I dont know what to do.

[Tiffany55]

my mom has completely ruined this whole process for me. She was so helpful and then tonight she drank wine(which turns her into the most unbearable person ever) I had a complete meltdown, I cant do this right now...I had such a positive attitude today about all of this and she ruined everything. I feel powerless now and all she wants to do is argue. I cant take this.

[Tiffany55]

thank you :) Im taking it hour by hour and all this support is more helpful then I even thought. time to get back to my friend, thank you again :)

[Tiffany55]

Yeah the cruise thing was awesome...it helped a lot. Now if only my friend could come back from Iraq again and pay for it all haha. Im hanging out with my friend now, we're just watching movies,relaxing, and talking..it seems to be helping a lot. Thanks for believing in me and giving me support, such a big help. :)

[toxictome]

Great job, Tiffany.....you hang in there, girl....just for this hour...this is living life on lifes terms, and we can't change people, places, or things, but we can change ourselves and our behavior...you have to want to be clean, more than you want the drug....and it sounds like that is the decsion you've made ... TO BE CLEAN   ..give yourself a pat on the back...it does get easier with each passing day...when I get to a point to where I want to use, I play the whole tape thru to the end..and nope, the end isn't where i want to begin again....you can do it!!!!!

[hopsing94]

It was the cruise, wow you have found a new way to detox. I love it.
Sounds like your gonna be ok. It's good that your friend is coming over. We are so proud of you. Its amazing what someone can accomplish when you put your mind to it. Way to go tiff.

[Tiffany55]

Right now my mom isnt using the pills, she seems to have a lot easier of a time getting off of them..or shes just putting on an act to make it easier for me, either way she hasnt asked me to buy any and I was her source for right now...so Im pretty sure shes done. Right now Im actually feeling pretty good...I mean Im obviously not in tip-top shape out with friends or anything, but a friend of mine is coming over in a little so itll be nice to have someone to talk to about other stuff. I didnt post this before but I went on a 7 day cruise in November and I was off the pills for 5 days, and I really felt fine..I mean there were times when I wasnt feeling my best, but I still did really good and had an amazing time. Im not sure if it was because I was constantly drinking, or because I was on a damn cruise seeing different countries with a guy I liked...I just wish I never wouldve started back again when I came back...but I guess we cant change the past.

[hopsing94]

Oh man girl. That sucks,i'm very proud of you for not getting those pills. I know how bad you wanted this and you can still do this. You did the right thing by posting. A couple questions,where is your mom now and whats her state of mind right now. I know she uses them to and I'm praying shes not asking you to get some. How are you feeling right now? and let me tell you something,you hold the power right now. RIGHT NOW you can still make this happen. There is always gonna be something to interfere with the perfect detox. That's Gods way of making you suffer so you don't use again. Lets take it slow and stay focused on the goal. Whatever you do don't take anything right now and lets try to get through this. We are here for you.

[Tiffany55]

things are better now, my mom knows now she cant drink while Im going through this...

I slept ok after all of the drama from last night, i took a klonipin and fell asleep and ended up sleeping ok :)

[dove3053]

You should be proud of yourself. Sorry about your Mom. I think you know that's it the booze talking.

Dove

[marcatj]

good for you!!!  you should be proud!!!

and every time you DON'T grab a pill when you get triggered, it gives you that much more power to deal with this kind of stuff (because, unfortunately - this stuff will always be there.)  you'll just be better equipped to deal with it, the more you handle it like you did.

good for you, girl.. :-)

[enemy48]

Sorry about the mom thing.  Do you have somewhere (a friend) that you can go to for the first few days?  

How did you sleep last night?

[Tiffany55]

I was so tempted to go buy a couple pills and just forget about it...but I didnt. So Im pretty damn proud of myself :) Im glad we're in your prayers...we definitely need it.

[GoingToMakeIt]

   Oh hun. I'm sorry. Don't let her problem affect your decision. If you can, keep on going. It will get better. If you start then stop, then start then stop. It gets harder each time to stop. I will say this. Every one of us can tell you that there is always an excuse that pops up to keep us from going thru with it. You Can Do This! I believe that you are a very strong one. I'll be praying for you and your mom.

[Lovethetabs]

sorry to hear what you been through, but just put it behind you and dont take it serious, you know what you have to do and dont listen to anyone that will put you down, or make you feel bad