Tapering Formula

[Sean5110]

I can't believe I'm here. That is, I have been free from a heroine addiction for 9 years, have gotten married, have had 4 children (another on the way), finished degrees, certifications, become Vice President at a large bank, have nurtured a strong prayer life and have now found myself addicted to hydrocodone (approx. 200mg/ day). It all started when I was in a funk with myself/job/wife and "experimented" by trying to get a script online. It was easy. Well, it has progressed to the point where I am forging prescriptions, which seems too easy. I tried to quit a couple of months ago (this has been going on for approx. 6 months), was through the worst, and started it up again. Now, I'm so scared to quit (withdrawal was hell and I have large family who depends so heavily on my very active involvement. My wife has horrible morning sickness and I do absolutely everything home/child related before and during my bank job.

I'm rambling. Does anybody have credible advise regarding a tapering program? I've seen several "formulas" but some seem contradictory. Unfortunately, I can share this with absolutely no one. My wife is a no bull s--- type of gal, has no sympathy and would force a separation for a good long while (I don't see this as good for the kids, not to mention it would be devastating for me). I feel so selfish, so alone, and frightened that I may get caught for my illegal indiscretions (surely I must be missing something to think that prescription forgery is easy and painless).

Thank you for listening. I haven't mentioned this to anyone other than a priest. So lonely.

[Sean5110]

What do you mean when you say that you didn't do it right and ended up with a bad marriage? Unfortunately, I know my wife's limitations well enough such that letting her know is out of the question. She has all but said to me, "if you ever get re-involved in your addiction(s), just stop immediately, I don't want to hear it and if I ever do find out, you're out of here."

I really am interested in someone's real-life experience of tapering off hydro. I need to be able to function, although I don't want to go too slow (I tried that and it didn't seem to work).

Thank you anybody who cares to respond.
Sean

[bmac]

Yes there is help.There are professionals that come here but
withdrawals aren't my specialty.The other addicts here know I
didn't do it right and ended up with a bad marriage(I didn't tell
her for a year.)Do not do this alone.No matter what you think
there is help here,I got it all last week.You need to seek
medical help.Detox like they tell you.Don't try it any sooner than they suggest.I know,I did it my way and ended up in an
ER.Someone will help you here.
                              bmac