I have learned in this whole thing that all we are all looking for, is to be told that we are not alone.
I have been worried about the nonstop eating I have been doing for days now, but the moment I read that you are doing it as well, I just got this peace about it, like it's just part of the process.
I do think that our body is telling us what it needs, or rather demanding it. I will admit that when I gave in and started eating, my progress at the gym stepped up. I finally really lifted yesterday and now I am sitting here sore as hell and content.
I think my real worry was that I have such an addictive personality that I did not want to replace tram with food. I need to step back and see that physically I am in a little pocket right now and all those vanity worries like weight gain and muscle loss are not important. I will have plenty of time to tend to those hobbies later, now it is about healing my body. I have to take care of it before I can push it to low body fat and greater muscle mass.
I had convinced myself that the Tram was helping me keep a low body weight, then last night I was reading in one of my body building magazines about reasons for a slow metabolism. That's right, unnecessary medications was the number one reason. I know everyones body is different, but I just marvel at all my excuses I told myself to stay on the pills.
I am feeling a little strange myself as I come out of the fog. I talked to my family via Skype this morning (my time, out of the country) and it was like I had left off with them four years ago and were seeing them for the first time. Thank God I have this form to double check with everyone about what "normal" is supposed to feel like. Thank you for the feedback!
Hey Am, hows it going?
My appetite has been full-throttle since day 3 of W/ds. I gained 12 pounds in 10 days, but it's ok I was underweight from malnourishment 155lbs is where my body is happiest at anyway. I haven't been fighting my appetite at all, I've just been working out a bunch. I'd like to take advantage of this opportunity to gain some weight, usually I don't have an appetite like this so it's hard for me to gain lots of weight "bulking" in the gym, last time I had this appetite (A few years ago before the pills) I gained like 20 lbs in a summer lifting 4 days a week.
I feel really weird, but I suppose this is what sober feels like? I don't really remember to be honest I've been high for years.
I am so glad for you and the progress you have made. The energy thing is still a problem for me. (day 24) but that will come.
Supplements and vitamins along with a good diet is crucial to a better life and body. 1234 mentioned fiber. This subject isn't touched on much. Fiber plays a very important double role. It will help with constipation which is good. It also helps absorb toxins which is even better!
Msinsane, You too should be congratulated. Way to go on day 5! It should start getting a bit better each day. Day 5 seems to be a turning point for most here.
I love this site! Thank you to both of you for responding.
First 1234betterlife, you are so right! I am usually a very picky, disciplined eater but these last few days my body has taken over. It has thrown out my eating "issues" and suddenly I am eating meat and craving peanut butter and other proteins. It has been beyond amazing feeling and watching my body heal itself and demand what it needs in order to restore health. I think the fiber idea is a good one, I will try it. Thank you!
msinsane, At day 5, I was still in bed most of the time and kept posting on this site, asking over and over again, "will I ever get back to normal?" Someone responded that wd's are so hard to deal with b/c everyone goes thru them differently. When I was on day 10, people were saying, you should be getting some relief by now and I was not. I don't tell you this to frustrate you, rather to ask you that you keep hanging on. I was feeling so weary for about 11 days and then things started picking up and I am starting to feel better than I have in years.
I mentioned listening to music b/c besides this site, it is what got me thru. I created a playlist on my i-pod simply called December 2007 and added songs and speeches that provided some relief. When I could not sit up to look at my computer b/c I was to worn out, I would just lay in my bed and listen to my list, it provided this constant reminder that I could get past this. You can do this, I promise, tomorrow you will wake up and feel better.
I would love to also hear from others about food and constipation issues while getting off tram ...
your story has encouraged me to go one more day without pills i am only on day 5 and this is the first day i feel a little better i just wish the cravings would go away i am addicted to every kind of pain pill out there!!! i want my life back
you have done great! congragulations! about the food. you do realize that we ignore what our bodies need to feed that addiction. now, it is wanting to replenish its stores of nutrients. take the supplements daily and eat what your body is telling you to. there is usually a reason you have that appetite. barring any food/eating disorder as in overeating, this should not be a problem. the body is amazing. it tells you what it needs. so go with it. make sure you eat plenty of fresh fruits/vegetables and if you are severely constipated you may need some help. try adding fiber supplements first, like benefiber. if that does not work you may need to yield to something stronger. even if it is just a one time fix to stimulate your system.