Vicoden Cravings

[Shea]

Hi all,

I desperatly need some advise.I have been clean from the Vicodens for about 5 weeks. I don't seem though to be to the point some of you are, like WW where you are really feeling good. But then I never felt as though they were hindering me. I functioned GREAt on them. I was energetic and fun to be around. And I didn't feel numb, actually I felt more passionate about everything when using Vics. So I can't look back on anything negative about how it made me feel. But I can look back on how ashamed I felt by the lying to so may doctors to obtain them. Anyhow, I did start feeling better when I started using Thomas's Recipe although I still had the cravings. So..here is my question and please I GREATLY appreciate your replys. The last few days I have seemed to revert. I am constantly tired and fatigued. And the cravings are incredible. That is all I think about. I don't think I will relapse but it is hard to fight. I am just not sure why I feel like I have taken 10 steps backwards. Is this too post acute withdrawls? Thank you for all your help and support.
I hope and Pray you are all strong in this time of national turmoil.

Shea

[big A]

Hey bud, I have been looking at this forum everyday for the last seven months, it is really a great place to be loved, and honest with yourself.I have looked at every single entry made here, and see nothing but caring people. May GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!! My D.O.C. was oxy, I was on 6 80's a day, and dextamathorphan, (spelling?) for opiate booster. I just want you to know that I am the son of a retired police officer, and i just wanted you to know that you can do it, we are all on your side, I've been clean for over 6 mos, and praying every day to stay clean,and thomas keep up the god work!!!!!!!

[cindi]

The first time I was in trouble they had a hard time with the amount of drugs i was using...not understanding my tolderance was astronomical they tried to get me for trafficking....i told thme I was much to stingy with my drugs to sell them...I needed them for me..pissed them off even more..they wanted me bad for trafficking....that would have definately meant my nursing license....which I still have....the second time I was caught it was for a minimal amount but the laws changed and I had to be turned over to the big guys immediately....DEA etc..they in turn came after me with both barrels cuz they weren't involved the first time around  the first time the hospital was under no obligation to turn me over to anyone  they handled it on their own  unless I didn't cooperate...so....the grand jury indicted me, put me on the news and I made headlines   so humiliating and degrading....i was at the end of my rope.....thank God for understanding judges...and my mom God rest her soul.....my husband was very supportive and pissed that they humiliated me like they did....they don't even do that to the rapists and murderers around here....but give them a nurse or doc with a problem  they run with it...my daughter was 18 months old and does not remember when the nice policeman came to my house,,,they were very nice and took me quitely no handcuffs...they were really bothered by the fact that they had to do this when it seemed to small....a few pills...but yet it was a felony...then they had to turn me over to the other police department..I was arrested in a little city but worked in a bigger city..right next to each other..that is when they met at a gas station cuffed me and there i went....the one cop knew my dad and said he would help me make bail..which i did...it was awful....i had a old drunk next to me in this room throwing up everywhere oh my God what a disaterous night....sorry to ramble like this...but i am concerned about you and your nurse friend.Bradd, if she gets busted she is in some serious trouble....and she is not even using or is she?  please be careful.....if you need to talk or anything you can email me at ***@****   take care   love to all        cindi

[butterbean]

Hi Bradd, no I didn't get that name any particular place, just made it up to use on this forum.  Hope everyone is doing well.  I have been off all meds for 10 days now, but, don't know if I can stay off as my pain is bad now. I am going to try to stay off or cut back.  Good luck to you Bradd!  To you and to WW , I am not in any program, afraid to do that as I have to think about my career.  I function very well on the meds anyways, except when I go through withdrawal when I have taken more than the persribed dosage.  I am alone, divorced, so I really have no support to help me with this.  Doing it alone, but, I can do it!  I know I can!  Take care.
Butterbean

[BRADD]

Hi Cindi, nursing must be a hard profession for people like us.  Ive gotten lots of pain pills from a nurse friend of mine.  Hope she never gets busted.  I never tried a 12 step program.  I guess I need to.  How awful it must have been for you to get arrested.  My best friend, ( a police officer ) Was just arrested for possession for sales of anabolic steroids. ( could get 4 years in prison ) He doesnt even sell steroids, he just uses them.  Loosing your career can cause great stress.  Anyway, thanks for replying to my post.  I love this forum.  That danny-guy or whatever his name is ( the one so critical of Thomas ) is a moron if he doesnt  think this forum helps people. Based on his statements, I would doubt that  he is any kind of professional.  Thank you all for being there and letting me know Im not the only functional addict in the world.  brad

[susanlea]

Yes...you can abuse the patch.  It's not even difficult to do.  When my ex came by a few months ago he asked me for pills.  I said sorry guy,  I nolonger take them, I use the patch instead.  He sat on the couch reading the insert.  I went to the bathroom before he left.  The next day I went to change my patch, and 3 were gone.  I decided to read the insert myself.  I know what he did, and I am sure he had one hell of a high.  I guess if an addict needs the buzz, they will find a way to abuse anything.  All I know is it helps me tremendously, I don't have to take the oxy's anymore.  I stopped them after over 2 years.  No withdrawals at all.  Just stopped, but of course I swallowed my pills, never chewed or snorted, and usually took less than perscribed.  I feel much safer on the patch, and I never ever....you know Gianna.....Love you all....Susan

[Witchywoman]

Hi Brad,
Of course we care...I was wondering how you were doing.

Don't be too hard on yourself, just keep your eyes on the goal of eventual freedom.

We are here for you anytime, no matter what.

love,
WW