Scared today

[ribs2k]

Sorry for posting so much today, but I am scared of tapering and dropping off Tramadol after tapering this coming week. I want to stop worrying about it, but I can't stop thinking about how bad it might be. Plus the risk of having my OXY supplier right there at work. I asked him not to give me any if I ask, but he said you know I always have stuff for you. How do I get my head straight and not worry so much?
Thanks,
Randy

[ribs2k]

Yes thanks elm. I will do this. I flushed everything but the amount needed for my taper.

[Elmijack15]

Sent you a message

[Elmijack15]

You beat cancer and I know first hand what thats like, so you can and will do this! And thats what you have to tell yourself over and over again. Cancer didn't kill you!! so damn if you're gonna let a supplier kill you with pills! Not an option!!

[ribs2k]

  That's true, what's the worst that could happen. It will be uncomfortable, but so was the OXY withdrawals

[Elmijack15]

It's totally understandable, take the Ativan that's what it's there for. Ok, what's the worse that can happen when you stop the tramadol? Think of that and then realize that it's not as bad as you're mind is setting you up to think it is :)

[ribs2k]

You are right about that, taking OXY again is not an Option.
Thanks so much for the support. Just felt weak today

[Elmijack15]

Are you taking any anti depressants? They may help too. And as far as the supplier at work stay away, yes he/she is there but it's up to you to stay away. Don't go backwards you've come so far don't let anybody take this away from you. This is your life and you have to make it right!

[ribs2k]

Thanks. I have a plan, but I am just scared about how hard it will be to jump off next friday. But I am trying very hard to not think about it. I took my antidepressant,(very low dose) and when I get really bad I will take an Ativan. I guess I just have too much time to think today,
Thanks,
Randy

[Elmijack15]

You've withdrawn from Oxy's and you haven't been on the Tramadol long, I thought you had pills for anxiety? Why don't you try this? Remember your mind is very powerful so the worse you think it's going to be the mire anxious you'll become. I know it's easier said than done but stick to a plan, take your anxiety meds and try to start thinking positive. It will help you tremendously. My husband also beat cancer and his positive attitude made all the difference in the world. You've been thru so much, don't overthink this, you're going to be fine. Hugs and prayers coming your way!