well today is the day, i am going for my surgery today. I posted a couple of day ago about someeone gave me oxy's for money i loaned them well in case anybody cares i flushed them screw the money, even though that was my rent money, oh well i will survive and now al least i dont have the guilt or drugs in my system. the only thing tat sucks is all the work i put in to stay sober, and now i will be taking the same drugs after my surgery that caused the problem to begin with.
CONGRATS!! thats awesome, you are doing incredible, now don't look back........don't let the mental cravings get a hold of you, its not worth it, nothing it worth this torture. I have to tell you today was the first day I'm feeling normal. I was detoxing with methadone....I didn' take anything after 2pm yesterday so when I woke up i was wide awake, the birds were chirping, the sun was shining, it was so weird, I FELT NORMAL THIS MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!! Keep up the wood work
GWH
Hi everyone: ) I posted a couple of days ago, concerned about Vicodin withdrawal and some issues associated with it. Glad to say, that today is my fifth day without it. Although I am proud of myself for being so strong to get through it. It was tough the first three days, but yesterday morning I felt like myself again. Well, a glimpse anyway: ) My biggest ailment was the restlessness of my legs and arms. I just could not sit still. It was so frustrating and painful that I cried through Monday afternoon.: ( That tapered off, thankfully, and I went through the flu symptoms and all that fun stuff. I wasn't able to eat until tonight, which, when my tummy started growling, I ate and ate and ate: ) I'm nautious right now but at least I ate: ) Happy about that! Also happy that I'm doing allright. Taking a little at a time, looking forward to tomorrow because I know what tomorrow is, a little bit better than today. Each day I've looked forward to the relief of tomorrow. : )
However...*sigh, there has to be a but...* I'm out of my mind hyper. I'm shaking, as if I took way too many caffeine pills. I went out for the first time tonight, all my friends noticed. My eyes are so wide open, I can't seem to calm down. I feel like running a marathon, if only I thought my legs could take it! : )Does anyone know how long this will last? I haven't slept since Monday at 8 PM, and it's now Thursday morning, almost 5 AM. I'm not tired. I'm feeling loopie. Sleep aids are no help, I tried high blood pressure pills, no good. Any advice would help: )
The mental cravings are still there, but I've just looked the other way, the way that shows how far I have come and how hard I fought to be here now. It's helping. But...the shaking...arg!
SCHLUB - are you out there? How are you? Please let us know!
Confused girl - good for you. You should hold your head up after doing that. I for one would sure have trouble not tucking them away for "just in case." Your surely on your way! Keep it up
NOD
maddog:
what i ment in my post above is get on the l-tyrosine/b6, zink,
manganese, magnesium, copper, and vitamen a as soon as possiable!
people who are taking opiates deplete the bodys supply of these
amino-acids, vitamins, & minnerals, which are key ingrediants in
manufactureing endorphans, dopimine, etc... so i've found that if
i take it every day, weather i'm using or detoxing it sure makes a huge difference, espically while detoxing!
as far as tapering...if you can do it. i've always found it incredably difficult to taper. the benefits of tapering are marginal for me. there is something to be said for stopping cold. i sometimes will take a very reduced dose of oxy-c (for me 20mg) the first night and no opiates there after. i can't say enough in favor of the nutritional supplements. i think, for me anyhow, that is what makes detoxing very "doable!"
hippy:
i was clean 17 years before an old injury to my neck came back to
literally tear my life to pieces. it's intresting to note what
pain changes in the addiction/recovery model.
hey both you guys, welcome to the forum! there will always be room *for just one more addict here!*
keep an angel on your shoulder
kip
Thanks Groovy and skipper---Thanks and good luck to all!!!--may GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU. I do beleive no matter what vitamins or system each one of choose that without his GRACE we won't make it. Thanks again---Your Friend----Michael