im a new comer to this forum and would just like to know that im not alone!!

[TKsmommy]

hello! im new to this forum as i said and i dont really wanna start out by asking for anything....i would just like to know that im not alone and i know im not by everyne in here but it would be nice to know a lil about everything this forum offers before i deside what im gonna do! idk.... im scared to death and although i have so many reasons to take the sobur road im still not sure yet! thank you all for your help already!!! :)

[TKsmommy]

thank you all for everything!! thatwent alot better then i though that it would have!! lol!

welp heres the skoop!! ....(im not sure where to start) ...uuum....ive been useing since i was 12 -13.
i realized i had a problem when i got pregnant and tried to quit but couldnt. i know that makes me an awful parent and (although she is perfect) i try to make up for that everday!!!
im the type of person that if you laid a line out in front of me and although i knew not to do it i would!!! i know thats stupid!!!! but any kinda pill upper or downer that you can snort, eat or my fave. being methadone that you drink...im all about it!! i was addicted to methadone for about 2 1/2 years and after i had my lil girl i went to rehab to try and get clean...( the withdral was the worse thing ever) but after about 45 days of being clean i went right back to useing again and hit bottom quicker this time and ....well...all in all ive got 3 drug charges and ive spent 95days for one of them and its like the first sight of a pill i just cant say NO!!!

right now im useing methadone once again and i eat speed when i dont have that!! im not useing enough to have withdrals i dont think cuz im only useing about 2 times a week...but evertime i want more...i just want to get as high as i can and when i come down thats all i think about!! no one knows im useing again and only my family found out when i went to rehab!!.....im so ashamed of my problem that its pothedic!!! i have so much i want and i know i need to quit but i just hate the emptyness that it gives me!.....i always have this emptyness feeling in me and it drives me insane!! i know im only gonna get worse and ive lost so much but...getting high is all i know!

thank you all for everything!!! i just dont know what to do anymore!! i guess i just need some one that truly understands what im going threw! you all are the best!!

[wantlifeback]

Welcome, you are in the right place.  I came here in Sept and i am now clean 50+ days.  I couldn't have gotten through the rough times without all the wonderful caring people on this forum.  Please post your question and someone will get back to you with advice or just support.  
This forum was the best thing for me also.

Ask away!!!

[Savas]

Something familiar, something peculiar, something wonderful, a comedy, tonight!

Alright, that sounded more appropriate when I thought of it. I've got to watch those Broadway references. :)

Welcome one and all!

Weekends are a little slow sometimes so don't be surprised if it takes time for folks to get back to you.

[imanaddict]

Everyone here will take good care of you, no worries! We have all been there, done that so feel free to open up! That's what we are all here for...a shoulder!

[treglx]

I am kinda new here too. Working on a taper program and it's going well so far thanks to the kind people here.

I always new I wanted to get off the drugs, but thought I needed to go into a rehab of some sort -which wasn't practical. I never considered other options.

My husband/family are not aware of my problem, so at least for now, these folks are my support.

So, you have come to the right place. Keep posting.

PS Here is how I found this forum:

June- my dog ran into me in an open field tackle ALA Polamalu (football player) Broke my foot.
After all summer on crutches developed tennis elbow.
Went to Med Help to get info on this-read a post regarding tennis elbow and addiction to pain meds.
Kept reading.
Decided to quit my meds, have tapered to 1/2 pill per day. Will be down to zero by Thanksgiving (i hope)
Still have the tennis elbow, but am working on losing the drug addiction.

[flmagi]

Welcome from me too. You are so not alone. Everyone here is in the same boat, either dancing with the idea of getting clean, going thru withdrawls or has gotten clean. We're all scared. You have found your place in this forum. We're here to give you info, options and support and hopefully not to much pressure.  Don't let anyone scare you off with any negativity. OK?  So talk to us. What and how long? Do family and friends know?
Keep posting, tksmommy,
Magi

[alexandra fox]

Welcome - like you I started posting while still using, and used the wonderful support from this forum to prepare for detox and then to detox - and now I am clean :-)  Hang around, keep reading, keep posting, avail yourself of all the help this place can offer
Alex

[joievicman]

Welcome, and know that there are many good people here who will willingly respond.
I came two weeks ago and have recieved great support.  The forum really helps alot.
Finding this forum is one of the best things to ever happen to me!
joievicman

[alicenwonderlnd]

I am on day 4.  It is hard.  When I feel really scared and anxious, I pray and then I come here to read.  It helps.  I am sort of freaking today, so tell you to hang in there and stay around for support is helping me to get through today.    
There is caring here.

PS.  I am someone's mommy too.
Alice

[banana911]

you are sooooooooooooooooooo not alone.  tell us your shizzle!

[Summer123]

Welcome.  You are definitely not alone.  There are so many wonderful people on this forum that will provide lifelines to you.  Like Michael said, telling us about what you want to come off of will be a big help as lots of people have experience in getting off one thing or another.

[MICHAEL_777]

You're in the right place.  I too am new, but there are so many helpful and caring people here.  If you don't mind me asking.  What are you thinking about coming off of?  That will help the rest of us let you know what you might be in for, and what to do to make it more comfortable.  Love and Strength to you!!