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[wait2long]

My D.O.C.(i abused pills for 19 yrs, i have been addicted for 7yrs out of the 19yrs) was oxycodone (any form), i had my last oxycodone on sept. 26, 2006 and started methadone 20 mg. daily,( i had to get the methadone illegally) someone told me about suboxone, i took my last dose of methadone on may 20, and my first dose of suboxone on may 24... i started on 28-32mg of suboxone (never been so sick in my life from 24th - 27th), i am now down to 16 mg of suboxone, my doctor wants me to stay on suboxone for at least 2 years!?  what should i do? i really dont feel all that great! most people say suboxone is VERY STRONG, they say thay have the same side effects (constipation,sleepy, pinpoint pupils, etc...) as if they were taking D.O.C.,  i do not, and from what i read i am on a high dose?i do not understand what is going on with me? all i can say is that i am not TOO physically ill, i still dont feel NORMAL like everyone else has said..mentally i am a mess, i am in therapy, and so far i have been diagnosed with 4 different illnesses, and on 80mg. of prozac and take xanax only when i have to cuz i hate it...i still dont sleep or eat, i have no motivation, no ambition,i am having a real hard time "caring" about things like i should, i cry all the time (which is not like me, i have ALWAYS been strong),i go for weeks without leaving my house (except therapy) i have panic attacks and the worst of all is the ANXIETY, the anxiety is killing me slowly, i dont know how much longer i can hang on to suboxone...WHEN WILL I START TO FEEL BETTER? when will i start to feel like all this damn suffering will payoff? i dont care about getting high anymore i just want to be "NORMAL", what ever that is ...does anyone know the answers?  love and peace to all

[fishmeal]

pay attention to others as make informed dececesion

[wait2long]

I too have a handicapped child (although he is now a 22 year old young man), he was "diagnosed" with an "unknown syndrome"...we did the genetic testing (although his biological father wouldnt participate) and i did EVERYTHING to find out what happened to him,and that is all i got for an answer, love him to death just the same, and beleive he is a wonderful young man, so proud of all the milestones and how he handled his difficulties. but i do also understand the hardship and all the unanswered questions, just keep doing all you can do, and you too will be proud. love and peace to you...(they did question autism at one point, but unable to confirm it so they counted it out for a diagnoses)

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I talked to my suboxone doctor today, she is advising me to get a referral from my therapist to see the phsychiatrist to get my psyciatric meds. changed to help with severe depression, anxiety, and panic... BUT of course that option is limited also so i may have to wait up to 3 months!! I just have to keep telling myself that i made a promise to my family to stick it out for 6 mos. or so, i can not disappoint them AGAIN or myself for that matter, i just wish i would start to get some releif or the feeling i was actually accomplishing something, just want to be well, not looking for perfection. so i am STILL WAITING... love and peace...

[FLaddict]

Sorry I didn't see your post to me last night..and I just logged on about an hour ago..
IF that is the only doc then that is that... Many people who swiched from methodone have had more probelms being comfortable on it than those that switched from shorter acting meds.
The only time I have ever read that longer is better is from the drug co that makes it or a doctor that buys what they say... If you talk to any of the people who have actually taken Sub for 2 years.. they would not agree with that statement they would urge you to get off or have never taken at all.

[wait2long]

I think your right about the statement that longer is better...i did read that from the drug co. site.....

[FLaddict]

"longer is better" in their eyes is better.. more revenue... people getting hooked on the stuff.. convincing people they need "maintenece" to get their lives together.. this drug was intended for the symptoms of opiate withdrawl.. not day to day addiction..that is what counseling and other stuff is for.. to get your life together.. More drugs will not help you "start over" it kinda prevents you from moving forward.. You can't fight fire with fire..