Apology for yesterday's post

[witsend0603]

Not really a question .. I just want to apologize to all for the posts I made yesterday. I'm requesting that my acct be removed from the site since I don't think I should be here.  I was having a really bad day yesterday and looking back at some of what I wrote just seemed like lashing out and none of you need that.  So I have put in a request for medhelp to remove me from the site and if and when I feel like I have my sh** more together I may come back and hopefully give someone else the support they need.  Again I just want to apologize to everyone for yesterday and I wish you all the best of success on your journeys...

[pharma9]

Oh gosh...don't leave.We are here for everyone..whether complimentary or not.We are here for you in your deepest and darkest despair.Where else could you go.
If you feel angry and lash out,you are not the first and the last to do so.
We are here for you regardless and keep posting because later you may feel different.
Sendin cyberhugs to you.....

[rafe44]

Wit i relaspe so many times after detoxing for 4,5 6 days that its not funny. Thats what drug addicts do. And ur a drug addict.  Don't leave, iassure u all us addicts have had our share of bad days. But man if you really want to get sober then you need help. find a sober addict or councilor for help. Use this website and any other thing u find helpful. One of the most important things for a addict to get better is for him to be as honest as possible. And u did this by telling us about your relaspe. So just pull ur damn pants up and start over 1 day at a time. U take care and give yourself a break!

[witsend0603]

Gotta go for now .. but I may try to catch you guys later tonight... have a good rest of the day everybody

[witsend0603]

I have thought about it but I am a strong person and God is stronger than any aftercare I could possibly search for.. I will think about it though

[Beccabeccalynn]

Have you thought any about aftercare ?
Becca

[witsend0603]

The person whose number I have actually is a real friend... he is wanting to quit too so I can't knock him out of my life .. we need each other for support now... but now the numbers of people he has is a different story.. and yeah he should get rid of those.. when I quit a little over a year ago this is the person I had for my support and he had me so we already discussed it and we are gonna try to lean on each other for support again

[Beccabeccalynn]

So what about erasing that number? No connect is a nice way to get started in recovery
becca

[Downey]

I would stick around. This site is for people like you and me too.

Take care,
Downey

[witsend0603]

That's funny...lol... I do sound like I'm on a pity pot don't I ... sorry ... thanks for making me laugh I needed that

[Beccabeccalynn]

If a contrary additude or a relapse was all it took for us to not be welcome well they may as well shut the sight down lol.  you have seen many responses to your post now and you can tell we don't have issue with it. So let's get off the pity pot and erase your connects number off both your phone and your husbands. Make some forward movement today instead of dwelling on yesterday. Buck up camper I am on your team.
Becca

[sweatinit]

You can do it! also on a side note...none of us deserve the kindenss that is offered here. So keep on posting, my friend.

[witsend0603]

No .. actually... hookup called me... funny how that works.. anyway... you guys are toooo suportive and I don't deserve it after yesterday... but do appreciate it very much.  As I said before .. I have quit once before and I CAN do it again.. I just need to get my stuff together... so to speak... thanks for all the support after I was such a major B**** yesterday... I am not deserving of such kindness :*)

[Beccabeccalynn]

Did you call your hook up yesterday? Are you on day 4 of detox?

[vicki595]

You'll be of great support to others once YOU get the support YOU need.  I had a feeling you were going to cave yesterday...it's okay...get up and try again.  Let the forum support you for a while...and find some local support.  

Keep posting and no more pills okay?   We're here to help and support you;it helps us too!!

Vicki   xo

[Dafishman]

We all make mistakes !!!!

Sweatinit is right leaving is never an answer. Don't run, that is what we do when we use. It's an flight response to pressures or situations we do not want to face. Just follow the old cliche. Is you dont have somthing nice to say dont say it at all. Post your true feelings and ask for help. Be as transparent as you can and we will be here to try and help you.

Take care & God bless you.
Dafishman

[witsend0603]

Thanks for asking me not to leave.. I DO appreciate it.. I may stay and just read some more posts but I messed up yesterday and took some tabs... I felt so bad that I felt like I was losing my mind... I know I shouldn't have dont it but I did and can't take it back now.. I just feel like I can't contribute unless I am stronger and more together with my thoughts.  That's why I thought it would be better to leave.  I have quit before on my own and I know I can do it again.  I just think that everyone here needs support not negativity and that's all I was contributing yesterday was the negative.  I will reconsider though.  Thanks again for your response

[sweatinit]

dont leave...we have all been thre. No one has all their crap together...ever. stay and maybe jsut listen if you are having a rough day. I really hope you reconsider!