Still struggling

[Supermomtoo]

Hey everyone.  I'm really struggling here.  I'm thinking about trying to find an outpatient program.  I'm so tired of dealing with this problem and it sounds like something that will never go away.  I can't check onto a place for a week because no one can keep my kids.  I don't think that I'll be able to get relief from these symptoms with an outpatient program.  My pain doc tells me just to wean myself down.  Well if I could do that I would.  Jeez.  He passes out all this strong medication you would think he'd offer a way off it.  By the third or fourth day I'm whipped and tired.  I'm so beat right now.  Your head starts going places that you never thought your would and logically its just the drugs leaving your system but still....

I guess I just need to know that I'll feel better and that there is hope.  I'm so sick of counting pills and being sick every time the pill bottle is empty.  I want my moods to be even and normal.  I'd love to feel good when I wake up instead of so heavy and feeling like a truck had been running over me all night.

[beachtowel]

Unfortunatley your story is so typical. Starting out with legit pain the doctor gives out tons of strong narcotic pain meds for years and then addiction rears itself.
Suffering C/T is one option I tried and couldn't do it.
I went into a detox.
Doctors today have expanded their addiction clients to 100, laws have changed a lot recently.
You may want to ask your doctor for subutex and or suboxone detox method.
It is much more human in my opinion. Remember help is a good thing in addiction. Many addicts think they can get off drugs by thereselves. They think as an addict they also are experts on recovery this is distorted thinking.

Go to meetings and talk with people who have years of sobriety, there the real teachers....

[tink1517]

do you have anyone to help w/ the kids? i know from experience the stress of taking care of them while your body is detoxing is overwhelming.  i know you love your kids, but you need time for "you" for your body to heal. go to turntohelp.com you can find a dr. near you that prescribes subox., i called and got alot of info and i remained anonymous over the phone. i chose not to go that route, but everyone is different and it never hurts to check out your options. i agree w/ you about the dr's, they're quick to write the rx's, but when you need help all of a sudden they dont have an answer. hold in there, you are doing good. it's nice to see you posting, i'll be on all day if you need to talk

remember to take "baby steps"

tink

[girlybuff]

I feel your pain with this.  I am about a day into withdrawing c/t and it's hell.
I chose to go this way but you do not have to do it this way.  Try and see your dr or another for the suboxone.  It will ease your withdrawals.  I know about the kid thing.  I am staying at my mother's under the pretense that I have the flu so she can care for my 6 month old.

[bowhunter71064]

im on day 4 girl hang in there i swear itll get better i went c/t ihad it bad for a good 2 days day 3 went out to dinner with wife and felt normal day 4 finally got that room in basement sanded. i feel great today just hang on a couple more days.

[addictedtoloratab]

This is such a hard thing to do when you have kids.  I am taking 2 pills a day, which is messing with my head I think more than quitting.  I understand the thoughts that you would never think before hand.  I am right there with you.  A out patient program is a great idea.  I did it for a while and my insurance got cut.  Do you have any help with the kids??  If you do, then you could use them and claim your previous post response, you just have the flu.  Remember your mood swings and emotions are going to run wild for a while.  If you cant get in the out-patient, then what about NA, its good to get out of yourself and to be around others with the same problems.  I was a supermom too, and it feels like my powers got taken away.  It sucks.. But, I know that there is light at the end of the tunnel.  I also think that you might consider subutex also..  It would be nice if you had some help with your kids.  Keep me posted, I am in the same boat, I got 3 small ones and I am going crazy.. If anyone could just see my thoughts, they would commit me..Keep your chin up, I have seen people get through this...Huggs