Such a Beautiful post!! You took the words right out of my mouth! You NEVER ever know what someone else is going through! I always try to smile at a stranger, you just never know. IBK done the same for me! I pray I can be half the person she was!... Leave even half the legacy! I am with Sarah.. I am wiping back the tears!
Absolutely Breathtakingly Beautiful post!!
-- Ashley
I am so touched by your comments. I need to compile my thoughts and wipe these tears. I am so grateful you are here~ sara
Ya same here.my quit date was November 21st 2014 and IBK was there for me too. I also didn't no her name was Bonnie until I read Sara's heartbreaking post yesterday. Also another women that's been there for me,along with gnarly. He's still here btw helping ppl. I saw you mention him in your post. I read your other post about how you wished you could go back when you thought fentanyl was the hard stuff. I remember starting on T1's and working my way up to the Oxys since 2003. I didn't go past the oxys but they were enough. I Had the suicidal thoughts atleast 10 times a day. Even planned on how do to that I knew would be successful. I feel sick just thinking About it. I would have missed my kids growing up,there graduation,their weddings, my grandkids. These 8 and half months clean have been the hardest of my life,but so worth it. I pray you find the power in you to quit and get back in to recovery. Remember if there is a bed in detox for you tomorrow it won't matter unless you're really ready to do this. We get to a point where we think this is it and I'm going to use until I die! But it doesn't have to be that way,I promise you!! It's hard fking work the hardest things you will ever ever do,but isn't your life worth it?? You only get one. Then it's over all to soon. Take care man,I hope things work out for you!! Krissy
What a wonderful post! Sarah is the best and for her to of saved your life I am sure she will be so grateful to have done that! There are so many special people on here that have saved so many life's that I am sure they do not even know that they have! I hope all is going well for you and you are still fighting the good fight!