Ultram Withdrawals

[Buffalo]

Hello, I am 3 days into a life without pain meds and looking for some words of wisdom from those who have traveled this road. I have, for the past two years, been on heavy doses of Ultram (20-30 pills a day). I obtained the meds through my Dr. and through the internet. What an irony, that medicine that is supposed to releive pain has actually caused so much more. I finally got a little sleep last night, and the other symptoms are a bit better.I would like to know how long the detox period should last on average? Any wisdom out there? I have made my problem known to three very trusted friends who are willing to help me be healed. I believe this is a good first step. I'm just needing some help on the next steps. thanks for listening.

[kilo]

Don't know much about in/out-patient detox, but I know it can be more humane than cold turkey at home.
Hey things happen for a reason! Good for you on being upfront to your doctor and for letting your husband dish out your last vikes. Hope all goes well. Keep in touch and BELIEVE in YOUR recovery. Nothing worth having is ever easy.
Peace to you.

Kilo

[nicety911]

Kilo: Yes, i DID hear you... as I was doing the same thing! It was especially bittersweet last night... let me explain why:

In my original question which i posted to the forum "Lorcet gave me energy, then took my life away..." i mentioned that my drs office had finally caught on to me and asked me to come in. I was deathly afraid of what to expect, originally thinking I had done something illegal and would be arrested on the spot (for filling my scripts way ahead of schedule at different pharmacies and paying cash). And although that part of my fear had been calmed by many people here on the forum telling me i hadnt done anything wrong legally, i stil had to face the wrong i had been doing to myself and my body. So.... i faced the music and kept my appt yesterday. I was greatly relieved to find that no, he was not angry with me or disappointed, but deeply concerned and wanting to help!! I was completely honest with him in what had been happening, how much i had actually been taking and upfront about the wd's, which were in full swing by that time.

I have a 10:30a appt Monday to go into a detox facility, tho i won't know the actual details as to whether it would be an in or out-patient thing. He would need to make a few calls to see what was available/appropriate for me.  He told me to take the weekend to get my affairs in order & plan on going straight into the facility for a few days. He did give me a few more Lorcets since he wouldn't be able to place me anywhere until monday & didnt want me to have to suffer so badly w/ WDs... i immediately turned them over to my husband so i dont go thru them like i know i would, but knowing that they are there is consuming my thoughts!!

Can anyone tell me what to expect when i go into this facility? My husband seems to think i'll be gone for weeks, but my doc said it would be 3-5 days, depending on their assessment of me. I asked him "is it going to be like they will lock me in a padded room for 3 days and watch me writhe & crawl around and scream while i'm withdrawing??" He laughed (which was actually nice because it made me laugh too) and said "that's only in the movies!!" Can someone please tell me, tho... what will actually happen?

[mystere]

I went to inpatient detox several years ago--They gave me a whole bunch of drugs to make me comfortable and then they gave me Naltrexone which totally detoxed me and made me opiate free after approx 12 hours. I actually slept through the withdrawals! After that part is over you feel like a wet dishrag for about a week but then you slowly get your stength back!  I was inpatient for appox 1 week--Went to therapy and they will hopefully give you the tools you need to begin your recovery--Good Luck!  You are doing the right thing by getting help!  Peace and My prayers are with you--mystere AKA New Orleans Lady

[nicety911]

i have read your posts throughout this forum and want you to know you are an inspiration to me!! It means so much to have gotten a response directly from you and has really warmed my heart!! Today is such a different day than yesterday when I wrote that to Lisa, because as i mentioned, I still had 2 pills left, therefore, the "strength" to be positive. But that was yesterday.... this morning i took my last 1/2 of a pill at about 6:30a after tossing and turning since 3a. I've taken 2 hot, hot showers to ease the sweating & clamminess that has taken over my body and my mind is just spinning, thinking "if i can just get one more script, i'll be okay".... BUT I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT!! Your post actually brought tears to my eyes... am i REALLY the person that you described above?? My heart wants to say "YES", but my mind is trying desparately to take control! So I will take your advice and FOCUS... not just for my husband and my children, but FOR ME!! Everything else will fall into place once I get myself together, right? Okay... here I go... i'm taking my first step on a long hard journey ahead... at least I know I will not be alone....

[kilo]

I love your attitude! The part about sneaking into your children's room after they are asleep, and reminding yourself about what is truly important is so very true. You have revealed such inner strength, now focus it and believe in yourself and your sobiety.
You have already armed yourself with the tools which can defeat this mistake we all have made.
Give yourself a hug...your mindset and determination is invaluable.
Peace to you.

Kilo

[nicety911]

My heart and prayers go out to you, Lisa, but i know you can be strong for your children!! Focus on them because truly, as Kilo says, their love is a lot stronger than the drug and will never run out!! I'm going thru my own **** right now, but I feel for you and want to give you some of the strength that i've received here on these posts! Take things one day at a time and perhaps try to wean yourself off by taking one less pill per day if possible. If you need encouragement, peek into your kid's bedroom when they are asleep at night and take a good look at their perfect, beautiful faces and you will find all the determination you need!  I did that last night and started crying like a baby!! I must admit tho', it's a little easier for me to say these things, as I still have 2 little pills left, but once they are done, i'll be posting a helluva lot more to find the support i need from the fabulous people here. They truly are rooting for each other and it will make a difference!
p.s. I also sell things on eBay, but haven't for the last week because i have no ENERGY!! As soon as I get thru these W/Ds, i'm going to get my butt moving and list my heart out to keep me busy!!Don't give that up, Lisa, you need to focus on something for YOU and it might help to keep you occupied and not thinking of the Ultram.