8 months + clean (good news finally)

[justlikeyou]

it was horrible to say the least after a back injury i took opiate based pain meds (from a friend of a friend, different pills different weeks, but im sure it was everything ultram vicodin percs morphene methadone etc  "as needed"  if my back botherd me i took something) for 3.5 years, i quit cold turkey when my back got better (5 years of chiropractic 2 x  week)

it was a brutal time, no sleep muscle aches all night etc etc after 6 months i was still feeling cr@p all the time and couldnt sleep, went to a psychiatrist, tried some anti depressants, no good, made me feel speedy (cymbalta, effexor and prozac) tried an anti psychotic (seroquel) and could finally sleep for 6 hours +, started to feel better after a couple weeks of sleeping ok.

its been 7 weeks now, taking the seroquel, im feeling much better.

long term pain, sleep deprivation, cold turkey can all lead to depression and psychosis i have learned,

i stuck with it, im over 8 months off the opiates and hope that the seroquel use will be short term, im keepig to dose as low as possible (i dont take it unless i feel a little 'edgy') i have reduced the dose by 40% in 7 weeks, im hoping continued good sleep and i can be free of the seroquel in a couple months?

when i talked to my family about this i learn that my brother sister and father all have had bouts of psychosis / depression over the years.

im guessing the long term pain, detox and insomnia 'triggerd' something that was already there.

i still think about some opiate pills now and again, and know they would give me such a lovely warm energetic peacefull happy feeling instantly,

but i also know where that could lead.

im going to stay strong, and work towards a drug free and happy life.

my thanks again to those of you who helped me,

(thats anyone who posts here)

examples of what i want, and examples of what i dont want ;)

[wait2long]

CONGRATULATIONS!!!   man, this a HUGE accomplishment!  you have a lot to be proud of, your an inspiration to everyone!!!

[Yoda99]

Wow, wow, and more wow!  That is great, and I'm really proud of you.  I remember when you first came here and we talked.  It is so good to hear from you and hear of this huge accomplishment.  Keep up the good work!
Love,
Yoda

[troubleinohio]

hey congrats on 8 months! It was great to read your update. Very inspiring! I am back on antidepressants again too. I was on them for manyyyyyy years, then quit CT about 6 months ago or so. THat didnt work out so good for me. Ive only been back on Prozac for 3 days now but I swear I feel the tiniest bit better already and thank god it hasnt given me the bad side effect it did previuosly (which is what made me stop taking it in the first place). Im feeling pretty optimistic that the Prozac will help me get through WD this time and be able to stay clean.
Thanks so much for checking back in with us with your update! Im proud of your accomplishments!!

[marcatj]

ps - it is really, really great to hear that you're feelin' better....

[marcatj]

buddy.... amazing.  you beat the pills, on top of having this fight with the depression.  that is HUGE, and i hope very much you realize what an accomplishment that is.

it would have been so easy to go backward.  but you didn't.  and that is huge.

kudos to you buddy.  man i hope you feel proud of this...

btw - my family has a history of depression, too.  it's hard, and makes more sense why we used (absued.)  i personally wouldn't trip on the serquel... you'll use it as long as you need it.  especially if your family has a predisposition of dep/psychosis, well, you just may need a little help.  so, ok...  i imagine it won't be forever.  but even if it was, so what.  you're not numbed out on pills, your trying to get a good night's sleep!

i think what you have done is tremendous, and you should again, feel like a very proud man.

congrats, bud....

:)
mj

[BlotOutTheSun]

great job 8 months, im on day 2 lol, hope everything will eventually turn back to normal for you, i also want a happy life that doesnt require drugs to make me happy

CONGRATS 8 MONTHS