turkey or you will definitely experience dizziness.. you must wean Off gradually or you will be sick and miserable not to mention the emotional rollercoaster you will have to deal with.

[road2recovery]

welcome...I wanted to tell you that i had a freind on paxil...she quit cold turkey..she said when she turned her head it felt as though her brain was moving fast, and she could hear it kind of hit the sides of her head, and everything else was moving but she wasn't...At first i did not understand what she meant...she did not have a computer so i told her i would do some research..Well i cannot tell you how many papers i printed out for her to read...One was from a doctor who was presribing paxil alot..Then his patients would tell him exactly what she was telling me when they quit c/t...he thought they were crazy..well somethig happened in his life and he decided to get on paxil himself...he ended up staying on them for 2 yrs and then quit..he wrote a hugh letter on how he was wrong and what his patients were telling him was exactly the truth..
Do some research on it and see what you find...
good luck
r2r

[avisg]

secrets,
It can't hurt to give it a try .If you like it thats great if not ,you can try something else. I myself have used them for many reasons ,it started years ago used them because i never wanted to eat when i took them .(i had a eating disorder) I have used them to deal with mental pain and for real pain . I have cronic TMJ its cause lots of pain and bad headaches that how i ended up relapsing I had over three months and i had a flare up I made it for about  month with lots of pain without using and then i just caved in and started taking them again.Three weeks after I started using them again I quit again..
I take it one day at a time . If ya go post and let me know what ya thought.
Avis

[Secrets-Lies]

God your so right!! I don't need to decide all this today.  I need to just breathe.  You know the scariest part is figuring out why I abused them the way I did?  My mother has offered to pay for therapy and I did research a NA meeting tomorrow night.

Do you think I should go... I'm very nervous...  I feel ashamed!

Ya know?

[avisg]

secrets,
You are starting to feel and see things now and it is scary . It is going to take you some time to adjust back to life before pills .Take sometime to figure out who you are and what you want and why you started using to begin with this is not something you need to figure out all today .:)
have you thought about any aftercare like NA to help or an addiction councilor
avis

[MANOFTHEHOUR]

Hello..Just read your post and sounds like you are a real trooper..keep it up..If you were just using to feel better than i dont think you had it bad to begin with. the funny thing about narcotics and ultram or any euphoric drug is it enances the mood you are in and actually its a false percpective, what you see and feel today in the real world without the meds is a really awesome feeling..dont be afraid of it embrass it .you have probably been walking around in an ultram fog for so long reality was underneath and not in front of you. keep going and dont look back..I am sure your life is more beautiful without abusing drugs...keep up the good work and i hope i have inspired you some...

[Secrets-Lies]

Thanks you guys for responding ... I got the feeling when I was typing yesterday that no one would actually read it or care for that matter.

Ok I am on day 5 and I slept last night.  I had a terrible nightmare.. but I slept.  Although I woke up this morning and felt stone cold sober. More sober than I have felt in years.  I feel like someone hit me on the head took me to another planet and then woke me up.  I don't recognize anything.  I feel a lot of panic about making up for lost time and that my job will not satisfy me anymore, my husband will not satisfy me anymore.....Did I start the pills because I wasn't satisfied in the first place?

I'm freaking out!!  Will this pass or is this reality...I am just not sure because I have been so high for so long I don't know the difference?

[avisg]

Secrets and lies,
I have never heard of people having seizures coming off them I have heard of people having seizures when taking large amounts of the drug or when mixing  them with other drugs ,antidepressants and alcohol
being a big one .
Ultram has always been my drug of choice so I have detoxed off of them a few times . It is a really unpleasant thing . ( i am sure you know know this ).
You most likely will continue to feel really bad for about 4 more days then things will slowly let up .
Ultram is one of the harder drugs to detox from. Just to warn you one thing you don't have on your list that you might get . I got panic attacks they would wake me up when i would finally sleep . I just wanted to warn you because the first time it happened it scared the @#$% out of me .

[vmyg]

I'm scared to death of Ultracet/Ultram.  After my husband died, I was taking Ultram and Paxil and had a MAJOR seizure.  I had been driving with my inlaws and my son in the car and suddenly got very, very sleepy and asked my M-I-L to drive.  I pulled over, got in the passenger seat and then the seizure hit me right then.  I lost consciousness, eyes rolled in the back of my head, quit breathing and peed all over myself.  I don't remember any of it but I remember how scary it was when I came to.  I later learned it was from mixing the two medicines.  

So then, I decided to quit cold turkey.  Big mistake.  Every time I'd even turn my head, the rest of the world (or whatever I was looking at) just kind of kept going.  It was blurry and made me very dizzy.  It lasted for a few weeks.  I didn't find out until later that you should NEVER just stop taking those drugs.  

So I really don't know if it was the Paxil or the Ultram, but it scared me so bad, I'll never take them again.