Starting Buprenorphine on Monday - Questions....

[ColdInVT]

Hi - here is my deal.  I am 35, I have 2 children and have been married for 14 years.  I have a good job and a nice home.  Why is it that all I care about are percocets and how to get them?  I feel like the biggest loser.  I am up to 20 a day and have been doing this for over a year.  Prior to the past year and 1/2, I would use percocets for recreational use which soon started to spiral out of control and here I am today.  

I have decided to get off the percocets as I have a lot to lose at this point (including my health!).  I am, frankly, scared to death.  I only know how I am (personality wise) with percocets and am having a hard time seeing myself without them.  I hate myself for allowing this to happen to me.  I will start bup. on Monday and was hoping someone can tell me what to expect.  I am worried that I will get to this appt. (which is 3 hours away) and be sent home with nothing?  Will they start me on the bup. the same day?  I suppose it depends on the doctor, but I am really counting on this treatment to work.

I want/need my life back... Anyone out there know what the first appt. is like?  Please let me know... :)

[pammy0690]

Ah I loved it Doll!  I am buddy buddy with our tech support so I get to do what I want.   If I do get fired I can collect unemployment and when that runs out get a job making more money anyhow!  LOL!  PAmmy (A good financial aid officer is hard to find harder to train!)

[peaz]

HEY--Did ja get a load of my morning email???  LMFAO!!!  I almost lost my breakfast.......I'll let you decide whether or not to show it to Mr Rip....Hope it didn't get you fired..... TTYL  Love, Peazy Mae

[peaz]

Hi Doll--Just thought  I'd say "hey" and let you know I did read your weekend posts to see how you were faring, and you sound GOOD!!  I know you expressed a little anxiousness in one post; a "what happens NOW??" kind of thing, and  all I can say is that it's a feeling that ebbs and flows.....Gradually you will feel less apprehension.  This is a brand new gig for your mind and body, and it will take awhile (I don't know how long ;-) until this mode becomes second nature.  Try to stay mellow and not let  the introductory phase throw you for a loop.  Find something to do, and don't dwell on any panic or doldrums.  SMILE and kiss your husband.  Enjoy your clarity.  Thank God you made it.
   I'll check back tomorrow morning.  It's your turn to bring donuts.   Love,  Peazy

[pammy0690]

That is awesome!  I am happy to hear that he came around.  Sometimes a guys first reaction to a situation is anger.  Then once they have had some time to stew about it they come around.  You are doing very well!  My husband and I are both addicts and we had a hard time with it all for a long time. Around the time I started posting to these fine folks is when things started to come together but it is still a struggle and there are some ruff roads ahead.  We have had to work on the addiction together and are much closer because of it.  Keep comunicating to each other!  I be rooting for ya!

Peaz wouldn't that be a hoot!  My and Emma and Rip at your house?  Sounds great!  We can BBQ!  Love, Pammy

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

I'm not really trying to confuse anyone--I didn't know when i registered with Med help on my home computer that I could use my same nickname as at work--When I'm on my computer at work my nickname is N.O. Lady--When I post from home my nickame is Mystere--Sorry for any confusion!  How's my guardian angel today? I managed to make it in to work today but I'll tell you my heart is not in it!  I'm strickly a body because I absolutely cannot concentrate--My wonderful husband left me a card by the coffe pot this morning basically stating that we can overcome this addiction together!  I started crying--He really wants to help me beat this beast! You need to come down here to the beautiful Crescent City--We're gearing up for another BIG PARTY this weekend know as JAZZ FEST!--Yes I will be clean and sober!
I don't think I could have made it this far without all your love and support! I'll post again probably soon--Peace and Prayers- N.O. Lady AKA Mystere (from my home computer)

[peaz]

Hey Doll!! You can come to my retreat ANYTIME--bring Rip and your lab and we'll camp out in the yard.....LOL
   I tend to agree w/ your take on this: In-patient just more-or-less postpones the inevitable..I think it is INVALUABLE for those who CANNOT detox by themselves... but in NO LADY'S case, she is on her way and seems to be **** well.   When she posted: "When my doc found out that my husband was a physician, he recommended in-patient  right away!!"  I thought of two things: 1)  MD's stick together ---is he trying to sweep you away and under the proverbial rug? and 2) He assumes that your husband has the bucks to let you do the inpatient, so what the hell?  I may be wrong, of course......just my 2 cents...Pammie. Let me know when you'll be here.....