1st. Time Posting

[Afriend4U]

I have been to this sight many of times, I started visiting and reading your sight when I was addicted to Vic's, oh were they my best friends, my only friend, my life, my every thought.  I finally made the decision that I really needed help and went to seek it in June,  I was clean for about 8 weeks and then replapsed for about 1 month and ended up right back to where I was.  I would jump on the computer and see how many more days I had till my next reorder, or would sit here thinking about what lie or excuse I would give to my doctor so I could get more Vic's, it was cool to pop a Vic but so scary to wonder if I would have enought to get me through till my next reorder or how I would get more.  OHhh that just took so much out of me, I just wanted to be normal again and function like a normal person.  Well like I said the relapse only lasted about 1 month, (thank god) and since then I have been CLEAN and CLEAR, it's been about 10 weeks.  I must say I've had good days and bad days, on the bad days I would read this sight and would read the stories of how they wanted out but were scared and just the so many different situations that everyone had.  I would say to myself do you want that, your past that and on the next street, why back track and have to start all over.
I so many times would want to write my about myself and tell you my struggles but I said "no", I will know when it's time and that time came today.  I signed up and just started typing away and as you can see it ALL came out...lol.  I just want everyone out there to know that it can be done, take each day one day at time and before you know it the time just passes and you look back and nodd your head and thank god and everyone for getting your through it.  

[angel456]

you made the grade, eh? its good to hear someone else 's  gains thru pain. gosh, am i going thru hell.

[narc-vet]

Yup, I concur.  I have been clean for months, but check back here to remember WHY and HOW I need to stay clean.  Whatever floats the boat...

[wait2long]

congratulations...it sounds like you are doing well...keep up the hard work and stay strong!!!